It’s a cool Monday night . Outside the sky is speckled in stars and the crescent moon bright enough to cast shadows along the edges of our woods. The frogs you can hear in the distance and firefly’s are out and about making it look magical as they light up the ground and the trees . Inside the house is quiet and dark as everyone including Miss Abigails is tucked away in their rooms for the night. I thought I would take advantage and cozy up on the couch and enjoy my next new book.
My mind changed quickly as I saw the front outside light turn on . It’s probably just an animal running through the yard… but no I couldn’t leave it at that , my imagination got the best of me. Earlier on Facebook there was a post that someone escaped from the jail around 2pm and they still hadn’t found him. To keep a look out. Now it’s about an hour and a half away from where he escaped and honestly I do not think he would come our way it would be too easy to get caught. But sadly my imagination wouldn’t let it go so I shut the light off checked the doors again . And ran down the hall to our bedroom ( hahaha) now I’ve tucked myself in bed . This is the girl who just received a stack of Stephen King books from my sister to read … hmm will see how that goes . Ridiculous … right? It’s been a strange day so why not top it off with a strange night. ..Spooking myself I really good at. 🙄
It’s a Tuesday windy cool morning and yes a quiet one if you would call it that ..with the sound of the wind banging against the house.. Miss Abigail running around the house non stop. And I actually having to raise my voice at her for trying to get under the couch covers to scratch it. We were doing so good with that 🙄 now I think she is mad at me.
The wind blew all night after several times of our bedroom door slamming shut from it, my hubby propped the door open a bit . If we keep it shut it gets either too cold or too hot . After it being in the 80’s and humid it became really chilly and even though the sun is out it’s cold . Ahh Miss Abigail has calmed down and laying in her chair . I know she needs to have the time to run and act crazy but not on the couch.. Everyone has gone to work early . And I will just do things around here and that needs to be done. I have finally finished the book The Road . Hmm ..after all that and this is the ending ? Was my thought last night ,then I woke up saw the book sitting on my bedside table and then realized the ending and why what happens did. Still yes thinking and why after all that ? But then realizing the moral of the story made sense. Now I wait for my next book to come in the mail . It says delivery is today so I’m crossing my fingers. As the wind blows my day needs to the pedal from my tree decorating my deck actually pretty🙂 get started .
Woke for 7 and put myself together to bring the car to the garage …. oil change . And yes the struggle of getting up at 7 was real. It wouldn’t be if I was still use to it .When my kids were in school I was up at 5:30 every morning. But now adult kids I’ve become once again a night owl .. so 2:30 finally falling a sleep to then waking at 7 was yes a struggle. I rushed a half of cup of coffee , ate some eggs and out the door I went of course out into the rain again . Dropped the car off at the garage that is right next to a convenience store and enjoyed a coffee while chatting with people from town. 45 mins later done then went to the post office grabbed the mail and headed home. My daughter came home from work around 12:30 with a coffee in hand . A very caffeinated day. A definite need. While cleaning up the house and chatting with her my hubby called to tell me he needed to be picked up from work my son had his truck to go to work , so my daughter and I both headed out to grab him and somethings my son needed for a Race tomorrow The Bone Frog Race. Very popular . This I believe will be his third one . He lives for this . I’ll post pics. Supper was easy takeout from the pizza house in town so hubby and I grabbed that and dropped food off for my son who went to the final track meet of the season the big one many schools involved at the high school he graduated at last year and the sport that was his and still is his passion. Then we headed home to eat with my daughter. So a busy but laid back day. The sun came out during the afternoon just in time for the track meet and it hit 78 out . Tonight all have settled in .
