And he’s on his way…

It’s 6:43 here and this day has been long and teary.. for my son its even longer only 5:43 where he is waiting for his 2nd flight and so many more hours to travel until he’s at his destination . When he arrives at the Base he gets one call to say he arrived . It will be almost midnight when that call comes in. I’ve heard from him through text while in between flights .. so much waiting. He’s doing well for his first time flying on his own . Tired .. letting him go this morning was so hard . Did well not to show too much sadness but he did hug me like three times and did the shake hand hug with his dad several times too which is unusual for him . I know he was a bit nervous but so ready. He stated he was nervous but ready but I just wanted to hold on to him and not let go . My baby boy .. no parent book in the world teaches you how to let them go. When my husband and I were driving back home from dropping him off my cell phone came to life displaying his photo I answered so fast ready to ask him if everything was okay . He called because he had two hrs to wait for his flight and wanted to let us know how long it would take to get to the Base and he was bored . Happy to hear his voice but after getting off the phone it triggered the tears . I already was missing him. Once home hubby and I told our daughter how it went she couldn’t come with us not knowing how long it would take and she had to go to work. Then him and I kept busy around the house ,him outside doing oil changes on snowblower .. generator getting ready for winter even though it couldn’t be anymore humid that we have an air conditioner running. So iI was inside cleaning up around the house finishing some of my sons laundry he has left anything to do to not think how quiet it will be for awhile . And here it’s evening now and catching the nightly news until we settle in bed and watch our shows and wait for a my son to call. . When I know he can settle I will . Yes always a mother. That’s what us parents do. Soon my daughter will be home she is ready to get home eat and watch her shows as well. I wouldn’t be surprised if It crosses her mind to ask where her brother is . She always would when she would get home from somewhere and knowing he was out he was always out she would ask where he was . I know I will think off and on I wonder what he’s up to for the day . I always wondered it . Habits.. well for now I will get comfortable color or try until shows are on.

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Ready … I think!

So I think I’m ready…. well let’s see the food is bought the cake has been picked up , the grill is ready House is ready to be set up , balloons are bought . So yes all set …. except one thing …… ME ! I may have to bring some tissues … when I see my Son march in his cap and gown once again but for the Graduation. It’s just so unbelievable just can’t believe how fast he grew into a young man it feels like yesterday he was as small as the picture I posted .. yessss I took a photo of this at the store tonight … I went looking for a table cloth passed by the little kid outfits couldn’t resist … thank god my daughter was two isles over hahahs she would of been so embarrassed . 😂 I know crazy.. I’m not denying it hahaha Well waiting for him to get home from his race anxious to hear how he did. It’s looking like once again another late night .. some day I will get to bed earlier. …

Monday Track Meet.

It was once again a brutally cold Track Meet.Amazed by these kids who can run in this cold , some of the kids just kept on walking , pacing , stretching to keep warm and not stiffen up before their race. The boys did such a great job . The strength and endurance is such a-remarkable thing. My son did exceptionally well we where tied and he won it for their team winning the relay he ran so hard so fast with everything he had in him . Everyone was cheering him on including me that I think I yelled so loud I may not have a voice tomorrow hahaha after he passed the finish line everyone came up to him and his coach hugged him I think it almost look like my son was going to cry so shaken with emotions of everyone shaking his hands hugging him that it brought tears to my eyes . I know it’s just a race…. but to him it’s everything .. all his hard work , his loyalty to the sport his team, his friends and to his coach . Running is his passion well one of many but it’s at the top of the list. It’s night now and supper was a late one he came home a bit after us and ate , showered and yes was exhausted he is in bed and I’m hoping is asleep . I’m still warming up I have my electric blanket on low . To get the chill out of my bones . So hoping for Friday’s Meet to be warmer. Well the fan is on humming away . As soon as my daughter arrives which should be soon I will say my nightly prayers and get get some sleep as well.

Christmas Eve….

