A piece of my heart..

As the sun continues its orientation the clouds replace its position in the evening sky making it bearable to sit in my Adirondack chair perched upon the front porch. The gentle breeze flows through with the water fountains ambient noise in the distance. Out in the lawn is my son and my heart, motionless, as he practices yoga poses after a long day of biking and running.  I sit and watch only to think if I could do this… but my body would regret it afterwards. Luckily, my body was at least capable of blessing me with both of my children. I believe this is what I am here for in this life, even though I wish to be unlike what I am now. Yet, I might have not been blessed with the family I have today as life is a mystery, if taken another path.  But I wouldn’t change it for what I have been gifted to this day. Now, as the light from the sun disappears over the horizon my son decides to head inside for the night, as I now should do the same finishing the blog. Goodnight everyone!

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Being sensitive…

Being sensitive is that of a blessing or a curse . I know with my chronic illness it states I’m very sensitive physically yes but emotionally more. Not only have I been told by a doctor but by my family . I know it can get a bit much for them . ..But they bear with me . They ignore me humor me ( hahaha) yes this is a different kind of post today when I show the silliness of my sensitivity . If you read my posts you know how I love my Daytime shows yes … Soap’s I’ve been following a storyline on one of them General Hospital since winter now . It was just the saddest episode in the last two days A 17 yr old boy dies of a brain tumor and oh my was my heart breaking , I know they do this kind of thing all the time but it’s a soap ,they also have miracles at the last minute which I thought would happen but no they didn’t . My luck my son came home at the moment that the episode grew even more sad and intense and I of course teared up like a baby it was horrible …thankfully he humored me and just shook his head with a smirk on his face that says it all and that he’s so good at. Unfortunately as sensitive as I am I get very emotionally involved with my soapy’s , yes but also with movies and books as well . After the episode was over I went around finishing things around the house as he got ready to go to his second job as he was ready to leave , being silly I grabbed him in a bear hug as I am 4’11 and well he is about 5″10 and I said I need to hug you Ive had a dramatic day . He just stood their and I looked up at him and he just looked down at me and said are you done and laughed . I laughed as well and told him he was such a good sport . As he left I yelled I love ya he said love you too mother .What he puts up with .πŸ™‚ So are you overly sensitive?

Snow coming .. again..

I sit in the quietness of my house enjoying my coffee with Miss Abigail comfy in her chair my hubby and daughter both at work the temps in the 20 as the clouds are filling in …. At least the temps will go up a bit so I do not hear the cracking and snapping of the house . The photo I took yesterday being so cold the snow has iced over and made a shimmering glaze above the snow when the sun hit it . My son will be happy if this snow stays , messaging me close to his lights out time to say he maxed out the Physical training test thankfully is last one since he is suffering from a bad cold along with others there so he was feeling sore but he worked out because he was stiff …omg he doesn’t know down time he said he had to do fire guard so he said he was going to bed at 9 to get at least 3 hours of sleep to be ready at 1 till 2 then would go back to bed at 2 till 4 oh what a lousy night.. I’m sure he will be tired tonight . He said he would text but I would rather him rest. I’m hoping my daughter gets home ahead of the storm their predicting around 5 and she drives home for 5:30 so it shouldn’t be too bad and she doesn’t have far to drive.. thankfully .she is anticipating a relaxing night at home with Miss Abigail . Which I know Miss Abigail will enjoy . I think I’ll make a meatloaf for supper. And then settle in with my hubby and watch our shows and read. . I guess it’s time to do somethings around here before they get home πŸ™‚

Saturday….

Well this Saturday seem to fly by.. it’s hard to believe it’s 7 in the evening. My hubby and I slept in a bit. Then we enjoyed our coffee and and breakfast . A bit later we headed out the door to get some food shopping done and the food my husband needs to fast with starting on Sunday for his colonoscopy on Monday… it was a nice ride the sun was shining and thankfully shopping was quick and easy ..then we headed for our after shopping coffee treat .. lol always can enjoy a coffee. πŸ™‚ Arrived home with a ice coffee for my daughter , if my daughter is home and any of us get coffee we alway bring her a coffee home as well . She was happy to have one and enjoyed while she got ready for work. Worked a later shift today. Around 4 this afternoon my hubby watching tv while laying on the couch and I reading blogs plus my friend texting me off and on so I’m so focused on the two tasks…. my cell phone lights up with my sons face staring at me . I answered … he answers with a hey I’m on my way home I’ll be home in an hour. I’m like WHAT!! I swear my heart skipped a beat … my hubby looking at me puzzled , then my son says well in a week in a half at this time I will be heading home . I then realize ,came out of my dream that he was released sooner .. he chuckled then said in a sincere tone …that sounded nice to say ” I’ll be home in an hour” and I told him in deed it did. I guess I showed him how much I miss him and how ready I am for him to be back. We chatted for a bit until he let me go then I received a text of a photo of him in a CPR class . I swear he has a twin . There looked to be two of my son lol. He thought that was funny when I told him. An hour later he sent me a photo of a pizza and soda with the caption , Goood I just laughed I told my hubby well he’s happy he had a pizza delivered to the base . This only happens on weekends and in the AIT training. So he was happy. . Now my hubby and I are relaxing I’m thinking of reading while he is enjoying a documentary ,

Snow Day again …..

