Settling .. thinking stop thinking, ..

Today time seemed to move in slow motion. I went around cleaning up things around the house ,dusting, the usual .Figuring what to make for supper . .. knowing I had time because my hubby had texted to say he was working late. I watched my day time soap and then as I was waiting for the washing machine to finish I sat outside on my swing closing my eyes trying to stop thinking .. reflecting back to what my daughter had told me earlier in the day.. ( read my post before this) couldn’t imagine how that family was coping with this loss … I looked up at the blue sky and thought how beautiful it was and the same word echoed in my mind…..why? Does God know why ? Does he understand ?

I worry about this I must admit because I have a daughter that suffers from such anxiety since high school she is doing much better now , has her moments but gets through . She is so sensitive which I believe is what makes me so nervous .. I know when she hears about suicide it breaks her heart . She has such a big heart . After sitting outside for a bit I knew it was not doing me any good because I just sat there swinging back and forth which usually I love but I was thinking thinking to much . I got up and made myself busy until finally the washing machine was done.. About 2hrs later my daughter walked into the house alone I looked around for her boyfriend she was with earlier … no where to be found . She stated he would be here soon was with his family getting a car from them and I just wanted to come home and wait for him . I didn’t push , I watched as she went down to her place and came back with her book in hand and settled on the couch as she asked what I was doing … I stated not much sat in the living room with her with my book . I knew she was needing some quiet time but also wanted to talk but not , always when she grabs a book. she then said said I think everyone is at the beach I was like what ? she said on Facebook everyone for the most part is saying their at the beach ..going to the beach …you will see this all summer posted on there . I told her yeah I’m sure. Do you want to be ? she said no not at all just wonder why it has to be plastered all over Facebook . I thought to myself that’s what happens on there . People need to state where they are . I rolled my eyes to myself . I just replied well then stay off Facebook . Take a break from it. She sighed .

Sometimes I believe life is only exciting for some if they state all their where about’s and play how happy they are to the world … but are they? . Or just need to brag or just like to state where they are . I do understand my daughters point. I grew up without it and I think life was easier . We lived our life’s did what we wanted and no one had to really know. I think that’s why getting back into reading again and doing projects . Plus waiting for my journal I want to start and so believe it’s a perfect time .not going to say anymore until I receive it. I believe will be a great blessing. 🙂 Tonight I settled in and watched my hubby and i’s favorite summer show . America’s got Talent. Now he is snoring away and I was trying to read but my eyes started to get heavy . My son is settled in for the night my daughters with her boyfriend so I think I will say my prayers and get some sleep .. hopefully I can finish saying them before I find myself falling asleep., yes my prayers are long.. ❤️

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Stormy Evening !

Just as my daughter and I drove in to the driveway , the skies opened up and down came the rain the pounding of the thunder and the flash of the lightening… Tv , phone sending out storm alerts. Off and on now for the past 3 hrs ,we keep loosing Tv , I keep getting friends messaging me asking if there was was an accident by our house … we are a bit away from the main road so we couldn’t tell. My kids made it out okay . When I asked they said there are trees down . All over my Facebook I’m hearing of power outages. So far we have ours on . So it’s a good night to stay in we’ll .., tell my kids that , that are out and about. Hmm .. so anyhow I’m starting another book after happily finishing my last one last night. It feels good to read . Especially tonight.

Today I printed out a lot of my photos off my phone ..hoping this helps my phone a bit. Now to buy some frames and add to my picture wall in our living room. That I will start tomorrow. Plus need to take the rest off and start my sons photo book of his high school yrs of track meets football games , friends, prom, etc .. so many pictures ugh this will not be easy. Well for now time to get back to reading and hope the storms are calming down now so road crews can get out and clear the trees off the roads.

