Snow Day…

Stayed up late watching Mandalorian, I believe I’m spelling it right. It’s part of Star Wars. I love baby Yoda. He is the cutest little thing. His eye expressions get me every time. Yes, I said eye expressions. I’m on the 6th episode in season 1. After falling asleep halfway through the 6th episode, I decided to get some sleep. Knowing there was snow coming in, I wasn’t too worried about rest. I figured it would be a day spent inside. I woke late and just laid there. I am enjoying the quiet morning then deciding it was time for a shower and my coffee. The thought of coffee motivated me to do so. My poison. I enjoyed both my kid’s company. Such opposite they are, it always amazes me of how our conversations will go.

My daughter an introvert, and my son an extrovert, and I in between. I honestly believe I am a bit of both. I think that is possible. Now it’s evening, and thankfully the snow has stopped, and I am cozied up in my blanket on the couch, thinking I may find something to watch on my Chromebook. A hot cup of hot chocolate sounds delicious and comforting right now. I wonder if this is why I like coffee so much the warm cup in my hands. I guess that isn’t a bad thing. I use to smoke cigarettes to give my hands something to do when I talk. I talk with my hands, so I think coffee is much better than cigarettes. And I do like the taste and aroma of coffee. Tonight I will add some marshmallows in the hot chocolate instead of coffee. It sounds a bit strange, but it’s delicious. My daughter showed this to me. Not tonight though marshmallows win . okay time to start the kettle 😊 I took some photos of the snow I hope you enjoy them .

Puzzling…

Friday morning woke from a dream that felt so real. I know we all have had that kind of dream. This though, was a dream like I have never had. It was so peaceful. Comforting. And felt so much love. I would say the rest, but you wouldn’t believe it. I’ll leave it at that . It was something so spiritual if that even describes it. And the rest of the day seems to follow suit in signs oh so many signs. A cardinal was appearing right in front of where my sister and I where parked on a bush while we’re talking about our parents that had passed many yrs ago. And then as fast as it appeared, it disappeared just wanting to show it’s presence. The day as I stated still followed with more signs. We went into a store that my sister had been In more than I could count, and I had never been in. It was like an indoor tag sale and antiques shop. This place was wall to wall stocked with everything you could ever imagine. I chuckled and stated that I would love to come upon an old fashioned stainless steel made meat grinder that back in the day you would clamp onto your counter and put whatever meat in it to hand spin the meat for sandwiches. I believe it’s could possibly be an antique. As a kid, I loved watching my mother use it. My sister agreed it would be something to find. As we browsed, I happened to look down at the same time as she did at this tin pail holding random items, and there was where we spotted the meat grinder And the look on our face. well, you could imagine was priceless. she reached down and grabbed it and said of all the things there was no price tag on it everything in the place has a tag on it and some things were so expensive I could only imagine. I asked the lady working, and she was like oh well that’s different and throughout a random amount. 5.00 dollars, all I could say was okay. Thinking though this was worth so much more. We left after that quickly.. She invited me to stay over her house and bake with her and her daughter and yes, drink coffee. She loved her coffee as well it’s a family thing. We stopped by my house so I could grab my things and off we went to her house that is our family homstead. So always going to her house is like going home again. She has redone it, and it looks beautiful, but it’s still home always will be. The three of us had a bunch of laughs and enjoyed homemade m&m cookies and coffee. Yes, I cheated on my diet, but so worth it. We stayed up way past midnight chatting . The day was absolutely amazing. There was many more signs and moments of discoveries . That proofed that our parents were still around us watching over us. Another time for that . When I post my meat grinder. I will say a lot I have discovered about my family and this thing called life and death . and even though someone has passed and we cannot see them . We can at least feel them if you open your heart and mind to it . Your heart is the easy part their your love ones . Wrapping your mind around it is another thing. For me both is easy for I feel very sensitive to this. It’s unbelievable but beautiful.

Silence…

It’s a quiet Sunday night darkness is already upon us has been for hours now. I’m wrapped in a blanket cozy upon my couch with a warm cup of coffee in hand. The silence is deafening making the the thoughts in my head a bit noisier . Im trying to embrace this moment but there is too many should of’s going through my thoughts. I know pointless.. or are they? Can we find answers from should of’s or only regrets? I do not like regrets . But my mind does wander there as well . I’m always telling my kids never regret . But then here I am . Oh we can be our own worse enemy at times . Off and on I hear the sound of the heat click on or a distant sound of the train near by .I wonder how many times a train goes by without even knowing until it’s silent then I hear it every time. The sound of it whistle echoing through the cold dark night. It’s silly but I always find it comforting. For a minute it’s sound takes me away from my thoughts. Yes a Moment of peace. I close my eyes and I take a deep breath in then out . And I do it all over again . My thoughts are so close to the surface with every beat of my heart. It’s the thought that touch your heart that are a bit more complicated ..For another day I think I will visit those thoughts for now I will just sip on my coffee feel its warmth and listen for another train to roll on by.