A cold snowy day and my mood is as dreary as the weather… sadly it’s been a long week and going into a second one at that. Happy my daughter is feeling better , goes back to work tomorrow after being out sick for a week. My hubby is off and on feeling ill . So he’s been resting on the couch since he got home from work . Missing my son so much today , I think feeling the way I do it emphasis him being away so long.. chatting with him off and on tonight , he stated that a lot of people are sick on the base and who are sick have been for two weeks..ughh so he said he isn’t surprised I’m still not feeling 100 percent. It’s 8 at night and the snow is still coming down. I’m thinking my bed is calling to me soon where it’s warm . .. and hopefully my attitude changes as well . Sorry for not a very enlightening post . This winter is getting to me. I’m feeling a bit cabin fever. … sigh.. well I guess I will get comfortable and settle with my hubby. and I’m sure Miss Abigail who is in her favorite chair upstairs will most likely find her way into our room scratching at the bed and jumping on my hubby while he sleeps. .. will see .

All Good …

It’s a quiet Friday February morning! So happy it’s February . It’s closer to my son coming home , as of next week it will be 4 weeks until he will he flys home. If you read my last posts of my stupidity πŸ™„ it’s all good. If anything my mess up with Facebook I believe made him think I was missing him , well of course I’m missing him but I think to the point I was really sad .. yes I am emotional person but that goes either way. Around 6 last night I got a message from him “hey! “So I replied Hi ! He said “How are you” ? Right then I knew he saw and wondered … knowing my son the how are you means so much more (haha) I replied I’m good ! you? He said nothing so then I told him about all the pics he did a haha and said wow you did get a lot of likes πŸ™„ I said did you see your page it tagged you .. you can delete he replied no I’m fine with it …phew!!! So yes all good with a mother and technology ..

Now talking about dreams ,myself and blogger friends who been having some strange ones… I had a very strange one last night .. one that is so strange you wake with a panic feeling and your happy it was only a dream.. it wasn’t scary I don’t know it was like being in a musical but a old back in the day kind of thing but strangely it was in my Town and the town looked back in the past but not and the music was old , it was strange because it wasn’t scary and I can’t piece it together but whatever startled me I do not know . Very strange is all I can say. And what’s strange it was like I dreamed it before or a deja vu.. That’s another one to write down… as I woke from that I could hear my daughter in the kitchen getting herself coffee . Our house is small so not tight quarters but it doesn’t take much to say hi or good morning and it echoes down the hall to our kitchen .. being a raised ranch style house. She came in sat on my bed and said good morning .. yawning as she told me she did not sleep well. And the coffee was a necessity before jumping in the shower to get ready for work. I did tell her about the dream , she tried to remember if we talked about musicals the day before. .. nothing . Then she went for her shower as I did . Now enjoying my coffee in a quiet house except for the sound of the news . Today I will get out run and do some errands and tonight my hubby and I will order out at our local pizza shop .. my daughter works till this evening then she will be with her boyfriend . A quiet Friday night as well. Tomorrow we will conquer the grocery store . Super Bowl is Sunday so the grocery store will be busy … always some kind of an occasion for people to need to eat and celebrate… its a night game so my hubby and I will stay home and watch it . I’m going to make some chili and cornbread have some chicken wings, hubby will enjoy a few beers and I a cup of wine. Work the next day for my hubby so he doesn’t want to celebrate too much.

Time to finish my coffee run my errands. Have a good day everyone.

Monday …

Well this three day weekend went by fast…. it was nice not having to be anywhere and having some down time . I know your probably thinking she always has down timeπŸ™„ but the thought of not thinking of what I need or didn’t do was nice .. I just cozied in under a blanket with my book , journal, tea or hot chocolate and yes my coffee. With some good conversation with my husband and daughter and her boyfriend. And texting quite a bit with my son in Missouri πŸ™‚ Sunday was a day of snow and then a beautiful sunset in the evening and ending the day with an amazing Lunar Eclipse I actually manage to stay up for. My daughter and her boyfriend did too. It took two hours . But it was defiantly worth it. Thankfully we watched it from my bedroom window, being that is was only 2 out there was no way I was going outside …bad enough the house was cold so getting into my bed with the electric blanket on felt good.

Today the temps stayed at 2 so I did not leave the house. My husband and daughter did they wanted to try a coffee from our local coffee shop down the road. There was an almond marshmallow flavored one so they brought me one back. So good . While they were out grabbing coffees I made Shepard’s pie for supper. And wrote in my journal. Chatted with my son not as much today . As he was enjoying his last day of his four day weekend relaxing with his army buddies and getting ready to start back up with their MOS classes for the week. And even earlier wake up he’s not looking forward too again. Back to routine tomorrow for my husband and daughter. While I run some errands . So I guess I will finish up one more thing and go settle under my blankets and read a bit before getting some sleep but not before I say goodnight to my son.