My son came home I asked if he had a good time and if he missed those days ? He said yes but no .. only because he felt old , oh if he only knew what it really feels to be old , I knew what he meant but I had to chuckle when he said it . He said that a lot had changed and the kids were less and just so different . I believe the word would be immature . My son has grown up a lot in this past yr . I thank god. He has come off his pedal stool . The Army has humbled him and for that I do thank the Army for … but the rest makes me nervous of what he has started. But for now will not think about it ..all are home settled in I’m about to do the same . Just reading a bit more to get done with this book I’m reading. My book should be coming soon in the mail. With another to follow . So read a bit more then off to bed. Good night🙂
The weekend was beautiful despite the rain. This week though even with the sun finally showing itself I just feel this dread or something .. I cannot place this feeling it’s nothing to do with a lack of energy ..oh that I have a lot of .I do know I put myself back in that mom take care mode .. okay you are probably thinking what is so wrong with that ? Well a lot is wrong with that. I’m back in my mode and I promised myself when my son came home after Basic and being away for 6 months I would get on my own routine . And when my son got on that plane that first day . I was good had to be this is what he wanted ..my hubby and I hugged him and let him go and then hubby and I headed home with a coffee stop . And a phone call from him asking if we were home since he had a 2hour wait till his flight I knew he was missing us already being his first time away all to be expected. When we arrived home I cleaned up the house . Room by room not my sons he had cleaned his before he had left. So I just paused at his bedroom door . Then made myself move along. Supper came and my daughter at work then boyfriends … hubby and I ate just it just being the two of us . Well over the 6 months with a 10 day Holiday pass for Christmas he was home . It felt great but so strange I was in a whole new routine . And so him and I clashed a bit … sadly . I was told this was normal. Then the time came and he had to go back. By March I was ready to have him home. And this time it was better we were at an adult son and his mother relationship We talked on a new level . My time ..my routine was still there and he had his routine. Then here we are in May and I’m finding myself out of my routine .. well more then I want to be . I’m worrying if he’s ate what he’s doing . He has been very good about it when before he did not like it. All the mothering believe me I can get over bearing🙄Yes he has had his moments and has told me in a nice way to stop but then sadly apologizes when honestly I do not want him to. I know this summer is going to be a long one. Right now he is working two jobs and he is gone a lot . So I’m trying to get back into the routine of just my hubby and I . In the Fall along with National Guard drills and going away to college it will be my hubby and I and my daughter again when she is here. and I think it will be hard to let go of him this time. He will not be far away it’s for a matter of convenience for him to dorm with our bad winters . And now with all the things happening in this world and him In the Army National Guards has added this worry more then when he signed up . And I can’t say much about this but I do not know if I’m coming off a vibe he is giving out since I’m so good at both my kids vibes of something there worrying about or doing tends to bounce off of them on to me . Always been this way. So could this be it? I’m feeling his worry. Yes he knows what he as signed up for but being 18 there is concern I’m sure with him. He is such a thinker like me . And his humbleness is been a bit more apparent. Which makes me feel anxious…Even though I feel this way I would never change it for the world . Being a mother is just so hard sometimes because the love you feel and there is nothing you will not want to do for your kids . This Fb quiz actually says it. well except for the cowering in your presence well unless you hurt my kids🙂
I made a book list and ordered a book that is on its way that I’m very excited about and I’m looking forward to it . Which it’s been a bit since I was excited about a book since not been able to find a good one and I’m going to keep ordering hoping for more good book to occupy my mind at night , especially when I’m thinking or when he is out late both my kids with that. So my mind doesn’t wander. When I get my book I’ll post it . For now yes finishing the Road. Yes it’s dragging .. but according to my daughter she is shocked that I’m in the last two chapters of it, being that it’s not usually something I would read or even think of finishing. 🙂 well it’s getting late need to try to get some sleep so off I am to bed. Hoping to hear that train and its whistle in a distance I’m so comforted to while saying my nightly prayers falling asleep .
Laying in bed trying to read . But the wind is roaring which is an understatement .. it’s reeking havoc! It’s a bit unsettling. So trying to focus on my book is a bit hard. My hubby is lucky he’s snoring away and not hearing it or he would be going from one window to another like a dog .. hahaha.. My son who settled in a bit earlier then us , texted me from his room asking if I was still up and if I was hearing the wind. He couldn’t believe how loud it was. He said he wished he was sleeping so he wouldn’t have to listen to it. We’ve been texting back and forth trying to take our minds off of it . But it’s an endless roar . It’s like a force that doesn’t want to be reckon with….. and it’s won one battle I put my book down on my bedside table and shut the light off . And went under my covers a bit more . I’m sure no animals are running around tonight , their probably tucked themselves down deep in our woods waiting for it to pass like myself. My son said goodnight so I believe he is hoping to sleep and not have to 😂listen to it anymore . I’m getting there myself. My daughter is with her boyfriend I hope they drive safe , so Miss Abigail is downstairs in their place . My daughter said she would be fine she would settle on her bed and sleep. Oh my I think since I turned the light off the wind has gotten louder.. I can take a thunderstorm much better then wind. Our trees are being thrashed around out there and the house is making strange noises when it blows around along the house. Okay I think I’m going to cozy up a bit more under the blankets and try to sleep. 😕