Laid back Tues…

Woke feeling a bit under the weather I laid in bed for a bit. Eventually I found myself to a quick shower and a cup of coffee. I decided to call the Dr . And went in into see her. While filling a prescription for an antibiotic I did a few small errands as well and headed home . I had a UTI so I was told to take the medication and relax no activities . Not being able to focus on a book I turned on my laptop got comfortable in the recliner and caught up on tv shows I have been wanting to do for awhile. And with Sept being the time the new seasons begin with shows I thought this was the perfect opportunity. Family had to offend for themself for supper . I did what I was told sat back and relaxed and caught up. Such a nice feeling. I caught up on A million little things . Love this show but time had gotten away from me so I kept missing all the episodes. Im happy to say I just finished and ready for the new season to come back. Wow such a cliff hanger . Now I remember why I love this show so much. My next episodes to catch up on will start tomorrow . Orange is a new black . This one could take awhile. Now I’m sitting here in the darkness with just the sound of the crickets echoing from the open door. Everyone is in bed already my daughter tho is out with her boyfriend . The house is quiet except yes the sound of the crickets . It’s a peaceful feeling. I could almost just drift off to sleep . Soon I will head to bed but for now I’m thinking of just taking this moment for myself and enjoy… why not..

New read and some downtime …

Hi everyone it’s been almost a week of not posting. I’ve been enjoying a new book .Thanks Diane! loving it so much. As well as some downtime .. I think the ac’s running so much this summer has done my sinus’s in.. soon I believe I will need to go to the Dr.’s and get some medication if there is no relieve soon. the past weekend we celebrated my daughters 24th birthday she had a great weekend it started with a Saturday night concert to see the Comeback of the Jonas Brothers. And ended with a beautiful cake on Sunday . And now all the birthdays are done and summer is widening down . Soon my son will be headed to college in about two weeks which I believe it’s time … he needs sone structure and routine and I need some time to myself once again.. Thankfully I have this beautiful book to relax with and focus on. I just hope I can stretch it out till my son leaves .. yes the air in my house is thick… 🙄 and well not feeling well does add to some anxiety .. so I am reading and reading ( hahaha) and did I say reading? To keep my sanity intact … so please bare with me . As I may not not be posting everyday . Until I feel better.

A simple day .. shouldn’t it be?

After falling asleep around 1 ( very early for this insomniac) and woke at 8. To a quiet house I was very surprised .. decided to lay there for a bit and enjoy it .. then it was time to grab a quick shower and then head to the kitchen for some coffee ..ahh coffee …and the Wendy show ( hahaha) my new norm since our cable took away our local channel I use to watch . Can’t complain nice to switch it up even if it isn’t by choice. After my coffee and show was done I started with the everyday house things laundry .. cleanup last night snack dishes. Put a meatloaf in the oven for dinner as I enjoyed once again my music blasting from my beautiful speakers, makes house work go so much easier . It’s relaxing. Now just catching on some blog posts and enjoying a protein drink . Needed to add a bit more protein to my diet . I guess I do not eat enough of what I should … thanks to coffee and water that fills me. 🙄 bad habit coffee , not the water . Well struggling with the Stephen King book .. I am determined to finish it but I know I need a new book just can’t find one so I’ll keep reading this one. Not much to tell .. let’s see sadly we are back to humid weather again after some really cool temps . My son is on his last week of his jobs he has committed very well to all summer . Taking a couple of the weeks he has left before he heads to college to do some trips to see some army buddies and finish dorm shopping . Actually he is pretty much all set just some odds and ends. Hubby will have a vacation next week . Not doing much maybe some day trips get somethings done around the yard just needs a break . I honestly think he will go stir crazy … he loves the work routine when he is home he is so antsy . Where I am the other I’m content ( hahaha) oh how things change. In past summers when the kid were young we took week vacations somewhere now trying to do that is not easy .. just trying to get us all together for a dinner out is so hard . Out of my hands now kids are adults just how it goes.

Supper is done … and after cleaning up I will try to read a bit more. Let’s see how much I get read .

Monday…

It was a late start to my Monday , slept in late I guess emotionally exhausted from the weekend. Plus the heat did not help . So ready for Fall. The cool crisp air . Comfy fun clothes…. boots ( hahaha) so ready to go boot shopping. And yes coffee all the Fall favorites. Summer has been a long one actually draining .. nothing lazy about it this year. A lot of feeling of change. Good. and bad. Age no .. new paths yes. Life is so full of many changes never not a learning experience.. Spent the day out with my daughter. Yes we enjoyed getting some coffee ,8:30 at night and pitch dark. Miss Abigail is sleeping away. I think she is happy the house is quiet. She doesn’t like it when we have all the family over she hides herself away.

New week not much planned. Just going along. My daughter has a concert this weekend with friends and my son will be away all weekend at his National Guard duty. A quiet weekend ahead. Okay with me. I can always find something to do with myself on the other hand my other half cannot. Wish he would get into reading a book. Not happening 🙄 what can you do . Well time for me to read . Stephen King book is getting better.