Monday!

It’s Monday night relaxing under the covers keeping warm ,another cold night and a storm coming in . My other have sleeping away next to me . Went back to work today . Holidays over .. time to get back into routine . I woke to the sound of my phone binging away with messages first my son with a good morning at 8:00 then finding messages sent after going to bed . So got up dragged myself to the shower then to the kitchen for my coffee. Enjoyed with a friend of my daughters stopping by to surprise my sleeping daughter who after an hour woke from her slumber to hear her mother talking away and informing me that she thought I was Having a lengthy conversation with myself because she didn’t hear her friend. 🙄 I thanked her for thinking I had gone senile (hahaha) she so not a morning person. Anyways I left them to get my day started ..cleaned up the house a bit not much needed to be done but through some laundry in and set it for when I return home from a friend of mine. Spent the day at her house chatting away and picking up jewelry she sells that I had ordered . And before I knew it it was 5 in the afternoon . It’s funny when your with your best friend you can just talk for hours about anything and it never seems like enough time. But duty called so it was time to head home home start supper as my phone went off .. my son texting me. Taking full advantage of his phone until they take it away tomorrow when his army work class starts. We chatted tonight before his phone had to be turned off at 9 and I told him I would write him some letters . He stated he would write back . This is a bit different then Basic Training more freedom . He believes after two weeks of classes he will get his phone back for the remainder of the 6weeks. But I was happy he said to write . I love writing letters . So I am looking forward to it. Anyways supper came and gone and my daughter came home from being with her friend on her day off . And here we all sat in the house all on our phones while my son was texting us all separately . Oh technology . That was our night then my daughter went down to her place and my other half and I went and settled in our room . So I guess It wasn’t a bad Monday .. a good start to getting back into things . After Christmas was the hardest . Taking down the tree and decorations seem like a chore . Just getting back into normal supper meals after holiday meals and eating out the four of us spending time with my son before he left.etc seemed all so exhausting . So today felt better if that makes since. And now I’m going to call it a night and get some sleep . 🙂

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Resolutions ..

Well another year coming to an end.. this year went by quick. I’m ready it’s whatever .. I just want to get back to the norm hubby needs to go back to work he’s getting bored .. my son flys out Thurs and I believe he is ready too . I am and have loved having him home but it’s exhausting watching his comings and goings with his friends . He needs to get back into a routine. My daughter pretty much is back to her routine, working , boyfriend , friends. Same ol but it’s tolerable . So all I hear is resolutions .. hmm I do not make any.I do not believe in it . Yes a new year a new fresh start but I will say I will just do better saving money , having more me time and stop feeling like I have to fix everything or make people happy.. need to step back . So changes is what I’m calling it. I want to start journaling and writing more, so I’m thinking I will concentrate on this a bit more as well. so we will see . I think some wine is in order soon for me .

Quietness …

Quietness surrounds me and Miss Abigail this morning. Okay except for the humming of the washing machine .. nothing new. The skies are giving away to clouds coming in But the sun is getting through it’s nice having the windows open today . Ahh kitchen is even clean thankfully, everyone’s out and I can just be for awhile. Miss Abigail sleeping away in her chair. As I wait for the washer to finish thankfully a small load , I sit and enjoy my coffee and catch up on the morning news. Cannot believe it’s Wed already the week is flying by. I guess running around at the beginning of the week so much can do that . I keep saying I need to find a new routine but as I sit here I think , I have 🙄 I wake in the morning shower throw a load of wash in clean the kitchen up from the morning breakfast chaos in which case hasn’t been too bad lately then grab my coffee enjoy it while catching up on the morning news ..write in my blog and check out my blog friends posts . Then after start my errands if needed in town and so on . Not much when you are a stay at home mom with kids that now are adults and one living at home but in her own place downstairs and works has her friends ..boyfriend and on occasion we go out for coffee and chat . My son leaving next week for Basic for 6months . Leaves me with time to catch up with friends . Read blog , write, weekends spend with the hubby doing more things out , which usually lessens during the winter so it will be takeout and movie night at home . So I guess I found my routine . But why do I feel like something is missing or it’s not enough …. why has been my question since my son graduated in June . My need to take care of him is not needed. I’ve connected with old friends again gone out a bit more found the love of books again . Spending time with hubby has not change we are alway connected. Hmm just don’t know. See same questions I keep rolling around in my head. It’s not that I don’t feel content I do . Hmm anyone have an answer? Would love to hear it . 🙂 let me know . For now it’s grab sm load out of washer .