It’s 11:45 Christmas Eve Night soon it will be Christmas. I’m a bit calmer less stress the guilt I feel or felt that I didn’t do enough which I know I did is slowly easing off .. we do my hubby and I buy things all year around so they have what they want and need but it’s not about stuff …things it’s about being with our love ones sharing good times making memories and after tonight was more proof then ever that this is what it’s about, let me explain my father in-law passed this August without warning , shocking and quick it was so shocking and so out of the blue.. so it’s been hard with the holidays and absorbing this loss, a very rowdy loud straight to the point great humor kind of guy you just do not easily let go of and my mother in-law who shy of 4months this month would have been married to him for 50 yrs has been so amazingly strong and a rock don’t get me wrong she has her days but she has been so strong and we have been by her side . Tonight we spent Christmas Eve at her house and she had her grand kids all Four of them my two and my hubby” s brothers two open a present all together and read this poem when they pulled the item out of each of their gift bag I teared up the minute I saw it and my daughter did as well my son and niece and nephew all looked amazed they each where holding a medium size hand made pillow that was made out of the material of their grandfathers flannel shirts he wore and loved so much and we saw him in so often the girls were his red plaid flannel and the boys had his green flannel color ones and it had like the buttons going up the pillow like a shirt and there was a sweet poem which said something like tonight I hope you take comfort of me with this pillow and have a good night rest with me near . It was so beautiful. My mother in-law found some one to make them she called them memory pillows . Right then there it was the proof of what this night this holiday. Is about and my mother -in law just grabbed my crying daughter and hugged her crying and said I hope it’s happy tears and my daughter said yes . My son said he felt he didn’t deserve this that he wish he had spent more time with him but we told him he did and his grandfather was at every sport birthday event so he did deserve it I think that is always a common reaction .. bu all I know it was what made this Christmas Eve the true meaning … life love.. our love ones family the one thing we should never loose sight of or take for granted because when it comes down to it Family is what is important that is what matter.and look at this it’s Christmas now , well time for some sleep .Merry Christmas ! I hope my kids and niece and nephew are sleeping well with their pillows❤️

Remember ❤️

Settled in with my hubby under our warm blankets on this cold night  enjoying the Country Music Awards. It pulled at the heart strings they  dedicated  the show to all the tradgedies that have been shaking up our world , the weather the Las Vegas shooting,  New York ,  Texas church shooting all so heart breaking   and so unfair but watching and listening to the music brought all of us together to remember the life’s lost and we will never forget . Even though evil still lurks we can be comforted to know that we stand together and lean on one another and build strength to not let this overcome us we will keep on fighting and and hopefully conquer this  hatred . It was nice to watch this with my famiy and sing along and tear up a bit but most important we watched this together . It’s over now so time to get some sleep .sweet dreams everyone.

Remember ❤️

Settled in with my hubby under our warm blankets on this cold night  enjoying the Country Music Awards. It pulled at the heart strings they  dedicated  the show to all the tradgedies that have been shaking up our world , the weather the Las Vegas shooting,  New York ,  Texas church shooting all so heart breaking   and so unfair but watching and listening to the music brought all of us together to remember the life’s lost and we will never forget . Even though evil still lurks we can be comforted to know that we stand together and lean on one another and build strength to not let this overcome us we will keep on fighting and and hopefully conquer this  hatred . It was nice to watch this with my famiy and sing along and tear up a bit but most important we watched this together . It’s over now so time to get some sleep .sweet dreams everyone.

Remember ❤️

Settled in with my hubby under our warm blankets on this cold night  enjoying the Country Music Awards. It pulled at the heart strings they  dedicated  the show to all the tradgedies that have been shaking up our world , the weather the Las Vegas shooting,  New York ,  Texas church shooting all so heart breaking   and so unfair but watching and listening to the music brought all of us together to remember the life’s lost and we will never forget . Even though evil still lurks we can be comforted to know that we stand together and lean on one another and build strength to not let this overcome us we will keep on fighting and and hopefully conquer this  hatred . It was nice to watch this with my famiy and sing along and tear up a bit but most important we watched this together . It’s over now so time to get some sleep .sweet dreams everyone.