And I’m back…

It’s 10:00 at night I’m comfy on my couch wrapped in a cozy blanket in the darken living room have the tv playing country music .. yes I like country music. I like all kinds of music as long as it speaks to me. And country does. As I sit here listening to it . I’m thinking wishing I was still at the beach . Two days was not enough but then again how much would have been .. I literally had to be dragged by my friend out of the hotel. πŸ˜‚ at least I went. Even though it was a rainy day there I still thought the ocean looked beautiful .But oh it was hard to leave .. it was just so relaxing and we just couldn’t get enough of the sound and the sight and smell of it . Laying in the sun on Saturday with the sun warming us and just letting the sound of the waves take us away in our own thoughts was just such a comforting sound. I’m already missing it. We didn’t do no shopping we had it planned that it would be just soaking up the sun and take in the ocean and enjoying some meals out. And that is what we did . Yes I did have my coffee as well ( haha) a need . I haven’t been relaxed like I was in a very long time. And going with just my bestie I have never done . We always went with our families. So going with just her was really strange at first . I believe when we arrived in Maine I was numb . I just couldn’t believe I was there at the ocean and all I had to worry about was me. Oh what a freeing experience . I have never felt in such a long time actually if ever . All about finding me. And learning there is life after your kids grow up and start their life.well I must cut this short I believe the country music is making my eyes heavy so I’m going to close my eyes and relax and listen to the music. Who know I may just drift off to sleep…This was what we saw from our room and the chairs we spent our Saturday in.

Relaxing Sunday…

After a busy Sunday morning with a family gathering . It’s now mid afternoon and sitting out on my deck with my book in hand. Nice to have some cooler weather to sit out side and enjoy some reading .Let’s see how much I can get read todayπŸ™‚ The weather is perfect there is a nice breeze. The humidity has vanished … So I am taken advantage of it. Late night on my phone with a friend who has recently lost their wife . He has has been finding comfort in talking to me about her. I let him just talk on and reassure him he will get through this. It’s been a strange summer. I know I have said this in past posts but now it’s even more strange… people are talking to me about things . I guess they think of me as a good listener. I do not mind . I alway like to help people . Just sad what he’s going through. He will start back up on his work routine this week so I think the chats will calm down. Which I think being busy will be a good thing. As I sit here reading I can here noises in our woods I believe it’s acorns falling . It’s the strangest sound. I’m sure the squirrels are gathering them up already . It’s been a very hot humid summer on the days it’s felt like it but a short one with it being the first week in August and the temps are now cooling down. The weekend nights have been really cool and so the windows have been able to stay open . I laugh because I have been wanting to have the windows open at night and now I can and there is this annoying cricket outside mine and my daughters bedroom window that chirps all night πŸ™„ can’t win (hahaha) it’s keeping my daughter up as well. Okay time to get back to my book. Have great rest of the day or night depending where you are.

Heavy heart…

Go to sleep with a heavy heart , wake up with a heavy heart. When does it stop? This world is going in a sad direction more everyday. This life is not easy to begin with but to add more hate is not good. So I will think of the lives that have been lost and injured and pray that things will change. We can at least hope or can we .. is that going to be taken away from us too.πŸ’”

Human touch…

After a day spent with my daughter in Town getting things she needed , I needed , so in and out of the car wandering stores . Passing by people , rushing to get out of peoples wayπŸ™„ we got back to the car and headed home . We talked about how busy it was in the store and how rushed we felt when really we were not rushing .. we were taking our time looking at items , grabbing things . BUT it was the people around us . With the looks , the rude your in my way tone in their voice when they said excuse me and we were not even in their way just near them. Or I’m sorry if I wasn’t fast pace walking with the carriage because I can’t . But keeping aware of people around to move out of their way when I needed to. Then I hear a sigh of frustration whoops one minute I didn’t realize a person behind me I moved out of the way even though the isle was big enough for the both of us . I said oh I’m sorry and the person just looked at me and walked by . Yes I do not know what kind of day this person may or maybe having . But it’s just becoming more and more like this. Right then I knew I was done. Once in the car I told my daughter . She said yes she had noticed and knows how people are .she works in retail and sees it everyday . Well this wasn’t the main topic of this post but it’s just all part of what things have become . Here is the part that I thought was appalling.

I’m home now and my hubby and I are watching the nightly news and one of the headlines was handshaking . I guess handshaking could become the thing of the past before we know it. I believe amount of people are now wanting to ban this gesture. It’s not sanitary .. okay I get this to a point but to have a ban on it .. human touch is something that makes this world seem bearable . A shake of a hand can show respect . Acknowledgment , or I’m sorry , it’s the emotion in the strength of it. Yes if you can’t shake then politely refrain from it but to ban this or even the thought to question banning this is so sad. Sometimes it’s saddens me what and how we have become . Well for the most part , not all.. I’m saying just in general. It’s a scary thought what new life being brought into this world will be brought up with . It’s a thought I find myself thinking about more often. And knowing I will not be that person .

Monday ( burr)

It’s 10:00 at night and just posting for the day. Laying in bed with my electric blanket on low .. yes you read right….. my electric blanket. Woke to 61 out all the windows open and at 1 in the afternoon the winds picked up and some rain then sunshine the rest of the day but temps dropping to the 40’s by 3 in the late afternoon. Walked around shutting windows and cursing to myself why .. I was already in a mood so the cold temps hitting my body was another shock to my system …not helping my body feel any better.