Simple…

Dragged myself out of bed early after a bit of coffee .I headed into the shower hoping it would wake me up helped but about it then went back in the direction of my coffee cup ,chatted with an old friend on line waiting for the cable guy to show as I heard banging around in the kitchen ,my son rushing to make himself breakfast so he could meet his Sargent for his detail on the weekend , the cable guy arrived to update our Tv boxes ,I was so excited the boxes we have are dinosaurs….yes so we needed them to be updated . Im simple I do not ask for much. I figure they still work why change ..hmmm well I had no choice the company said no more these need to go so they came out did the update oh my let’s just say my son came back when the guy was showing me how to run the new boxes of course my favorite soap was on and I’m like oh darn Im missing it (hahaha) that slipped out of my mouth no taking it back. ..my son just rolled his eyes ,the guy laughed at me ..in a good way and said oh good okay watch he rewinded it . I was like a kid in a candy store well will say toy store I’m not much of a candy lover but you you get the the picture 🙂the guy just laughed and said doesn’t take much to make you happy ,my son mumbles no 🙄I can’t help it I’m simple . Can’t change now . So yes I was excited damn should of done this yrs ago . After that the guy left and I decided it was time to get things done around the house. Once that was done I figured it was actually a nice day out after all the rain we had so I decided to sit out on my swing and read . My hubby arrives Home sees that I’m outside says oh no cable guy ? I looked at him puzzled yes he was here, he’s like well I see your reading I thought you be watching tv . .. hmm well love it but why waste a nice day inside . He laughed and agreed . See if it was him that tv would be on .. he is not a reader …. well time to figure out something for supper..

Ahh relaxing night..

Good Morning! After a day of coming down from the graduation cloud .. my phone calmed down with friends texting me about the day . I was able to relax and read my book. My hubby was sleeping so no interruptions (hahaha) when we are relaxing and he is watching TV and I am reading he does this “look did you see that , wasn’t that funny” so I look over my book or at him and like hmm (hahahs) he hasn’t got the message yet that hmm means I don’t care I’m reading. He means well a habit always… so him sleeping was good , both kids where out so I was comfortable and read a chapter and then fell asleep 🙄 I woke with the book to my side the light on and noticing my son was home . looking at the clock it was 1 in the morning . I guess I needed sleep after all the late nights so moved my book , turned the light off and fell back to sleep . Woke to another cold rainy morning , coffee taste so good on this kind of day …well coffee taste good on any day. 🙂 watching the news my phone isn’t buzzing like it was yesterday everyone I’m thinking have calmed down now.

Today will be cleaning out my back spare room that has become a laundry /junk room .. I want to make it into a reading or just another place to go if you want some time to yourself , hoping to find a cheap desktop computer to put in there . But first it needs to be cleaned out . Coffee is almost finished I guess I will get this day going .

Finally….

It’s going on 8 :00 at night … where did this day go… I just get done posting the day before what will I do now with both kids graduated? Hmm …let’s see I haven’t had two minutes to think about it today. Yes I guess being on my phone off and on all day doesn’t help to get things done in a timely manner .. been texting or messaging with this friend of mine so every time I would start something around this house after yesterday’s graduation my phone would buzz in my pocket .. yes I sometimes carry it around especially when I have the music playing loud ( love loud music while cleaning) so if my phone went off I would hear it . This friend of mine kept sending me photos or talking about the graduation , she was on a roll today with the chatting. I think I may suggest we get together for coffee or tea and chat (hahaha) as I write this she keeps messaging me let’s see I manage to get the laundry done the the paper plates cups etc put away. clean the cooler out hoping as I opened it there would be least one strawberry wine. cooler left, nothing… that was disappointing 🙄anyways I wiped everything down and then said heck with it I’ll order out for wraps tonight. Need to keep those on hand to just make at home. I figured since it was so cold and rainy out , only in the 50″s today and it’s June unbelievable … I would get done with what I need to do and then read my book that I have neglected too long, or watch a show on Netflix I had started last week. Hmmm no that didn’t happened, let’s see I still have time to read for a bit , kids are out ,hubby is sleeping suffering badly from allergies since he came home from work . I guess it is a good time as ever . Iwill do that. Must say though I’m happy this week is over it was such a crazy ride with my sons moods ,I’m hoping with being out of high school it changes things ,time will tell he’s off with his friends after going food shopping for himself .I believe getting himself or should say keeping himself fit .Friday he goes for his first part of training till Sunday for National Guard so I believe he will stay over that whole weekend . Well time to settle and enjoy my book.🙂

Evening Outside🌙

Monday evening was spent outside with my hubby him enjoying a beer and I with my book with some chatting between us and of course the sound of nature, couldn’t resist recording the sounds we heard around us , The sound of the evening was over flowing with peepers and you can hear a Cardinal also ,as we caught site of it . I put my book down and just enjoyed. With my hubby ,Such a beautiful sound.