Just a quick note …haven’t posted for a bit . My husbands father passed away and the last couple of days have left us in a bit of a fog and this week will be emotionally exhausting so I may not be posting this week …will see maybe I will. find comfort in it if I do write. But before I try to get some sleep which has been a challenge. I just like to remind everyone that life is so short and family is sacred so hug them and tell them you love them everyday and never take any one or anything in this life for granted.❤️
Well another night of listening to the air conditioner do its thing while trying to sleep …so sick of it having to run. I actually am welcoming the Fall. weather …..yes I’m aware its still July . I don’t know I guess I’m feeling irritable I’m thinking it could be my birthday next week and I would gladly be happy if it would just get here and be done… never liked birthdays after I hit 40 . Now it’s just a feeling of dread … I am looking forward to my sons though that is next week as well a day after mine …ahh to be 17 again the best well back in my day it was now I think it’s a lot different 17 now is like turning 20 kids grow up so much faster and have so much more pressures put on them . Life has become so complicated and there is so much more kids worry about and feel they have to live up to. I just hope he enjoys it because there is a lot of good times to be had with this time he just has to stop thinking of all the have too’s for just a bit All I want his time to slow down a bit so I can catch my breath and my son can be a teenager . A carefree one hahaha I know not happening is a nice thought though , well everyone’s home tonight and settled in 2 nights in a row that’s a record in my house .and I’m wide awake good thing I bought more coffee today will definitely need it in the morning. 🙂
I am happy to say I’m getting back into reading again so I started reading in bed before I go to sleep to relax my mind .Its been going good the last couple of days and so tonight I read again and my mind just wouldn’t shut off I’m reading but my mind is actually thinking of other things.. night is when I think so no wonder why I am not a good sleeper …I guess old habits die hard . So I will put the book down and I will just try sleeping wish me luck oh by the way the book is good it’s just not winning over my thoughts tonight and sadly things I shouldn’t be wasting a minute on.
I’m laying here in the darkness while my husband sleeps I could go into another room but I want to feel the warmth of my bed and hearing him sleep is comforting. .My thoughts are keeping me awake the tradegedy in London and just all the injustice in this world is heavy on the mind and ‘heart. Everyone is suffering from something whether is attacks drug addiction it’s just so unfair .life as become more scary every time my kids walk out the door I pray they will be safe. Yes I guess that is normal but it’s just the worries have gotten so much bigger and how do we stop it ? It’s definitely not going to change any time soon. I just wish for peace and love and a simple safe happy life. Is that possible? Oh my mind is so unsettled tonight even the sound of a distant train is giving me a chill down my spine , when other night’s it would be soothing…comforting. I pray tonight for health and safety and happiness as I try to sleep..
Okay so its not a really nothing to do day hahaha isn’t there always something to do? I was just stating that I had no track meet or food shopping so no where to be or errands to run. …but yes laundry and its about done. and supper will be cooking soon enough. I had a nice morning enjoying my morning coffee with my daughter before she had to go to work so now the house is quiet clean and Miss Abigail is happily sleeping. I have not adult colored in awhile I may try doing that later and watch another episode of 13 Reasons Why. it’s another chilly May day so nothing outside. Mother Nature is just not wanting it to feel like Spring our way she is a bit moody so what else can you do but make the best of it right? at least the flowers are blooming and beautiful. well going to do a few things enjoy your day.
I love this window… usually I sit to the side of it in my comfy chair and I write , read , do adult coloring because its so bright and sunny and warm So lately Miss Abigail as decided she likes my chair so she is taking a nice afternoon nap in it and I am sitting on the couch and I am head on now with the window and I guess I should thank her hahaha the view is even more beautiful and the sun is bright and I still can feel the warmth of the sun. I guess sometimes looking at things in a different angle is a good thing .We sometimes get so custom to looking at things in the same way that we loose sight of what we could be missing . nice to shake things up a bit . even if its just looking out my window in a different view can make you think.
Night time upon us and the chill in the air sends shock waves through my already tired cold body. The sky is as dark as can be the star’s are tucked away in the cloudy sky. Even the woods seem quiet tonight, no scurrying of wild life to be heard. Just a sound of a far away car motor or a whistle of train going by to shake the web’s from your tired mind.. Mother Nature why do you seem upset tonight ?sending this chill our way. Please bring your warmth back please be happy again.