Ahh end of the week!

It’s Friday and yes another rainy day but it’s warm in the 60’s could possibly get to the mid 70’s I wish we would get a thunderstorm love them , My hubby NOT !hahaha you know how a dog runs or goes from one window to another looking out in anticipation of something or someone outside well that is pretty much my hubby. While I tend to just sit and watch 😂 possibly on Sat their predicting we could get one. I’m sitting here enjoying my coffee and the quietness. My daughter still sleeping as Miss Abigail is too . My son off to his second day of work at the restaurant/ pub. He’s enjoying it . A Long day to day, 11:30 to 9 .

Last night I watched my hubby and I’ s favorite show . Seal Team . Then we settled in bed he went to sleep I read . Let’s just say I should of just kept reading until I finished it ..I was up thinking about it. I’m about 3 chapters to finishing it. Last night as I was reading we had the window open a bit since the house felt stuffy there was a slight breeze so it kept blowing in the fresh outside air . It was strange I t blew in for one moment a cigarette smoke scent. I really can’t say why or who because my kids were not home it was around 10 at night and they don’t smoke . And my neighbors are not that close to us for the breeze to carry it . So that was eerie … I thought oh maybe my dad was thinking of me .. no I’m not loosing it . Ever since my dad passed I have smelled smoke off and on most times it’s been when I’m having a hard day so I don’t know .. it’s strange when you see signs at times of a love one . I would rather think that is what it was then someone lurking around in our woods. A bit after that my son arrived home and we chatted for a bit , him telling me about his first night of work. Then went to settle as I did well tried . 🙄 now its time to get this day done started some laundry in between writing this … yes multitasking . I see sun hmm it’s possible we could see a thunderstorm! They say sun coming out a bit with rain coming in is a perfect recipe for a storm. Well time to get this day done .

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Oh the signs..

Well sitting down at noon drinking my first cup of coffee and listening to all the ridiculous news .. yes ridiculous . What is wrong with society ? Anyways not what I really want to talk about.. what would we gain if we did… the house is quiet as I enjoy my coffee but the signs of a full house is everywhere. My sons hats two to be exact hanging off the kitchen chairs a sure sign of my son being back. My daughters coat hanging on the other chair that’s a new one. The kitchen sink full with dishes ..when I know that it was empty when I went to bed. Oh a big one an empty roll of toilet paper still in place on toilet holder.. yes one of my pet peeves 🙄 BUT would I change this for the world? No! Okay maybe a bit (hahaha) I cleaned the kitchen .. now until round two.. soon very soon my son will be back from the gym and ready for lunch and that he will clean up . Dishes will find their way into the dishwasher with his own hands. it will be supper prep soon as well . oh where did this day go! Oh I know … I guess laying in bed all morning and then enjoying a warm shower may have cause this.. after thinking I would get to bed earlier . I read until after midnight again and still haven’t finished the book. Then trying to sleep after was a bit hard . I kept trying to figure the ending of it. It’s a crazy cycle I’m on . This time change has thrown me for a loop. Plus the bit of Spring fever does not help. Oh the days of summer vacation when for just a season the world felt like it stopped because the kids were on vacation and we had the days of summer to get off the routine of busy morning school schedules, sport practices, just lazy days and no place to be unless we wanted to be. Now it feels as I’m the only one who is staying in place and I’m on a vacation if you want to call it that . Since being on disability. I’m home more then anyone. yes I do the bare minimum of things in the house some days are better then others ,if I do too much or in repetition you see what happens when I wrote about my sciatic pain . It’s a juggling act of what I can put my energy towards and to keep my muscles active. I think that’s why I am so happy I was able to do all the things with my kids when they were growing up and my body was able. And now their adults and do not need me to do anything for them it’s funny now they do for me which at times is hard to bare … I guess call it pride. I have learned what is important. It’s the time spent the laughter . Even if it’s in moments .. minutes, seconds . It’s just hard at times when everyone is busy with work , friends , life and I just sit here and watch. I’m always watching . (It’s hard especially when I can see my family running themselves ragged and my kids making choices that are not good but know I can’t tell them what to do .)but some days it’s not . See that’s what I do . I go back and forth and at times when everything is done and fine and I spend time.. hour hours reading , blogging which has been the best thing I’ve discovered . 🙂 or I stay up late reading and sleep in because I do not need to do the 6:00 wake up time .I feel this guilt. It’s probably silly .. my daughter told me it was wrong to feel this way . I’ve told her how I feel . She said I’ve done my job . To relax and enjoy what I’m doing. I guess I’m opening up on here because I feel when I write it’s the same ol … but that’s just how it is especially in the winters everything I see from my house my front deck . 🙄 so I thank all of you who follow my blog and read my posts especially my faithful readers I call friends. You make this new chapter in my life feel like something when you read my posts.🙂

Ahh signs of Spring.

