Hmm..Don’t know..

Well another night of listening to the air conditioner do its thing while trying to sleep …so sick of it having to run. I actually am welcoming the Fall. weather …..yes I’m aware its still July . I don’t know I guess I’m feeling irritable I’m thinking it could be my birthday next week and I would gladly be happy if  it would just get here and be done… never liked birthdays after I hit 40 . Now it’s just a feeling of dread … I am looking forward to my sons though that is next week as well a day after mine …ahh to be 17 again the best well back in my day it was now I think it’s a lot different 17 now is like turning 20 kids grow up so much faster and have so much more pressures put on them . Life has become so complicated and there is so much more kids worry about and feel they have to live up to. I just hope he enjoys it because there is a lot of good times to be had with this time he just has to stop thinking of all the have too’s for just a bit  All I want his time to slow down a bit so I can catch my breath  and my son can be a teenager . A carefree one hahaha I know not happening  is a nice thought though , well everyone’s home tonight  and settled in 2 nights  in a row that’s a record in my house .and I’m wide awake good thing I bought more coffee today will definitely need it in the morning. 🙂

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Photo Monday!

 

There is not many of these covered bridges  anymore this one is located where I grew up. when I was a little girl it was open to vehicles by the time I became a teenager they closed it due to it’s unsafe conditions the  town decided to close it because they did not have the funds to repair it sadly .,, so  now it just sits there lonely except for the comfort of the river flowing gently beneath or the occasional people who would walk through or just sit and enjoy the peaceful sound of the river .  This was one of the first places where I started my first journal and I could peacefully write at times while I sat and wrote the wind would go through its thin aged wood making a creaking sound sometime it was a bit creepy especially when you where by yourself I still get a chill when I think back . I love that bridge it holds so many memories for me and many others. I hope you enjoy my Photo for this week.

Hmm…. Eye Opener

It;s been a long week and its only Tues, so hate that feeling ..  My Son gad a track meet against their rivalry team and someone had to loose unfortunately it was my Son’s team. The team took it really hard , I feel so bad for them. I want to say to him it’s only a game but to them it’s so much more. it’s their life who they are okay they think it is ..I think that there is to much pressures of  all kinds. on kids now  and I not saying we put to much pressure as parents  I am talking about other kids society  sports them trying to prove themselves  to others , wanting to be in as I quote . If you read my last post I had wrote about the controversy over the new show based on the book 13 Reasons Why on Netflix about teenage suicide. Its such an eye opener I am on episode 9 and I am amazed how I can relate some of the things that I have seen in my kids school its so unreal.  Yes I know we where all teenagers once we had good days bad days we had breakups bad friends all that but in this new world of technology I think its out of control  what kids can do with it and  sadly really push someone to the point of suicide  Just by one press of a button on their cell phones,,.we know bullying is out of hand , kids do not care there mind are so wrapped up in material things okay sorry not all but a good amount of kids and this show/book I believe scares people because this is a real fear and people are afraid to see this .I do agree if your child has depression  they should not watch this or watch with an adult because it does not in my eye glamorize suicide maybe in a teenagers so watch talk about it . I know one thing keep the communication open with your kids no matter if they push away just keep it open.

Can you say crazy….

House clean Check

laundry done Check

Bills paid        Check

school issues Check

supper cooking Check

Myself Crazy…… ughh  how I feel this week  I do not think one day warm and sunny then 3 days cold and raining does not help . It was one of those weeks when I feel  like I’m running in two different directions.  Thankfully it’s Friday.  So now everything is done and the house is quiet Miss Abigail is doing what she does best on quiet rainy days snuggled up and sleeping it away… until everyone gets home . I think I am going to check out that new series that is based on a book. that is on Netflix it actually a book that my daughter read back when she was in 7th grade and now she is 21  and is reading it  again its called 13 Reasons Why .. there is a big controversy in my part of the globe I do not know how far this controversy stretches  to the rest of the globe but society is saying it glamorizes teenage suicide and gives the teenager the idea that if they have a problem this is an easy way out. my daughter said she believes people are getting the wrong message that what she gets out of it is that the main character was so bullied  mistreated and had know one  who she felt she could tell who could  help her friend wise and  other kids went along with the abusing and that more teenagers  and adults should learn more about bullying and issues teenagers go through and more now in this society from this book/series how to see the signs of bulling or abuse to help someone if you witness this to stop being so hateful to others you never know what someone is going through. Okay I can agree with that so I decided I will watch it and see what I see being that I do have a daughter who suffered from bulling … when she was in High School yes my now 21 yr old and thankfully was strong enough to tell me and now she is doing well and is a very stronger person that I am so proud of.

