Well what a day I had…. lets put it this way when your daughters cat is happily sitting by the window watching the leaves scatter around by the wind and you envy her for such a simple life …I am either crazy or heading that way…. sigh… So last week I bought a new/used car and for some reason I just didn’t feel right about it but the price was right with our budget and lucky they even financed it because I’m /we already have a truck loan and mortgage etc ….plus my son needed a car so I gave him my very old one ..which sadly is on it’s last leg . One the color I dislike it it’s white and I have a long dirt driveway.Then it started to sound funny a loud humming noise from the back..so I said it’s me just stop well this morning the car dealer calls and tells me that I need to bring the car back because well they just do not know how it happened but it didn’t fully get serviced like there suppose to and they told me it did the day I bought it and that there was some minor issues on it to be fixed and they never got to it does not make sense to me. and hmm minor yeah how about the loud noise ? He was like oh I don’t know about that.I lost it the short 4’11 nice women I was and look like that day of the sale turned into a let’s say when a mother bear thinks her cubs are in danger and she needs to defends them you do not want to stick around hahahaha so I said well I know. It sounds like my car is a jet coming into a landing when your doing 60 on the highway and then at 30 mph a jet taking off . So my car was never suppose to have left the lot or actually probably not to be sold yet and I am locked into a 4 yr loan which actually trying to research my rights if any which I hope I do. …and at the moment a rent a car at their expense is sitting in my driveway and sadly like that a whole lot better .So it has not been a good day I should of went with my instinct I want to kick myself for not doing so . this is not me to go against it but I was trying to throw caution to the wind because I am known to over think but my instinct that I should of never ignored. their going to go through it but will see I am going to demand another car . or some kind of proof that they went through it in which case they had said they did before.will see that I will have to get back to you on.
Why I ask why..and no I am not feeling sorry for myself just upset. why does these things happen to me I try to be a nice person I do not ask for much just only what I need . I put my guard down for one second and this happens I told the guy you saw sucker written across my for head . .he kept apologizing and and saying he couldn’t believe this happened ..but I do some people just do not care… well let me just say I think they where shocked of the person they saw today. One think I am not is weak or a sucker I am a nice person trying my hardest to be the person my kid s can look up to. and I try to believe that not everyone is dishonest but this thought is fading fast.So Happy National Women’s Day to me ….not okay maybe that was uncalled for but it was just a very frustrating day and I am a women and I just feel sense I didn’t have my husband holding my hand buying this I was taken advantage of just a bad day for this to fall on. Well that felt good to let out hahaha.
So my Son made it home from snowboarding in Thursdays nasty storm..Yes I did worry though always do. Then today was crazy pay bills day ughh so dislike this day but don’t we all? so my Son went with me to do this and run some of his errands and he was happy to drive. ..all was good then we came back to the house so he could get ready for track practice so an hour later he goes out to the car to start comes in says umm car wont start okay I wanted to to lay on the floor like a little kid and throw a tantrum I was just so not needing this today. ,,,he tells me I believe it’s the battery because I noticed I left the lights on. We found some one to jump start it and off we went so now I am going to hold my breath for the next few days every time start that car…..Oh Im starting to believe be negative brings in bad karma …I’m trying not to but winter is not my friend I despise winter. and sadly this holiday season this year ready to pack up the rest of the decorations and say goodbye to the tree for another year, ‘Im going to try to bring good things into this new year because I have had enough…oh no our washer isn’t now working ughhh okay and on to another day …..give me strength.
Once again I’m having a hard time where to begin have pressed backspace several times. I feel the time getting onto my blog is getting more and more of a distance I do not want to get into a habit of but my time is at such a minimum of what I have to do to what I want to do .Today my friend and I actually got a moment to chat on the phone and the first thing I told her , I do not want to be an adult anymore and her response on the other end was laughter…and a sigh and then she said I understand. It’s only been two weeks ‘s been a crazy busy summer and did I say it’s only been two weeks.
What happen to days spent by the pool… Popsicle’s melting in the sun , weeks spent at the beach now replaced with me being a taxi to and from drivers ed my sons job drop offs and pickups with his friends thank god for moments of bliss enjoying a coffee or lunch with my oldest she his my savior hahaha from having to be an adult and when weekends use to be day trip adventures is now me recovering on my deck swing and enjoying some peace of mind. I tried to get into a book its been awhile since I read , that worked for a day and now it sits on chapter 4. I am not complaining I know it sounds that way, I am just stating the unbelievable change this year has been and amazed how fast childhood disappeared and I am exhausted hahaha so moms enjoy your summer with your little ones because it goes by fast and if you think your tired now just wait when they get older and they have places to be and no license and your older you too will be saying I wish I wasn’t an adult at the moment 🙂 so I will try to be on here more maybe not everyday but more then I have been so please keep reading my post. I also welcome feedback.
A Mom’s job is 24 ours… never alone in her thoughts ,always thinking of their kid’s well being. I would do anything and everything for my two kid’s and I think I do. If you were to ask my Son that would be a no. … well in his opinion, my Daughter would say other wise she seems to have my back . even when us Mother’s are not feeling well…having an off day etc. we do we always do we get up we pull ourselves together and we get things done. yes its crazy but we are moms right??? hmmm tonight I am thinking okay have I done to much am I to easy do I say yes more then the word no? YES!! I think I do and tonight I am finding this out. My teenager can make me want to pull my hair out. but then he says one thing and My paternal instincts kicks back in and I am taking care of every need which I know he is capable of ughhhh I am trying to get tougher this is going to take some time to learn yes and this is with my youngest child. my two kids are like night and day literally My daughter first born was born at night my Son born at day time. Oldest has dark hair youngest blond shall I go on they think the total opposite some people wouldn’t believe their siblings. lol….my Son is so good at testing me. then he breaks me when he does this side smile and tries to make amends and I just want to hug him lol..crazy right? No…just part of being a mom. Has I read back of what I wrote I wonder where I am going with this I guess I just needed to vent. right??? Yes because I am a Mom.