Anyways this was my Monday. Waking up at 7:30 jumping into the shower. After already being woken up at 5 in the morning to a sound of a bang like something crashing down onto the floor. But not realizing it until I woke back up at 7:30 finding that it was a photo in a frame that fell off the window sill and I really do not know why there was no wind at the time unless Miss Abigail found her way in to my bedroom. After my shower my son had woke too as my daughter was getting ready for work . Hubby already out the door . My son and I had coffee and waited for the starting of the Boston Marathon. We chatted as we watched . Then towards the end of the race he headed to the gym and I put a ham in to cook for supper. Well the clouds came in and it got dark the wind started to roar I looked at Miss Abigail who was laying on the floor in front of me as I prepared the ham to cook . She kept meowing at me when I told her we were not in Kansas anymore .. being silly with her since the looks of the outside scared me a bit πŸ™„I think it unsettled her a bit too because she kept randomly meowing. . After my daytime show came on I grabbed another cup of coffee to warm my hands… I think tea would have been a better choice but there was still some coffee left so why not. Half way through my show breaking news cut in . The Notre Dame Cathedral was on fire . I watched in horror . How ? Why? Oh my it’s Holy Week … yes my mind works in mysterious ways. My son came home from the gym and saw I was watching it and said he had heard and sat watching it with me . Such a beautiful place .. gone . It was sad watching. So my heart breaks for France tonight. So many people watching it and their reactions were so sad. The news ended my son napped on the couch and I did a few things to keep my body from stiffening up from the change in temps. My son will start a job on Thurs at a local restaurant delivering takeouts and waiting on tables this will be Thurs through Sunday .mid afternoon till 10 at night until he finds something else . Unless he likes it and it’s worth the pay . Will see. My ham turned out good everyone was home to enjoy it. And now my son is out for a bit and my daughter relaxing down in her place. It was a strange kind of day the frame randomly falling, the sad news in France . everyone home to eat my supper yes strange and then this cold weather .. ahh what a Monday it was .. well time to get some sleep , hopefully my son isn’t too late. Good night.

Confused..

I’m feeling a bit confused but most of all sad…. I’ve written 4 letters to my son more then anyone else in the family… yesterday my hubby and daughter each received a letter in the mail from my son .. my daughter said he sounded good but missed home and question that it seem that we were doing ok without him away it enlighten him . My husband s letter was good as well and he told him he was happy finally get letters from everyone but what about mom ? Is she sending any. Or is friends… I wanted to cry .. where are my letters … they never were sent back to me , so is someone else’s receiving them and holding my words from my heart that iso desperately for my son …. I hope he soon realizes I wrote and he just didn’t get them and that I wasn’t just too busy and free. I am never busy enough to not be there for my kids. If I have any luck at all it’s bad luck… I hope he can call this weekend . . I’m so confused I used the same envelopes address and there was no way you couldn’t read my handwriting the post office could… I just don’t know.. I guess it’s time to start this day . Even though there’s not much to do.. at least its Friday and now three days to hope he can call home.

Better day…

After a bad day the day before, today was much better cooler morning , I got to enjoy my morning coffee a bit longer after a late night of catching up on episodes of sharp objects on HBO .. mind blowing . Then the usual a pick up here and there around the house not much to clean up. Then I enjoyed sometime outside before the humidity slowly creeped in. Decided to run some errands with my daughter then it was back home time for supper everyone did their own thing light supper it was. My son was feeling better after the allergy reaction to the new cat that will be missed dearly but just wasn’t going to workout with Miss Abigail being a bully as well. My son has decided to wait until he gets back from basic training in March being that he realized how fast Oct would be here when he leaves for Basic. He’s thinking a dog ,we think the cat will still probably not like it at first but will adapt to it better and my son won’t be effected allergy wise.

This evening my other half and I stayed inside no sitting out to warm and buggy plus my other half had had enough of the outdoors after working in it all day. So we watched the nightly news and then I grabbed my book as he laid on the couch with his phone. I was rocking in my favorite chair as I read he remarked how he couldn’t believe how I could rock and read at the same time he said it’s always amazed him and made him feel a bit queasy watching me ( hahaha) the funny thing is as I read on ..the book was getting better and better and the faster I rocked ( hahaha) he then remarked how my face expression showed how much I was into it , I laughed and said well it’s so good I can’t read it fast enough. We did earlier put a sm load of wash in and the washer had stopped he said keep reading I got this your enjoying yourself . I think he new how hard it was the day before having to deal with the whole animal scene and bringing the poor thing back to the shelter. It did break my heart. … as I read my husband said look only 8:30 and it’s totally dark already .. so it begins the days getting shorter it just seems earlier this year summer in not over until my daughters birthday the middle of Aug then I will be ready for the change of season . I have plenty of books ,just feel bad when I’m reading and my other half is just laying there on his phone I wish he would read . But not going to happen .. soon football will be on . I know shouldn’t feel a bit guilty but I do at times because once I get into a book my attention is only on that . Well I just looked at the time it’s late time to get some sleep. So good night everyone.