Changes…

This afternoon while in town I notice how the leaves are changing I kind of feel like those leaves, changing myself …. I see the kids on the playground as I drive home and see them running laughing and it’s beautiful so young and free where did the time go … doesn’t seem like it was that long ago I was sitting on the ground with other parents chatting while all our kids played on the playground when School let out . How we would have to finally tell the kids it was time to head home . So we could settle in for the evening with supper , homework , baths and then a little time for some TV before bed. Now my day pretty much is all mine . After things around the house needs to be done , somethings never change . I’m slowly trying to let go of this strange guilt I hold over myself with all this free time to enjoy my soaps a bit more read a bit more chat with friends all day (hahaha) I do not know why I feel guilty doing nothing a bit more except for what I enjoy . My daughter thinks I’m too hard on myself . That I’ve earned this time since there is really no routine I need to follow anymore. I believe she’s right . I guess I’ve always have had been busy and now no so much until I find somethings to do .

Monday already….

Good Morning … Monday already and back to school for my son . Quiet always on a school morning . So I let him do his thing . My daughter and I just small talked and enjoyed our coffee. Hubby’s back to work tired as he got ready to head out the door ..he stayed up late watching the closing ceremony of the Winter Olympics , he’s going to miss watching them just loves watching them when it’s that time. House it quiet now sons off to school and my daughter left to do a few things . Miss Abigail’s must be sleeping down in her and my daughters place. So watching the news while the small load of laundry is going and thankfully the house is tidy enough that it doesn’t need a lot of tending too. Being just hubby and I all weekend it stayed cleaned. So it’s an easy day… 🙂

Monday!

it’s Monday a fresh new week to get back into a routine ,a full week of school, sports meet warmer temps no big storms insight sadly my daughter is still out of work due to illness but hoping she feels some improvement when she wakes up. Laundry is going beds are made kitchen is cleaned up after breakfast . I am now sitting down catching up on the morning news and enjoying a cup of coffee ahhh so nice. I’ve started the book I posted and started a new coloring page over the weekend which kept me busy and warm

. I am going to pat myself on the back , if you read my last post I wrote how my son was out with his girlfriend and I was NOT going to text him to have him check in. or worry and I didn’t well I didn’t text. I wouldn’t say I worried but hoped he drove slow and careful on his way home. I got into the Golden Globes with my hubby and didn’t realize my son had texted me ….it wasn’t that long until I noticed but it hopefully showed him was waiting with my phone in hand . He texted “on my way home. ” I do not know who was more surprised 🙂him for checking his phone and seeing no text from me or I seeing his text .. before I knew it he was walking in the door he talked a little bit and I tried not to do the twenty questions just how was Mary ? Did you have a good time? And after that he said goodnight and was off to bed. Now to keep this going oh am I trying….so hard when I’ve been by their side from day one through their first cut to their first everything to their first letting goesI can’t tell you what is the hardest part their first cut or letting go ….maybe letting go because it’s i that is now hurting not with them but just I because this is what I’ve known for so long .. my daughter is so different we have always been close and we are friends as well . With my son it just feels so different. I know boys let go differently then girls but this is ……different 😥 no hand book in the world could of warned me how this would feel. I’m am trying and I will keep doing this. Everyone tells me go out with friends do things with your husband I am but we are not big go to the movies we like watching them when they come out and we can cozy up at home and watch them . We have always been homebodies .. before kids we out dinking and dancing on the weekends but now that doesn’t hold an interest . We have spent nights out at relatives and enjoyed some drinks food laughs more that has been nice just need more idea s but for now it’s Home Movies going out for coffee dinner I guess we are heading in the right direction .. but it just feels different .

Nights Thinking… 

The evenings are so much shorter these days as I’m not just talking about it getting darker earlier , it just used to be consumed by early suppers then getting the kids doing and finishing their homework then baths and showers and one tv show and reading time and  then off to bed. Now it’s later suppers and whoever is here to eat what I make and when then earlier settling in bed to watch some shows but now replaced with catching up on them on stream lining NBC the next day because hubby has to get up so much earlier for work so earlier to bed because we are older now and mornings are not good without the proper sleep🙄 how things have changed … oh believe me this is not a rant or complaint just a sad statement to life  and how much it changed in the past couple of years . I’m adjusting it’s a lot more simple  and sometimes less stressful but I’m learning or should say my hubby and I are learning how to relate to our older kids now and our life with eachother again … you will be so surprised if your younger and just starting out with marriage, babies and your reading this and going what ? Believe me now that my kids have grown and we are less needed and the focus is not all on them . You  come to realize how much you and your better half have changed and grown it’s such an amazing thing . I find that we are settled in our own routine and that’s okay and we have our routine as a couple as well it’s so different how we relate now ,this whole new chapter . Waiting to be discovered .