Now my Son is in High School a Junior and the pressures and the games girls or should say a girl that is playing ,the  mind games with my son who is not into drama like his sister says it like it is doesn’t like to be lied to okay yes who does right…  is heart is so big he respects girls he will be nice to anyone so there are days he is in the slumps yes he gets tired from sports school work but the kids and girls play a big part of those slumps so I like to keep a close eye on him  He does  know his dad and I and sister are here at anytime  time to talk to. Sadly this day in age these kids do not have it easy peer pressure is at a all time high and they will not talk to someone and will take it upon them self to handle it I quote… so this when you have to become a detective not easy but its possible.  so will see when I watch this I will let you know in between reading the book I showed you in my past post ..its good but so far its going by the movie which usually does not happen which I was hoping would be more detailed but I will see and get back to you on that as well.

Saturday…

It’s Saturday evening already  this day flew by.  Subie is back at dealership they believe brakes ..will see and now for the time being I am driving a Subaru Cross Track not bad  and I was calm pleasant as my husband was as well but firm that we where sick of being there all the  time and we wanted my car straighten out( have to read my last post). They where very nice and waiting on us with the most courtesy they could give us hahaha . I do not think they want bad publicity and I do not want to give it. After my husband and I grabbed a coffee and headed home to our son in bed taken an after work nap and our daughter heading to work I spent the rest of the day absorbing some sun on the deck a bit chilly but the sun felt good and my Husband was working on his new shed , now my son is up and out with friends but of course right? Saturday night a teenager spending time at home with mom and dad hmm .. not cool I think that’s the word they use I could be wrong. 🙂 and my daughter working late, so another quiet night with hubby and Miss Abigail the kitty which is fine with us that’s what weekends are for fun …relaxing .  I hope all of you have a nice  Saturday night. Enjoy!

Evenings..

Dinner is done and cleaned up actually everyone was home tonight to eat.Tired….but home. My beautiful daughter brought me home an  ice coffee  for herself as well yes… an ice coffee you heard that right yes I dislike winter it’s cold out but sadly Ice coffee is the best anytime. so now settled in tired cranky teenage son hanging out in his room my hubby and daughter and  I watching reruns  of Friends well my daughter and I  ,hubby fell asleep. My daughter and I love Friends it can always  have  us laughing  it never gets old. They do not make many good TV shows like Friends anymore . Okay I am back… had to pause writing to bring my so called tired teenage son to a friends because they need to study for exams that are happening this week so he promised he would get sleep there will see …It’s not going to be me tired at track practice tomorrow.. oh teenagers  you never know what direction your going with them. I will say the ride over to his friends gave me the opportunity  to look at the amazing sky blanketed with the brightest stars shining like diamonds so beautiful and endless . love the night sky as much as I love my morning and evening sunsets  just shows us  somethings never change. That is  a good thing. So now back home and once again settled in have a great night everyone.

 

 

Summer…ahhhhh

Once again I’m having a hard time where to begin have pressed backspace several times. I feel the time getting onto my blog is getting more and more of a distance I do not want to get into a habit of but my time is at such a minimum of what I have to do to what I want to do .Today my friend and I actually got a moment to chat on the phone and the first thing I told her , I do not want to be an adult anymore and her response on the other end was laughter…and a sigh and then she said I understand. It’s only been two weeks ‘s been a crazy busy summer and did I say it’s  only been two weeks.

What happen to days spent by the pool…  Popsicle’s melting in the sun , weeks spent at the beach now replaced with me being a taxi to and from drivers ed my sons job drop offs and pickups with his friends  thank god for moments of bliss enjoying a coffee or lunch with my oldest she his my savior hahaha from having to be an adult and when weekends use to be day trip adventures is now me recovering on my deck swing and enjoying some peace of mind. I tried to get into a book its been awhile since I read , that worked for a day and now it sits on chapter 4. I am not complaining I know it sounds that way, I am just stating the unbelievable change this year has been and amazed how fast childhood disappeared and I am exhausted hahaha  so moms enjoy your summer with your little ones because it goes by fast and if you think your tired now just wait when they get older and they have places to be and no license  and your older you too will be saying I wish I wasn’t an adult at the moment 🙂 so I will try to be on here more maybe not everyday but more then I have been so please keep reading my post.  I also welcome feedback.