Monday!

Good Morning ! Unbelievable it’s Monday already . The last week of March and Easter , my hubby’s Birthday this weekend oh crazy of the timing this yr … but then again this is a bit of a crazy year … changes .. trying to go with the flow one step at a time . More like trudging through wet cement . Well that said 😦. How was everyone’s weekend ? I hope good . Sitting here looking out my window the sun is shinning the sky is a beautiful blue and the coffee taste good . Quiet at the moment soon my son will be up hustling and bustling around the kitchen getting his breakfast and showering to head off to school . I will just sit back give him a good morning and let him do his thing he is not a talkative morning person and he has his routine . Days of dragging him out of bed oh wait that was my daughter 🙂 he didn’t mind getting up and going to school he would do a mad dash to the kitchen for me to make him his breakfast that was something different every morning then dressing quickly and rushing me out to get him to school so he could play on the playground before school started. Where my daughter would eat the same breakfast get dressed slowly with a little push from me and wait till the bell was about to ring then just go into the school. … ahhh such opposites and still to this day. It alway felt like a tug of war being pulled into two different directions and now with them older and looking at them with their separate things going on and I still feeling that pull because I have something to say to both to help …suggest but can’t especially my adult daughter my son yes but will not listen hmm either of them will not listen. So yes hard to watch but at the moment it’s about the only thing to do I guess will see.. always a mom… 🙄 well my sons up so I guess I will go say good morning and then get back to whatever I need to do today.

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A summer of change and challenge….

Oh where did the summers  go when the things we worried about was too much sun ,not enough water , over tired kids . how to get them inside for the night and a sad child because their popsicle melted faster then they could eat it. Replaced with worrying where your kids are  ,not home by curfew .. or their not where they said they would be , insecurities if not trusting  a friend , your teenager sad and playing sad depressing songs over and over after a breakup. Trying to find an answer to their why’s and it’s unfair .. then we get even more complicated with teenagers hosting parties and you find out your teenager is there because you get a 1 in  the morning phone call saying you need to pick me up because there not at a sleepover…. and the party just got busted and the police are asking you to come pick your child up and their car as well . And you want to be angry at them but at the same time you just want to get them home safe and the lecturing will have to wait till morning but you cant sleep because there is so much you need to say and if your lucky they will listen . Then if you have a soon to be 22 yr old daughter who  does not know what to do with her boyfriend she is unhappy with and is easy for you to say then end the relationship. But they have 10 reasons why thier unsure of , yes is your head spinning mine is . and then she is trying to save and work more which we know work and making the money to move out is a challenge in it’s self this day in age  and she has a good head on her shoulder and is frustrated because she is trying but it is taking more time then she thought. Yes the challenges just as the teenage parties  are .. yes some did some didn’t but this generation is parting even more and  more young adults are still living at home and how did your teenager get ahold of half the  alcohol   is beyond me .  My Son is a great kid has good friends  they all have jobs and athletics and  good grades but pressures  yes a lot of pressures  peer pressure which is at an all time high as well in this age. but do not get me started that is a subject for another day  but I believe it is part of the problem and they just can’t get it that this is not a good thing of what thier doing and let me just say my husband  and I’ are holding our breaths for school to start 3 more weeks and school will be here and it’s going to be the longest 3 weeks of our lives . So like my title to this post says the challenges …this has been an eye opening summer  wish I  could find a solution to all  if these challenges yes I know learning experience  but these days it’s just not a safe answer .  

Your life…

Good Morning ! Sitting here on my couch  coffee in hand and imensly enjoying it . I’m watching tv and it’s the Today show and they stated what happen to personal choice oh my yes!!! That’s it what happened … I find myself fighting this more and more everyday now that time is becoming my time. We have raised our daughter our youngest is about to be 17 a senior and I’ think my better  half and I have done well or as well as can be . So now I and my hubby can do and go wherever but you know what I honestly don’t want to …. fior myself give me a good book to read a notebook , computer to write , or the stars at night and my comfy deck to enjoy them ,my bed or couch with a warm cozy blanket  and a movie or favorite show on a cold winter night  and I’m happy why when I’ve done my house cleaning and watched my sons track meets and enjoyedmy daughters   chats with a cup of tea or coffee and my hubby and I talk all the time take rides watched tv together be enough? Especially after a long day at work   Why do I  feel guilty why do I feel like we should be doing more why do I feel I have to justify this why do I compare when I honestly know I am happy with this my hubby is as well but why ? A question I ‘m struggling with a lot this year. As society made us feel we have to constantly be doing , going somewhere. Comparing ourselves with others Or is it me ? Any answers anyone?  Would love some help on this.