Yes their predicting snow our way tonight … the good thing is they have lowered the amounts we are getting oh I hope their right . 3 to 5 inches …okay doable .. then the time it was suppose to start snowing keeps being pushed forward it was first 5 pm then 7 now it’s 8 pm. Okay this is not the sign of Spring … it’s these guys the top photo there is 4 turkeys their a bit camouflagedand their not little anymore. I believe their bigger then Miss Abigail and she knows it. She was watching them walk all around the back yard through the window . Her eyes so big. I was in my bedroom putting a few things away when out of the corner of my eye I saw out the window these guys walking by. Such a nice sign . Now they will be here in the mornings then the evenings until Fall. Love that their back, love seeing them. They have been doing this routine for the last two yrs . Last year there was babies which I believe these are the babies hopefully we will see some babies. . Will see. Supper is done and cleaned upI made Homemade Mac and cheese didn’t think I would like the orange sharp cheddar ,that’s all our local store had that wasn’t outrageously priced. I figured I would try it. Not bad, hubby liked it . Now I’m going to settle in read my book and get to bed hopefully earlier tonight . Miss Abigail kept us up jumping on my hubby scratching the bed then our window shade until my hubby brought her downstairs to her and my daughters place .My daughter out with her boyfriend texting me back at 1 when I texted her at ll:00 that she was downstairs watch when she came in. 😭 after that I had a hard time settling in with a good sleep with strange dreams .. so tonights goal is to read now then bed at 9 .🙂

Sigh…

Today was  a day full of unexpected surprises for instance as I was enjoying my morning coffee I was looking to see what was treading on Twitter , yes I’m a twitter fan  so I came up on an an article that was  saying how there was an attacking squirrel in one of the New York Parks and it attacked 5 people I was shocked . Any how I  signed out and started laundry and Then proceeded into the living room to tidy up things you know always something needs to be picked up.or wiped down. I heard a clunk and then a persistent tapping my daughters friend heard it as well so we started looking around  first we thought it was the washing machine … nope ok well we then found it and it was looking right at us on top of my deck chairs a squirrel and it was literally  pressed to my window that doesn’t have a screen luckily we do not open that side . Well it was tapping with it’s claws at my window then jumped into it and got back up on chair and was staring at us again it all happened so fast , her and I screamed and the thing ran up on to the deck railing along it stopped and stared at us . My daughters friend screamed shut the door before it comes through the screen oh I did …. we just stood there looking at one another and I thought of that darn article …and wondered what the heck is wrong with these squirrels so   crazy  thankfully he hasn’t been back , after things where done and supper started I turned on a channel that one of my oldie but goodies  80″s show came on 7th Heaven haven’t seen this showing since the end of winter I was happy ! The ironic thing it was an episode of the kids growing up and the parents seeing through their eyes them as children but then it brings them back to being older and the parents are seeing that they need to let go . Hmmm what I have been struggling with can you say sign? Now if you asked my son he would argue that he does not believe in signs or superstitions okay some superstitions I don’t but signs YES! What do you think do you believe in signs? Let me know. Time to go and have some supper. 

New Years Eve!

Happy New Years Everyone I hope everyone has safe and happy one. I am going to sit back eat  some   Chinese Food and  enjoy some glasses of wine and reflect on this past year and what a year it was so many unimaginable losses but at the same time many new happy experiences  My Son making it too Junior Olympics in Sacramento California for a week He got his drivers learners permit.  ,, but then like I said many unimaginable losses, life loves doing that to us   never a dull moment but I guess it’s away to keep us on our toes which to me is a bad joke. I am so ready to say goodbye to this year but not what I am leaving behind with it ..my beautiful pup bitter sweet had him for 6 beautiful yrs  and lost him this year the beginning of this month. but in my heart I will carry him into the New Year but hopefully the sadness of his loss doesn’t follow but Gives me the chance to bring in the beautiful and so many of beautiful memories of him and when I think of him in 2017 I want to smile not tear up….will see easier said then done .Something strange happen tonight we put up our  our tree and its been up for about three weeks so tonight on the last night it will be up the lights are blinking now .okay to me its just strange and actually my husband was puzzled by it.. okay I believe in signs so it puzzles me some say ahh it just happens but on New Years Eve well that’s timing . what do You think?  Well time for Chinese and wine everyone enjoy and stay safe .

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Signs….

Talk about signs or whatever you may call it., I have been doing a lot of thinking lately and I guess some soul searching like I said in my other posts how a lot has changed in the past year …trying to figure out the best way to parent my teenage son who is so independent and sometimes he has me feeling like I don’t know If I’m coming or going…okay so the other night I was laying in bed and my daughter and I were messaging back and forth like we do almost every night and then we say say goodnight as I was laying there chatting with her I got this instant quick scent of cigarette smoke and then it was gone. this has been happening for  awhile and I relate it to  my father who was a smoker. he passed away 20 years ago. and when something is bothering me at times like I said at times not all a time this happens so I feel it’s his way of saying he is around and it will be okay. ..yeah may not be but it’s a comforting thought. The  funny thing was I was talking to my daughter about my father and it was probably something he didn’t want me talking about hahahaha 🙂   I told her and she was like oh my gosh really again that happened?  she knows. Then tonight her and I and my son were sitting at the kitchen table and my daughter said  I just got a scent of cigarette smoke my son was like what really and I kind of told him and he was like oh okay  haha that is all he said  hahaha..so do you believe in signs?