Sigh…

Oh it’s just seems like everything is a downward spiral… so not me I’m usually such a happy person. Yes I know we all have our moments, it just seems like it’s been something every day …. and it’s getting a bit tiring . I do not like feeling this way. I feel like I’m being pulled in many directions and it’s all in the directions I do not want to go …I try to do my best with helping family and others . But after awhile it can mentally exhaust you. I won’t go in to detail … it just needs to change and I just need a break from it.

On another note sadly we lost a beautiful young women today her and her family well known in our small town . She has struggled with cystic fibrosis her whole life after a couple years ago after having two lung transplants and her body rejecting them she was told she wouldn’t live to or pass the age of 25 . She passed today at the age of 26 … she suffered severely but always had a brave loving heart a strong will and a very big beautiful smile. She believed she wouldn’t beat the odds and so she lived her life to the fullest enjoying her family her pets her friends and raising money for her disease through many walking benefits even when she could only walk half way down the road. With the help of her loving guide dog . She made sure that everyday of her life on this earth was beautiful. And worth fighting for. So now she is at peace and the heavens have gained a beautiful angel. ❤️

I hope everyone has a good night and takes a moment to count their blessings and lives their life with love and happiness .

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Days getting shorter…

At 7:20 tonight I realized the sun had set and it was getting dark out….so it begins shorter days , where has the summer gone … not that I’m unhappy to see it go it’s been a challenging and sad one. My son received his class schedule and all the paper work that needs to be signed and sent back to the school but sadly my mind is having a hard time getting back into the routine of another school yr so I think I will take a couple of days to take a breather from the have to’s I know my son is hahaha he slept the day away today but it was well needed. So I will give myself a break stop beating myself up that I’m not being wonder mom and take those two days one day at a time and reflect over this summer and learn from it then go from there. I must say it’s nice to see my son home and reading his book he needs to read for school. Then worrying where he is running around to with his buddies . Being his Senior yr I’m hoping there will be more nights like this then last yr when he had more free time which In his case is not always s good thing and was out. We will see if I have anything to do about it🙂

Life….

Just a quick note …haven’t posted for a bit . My husbands father passed away and the last couple of days have left us in a bit of a fog and this week will be emotionally exhausting so I may not be posting this week …will see maybe I will. find comfort in it if I do write. But before I try to get some sleep which has been a challenge.  I just like to remind everyone that life is so short and family is sacred so hug them and tell them you love them everyday and never take any one or anything in this life for granted.❤️

Thoughts….

I wake up to a sunny but cold day. My thoughts feel all over the place is it the full moon? I just want to feel  like Myself again.. but I feel like that person is is gone when you went away and I found who was by my side to help me through sad when you find how low  the number is of people you thought you had . Bitter sad anger all comes to mind but then am I to blame for this for believing I could trust any of you. . so I’m going to guard my heart do what I need to do for me and yes I am going to be selfish isn’t that what all of you are?

Heartbreaking…..

This past weekend is not been a happy one . i just want to say my heart breaks for two sad things that happened one Christina Grimmie  her life taken so young, unexpectedly and unfair by one man for only god knows why took her away and once again with a gun ….this is just so unbelievable . So my thoughts and prayers go out to her family.

My heartbreaks also for all the victims survivors and their families of the Orlando shooting this is unbelievable how many lives were taken away and innocent loving people just out at a night club dancing happy just loving one another and life and in one minute is taken away so unfair let us  NEVER forget them forever they will be in our hearts. I know mine they will be . We need to spread love and not hate life is such a gift but when taken away unfairly because one person has so much hate in them it’s hard not to be angry but that just keeps hate fueling we need to put this flame out and take steps to watch our surrounding and report if we see something not right but love, love everyone and live and spread happiness this is what we can do for the ones that have been taken away to keep their memory alive. Everyone lets try to make this life better again and banish as much hate as we can and stay safe.