Adult Coloring night!

Last night after supper was done and cleaned up, I decided to take out my adult coloring book and coloring pencils. It was relaxing . I haven’t colored since the week my son flew back to his base that was about 3weeks ago .. the strange thing is it feels so much longer then 3 weeks …. I know it feels very short for him.. that time is standing still for him. I guess feeling the way I feel is harder because I think oh soon and he will be home…. but no I think it means how much I miss him.. so picking up my coloring was refreshing and it stopped my wandering thoughts as I focused on the pattern I was coloring. I finished what I had started those 3 weeks ago, I like it it was a fitting pattern (hahaha) yes a heart πŸ™‚Now to find another pattern. Feeling like coloring a bit more tonight. It’s now a rainy night . Nothing like rain in January ..NO!(hahaha) can’t win, no snow , brutally cold to a foot of snow, to now rain …. we have had it all. Thankfully before the rain started and the ice looked a bit easier to navigate so I wouldn’t slip I was able to get to the post office and send my sons book he had asked if I could send him..I guess it was a smart choice I got out ,a friend of my daughters said she just found out her siblings do not have school tomorrow because of the higher elevation and dirt roads in most part of the towns here will be covered In ice . Good call I must agree.I guess its time to settle In and color and enjoy my husband and I’s favorite show .. well one of them We have many of them. Have a good night everyone!

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Cold…

It’s the coldest night in a while . As I write this I’m under my covers . Earlier the wind was blowing so bad it was making a roaring sound ,all we could hear as we watched the nightly news .. which why we watch it I do not know , nothing good the world is not in a good place . The chaos in the politic world is crazy.. but that is all I’m saying , I do not like to talk politics.

Today was a quiet day I’m going to adopt this word quiet I say quiet a lot . πŸ™„ but quiet is my world for the most part … and yes tonight it’s quiet as well . It’s okay though because soon my son will be home well two months but soon . So even though for the most part his friends will be still at college and he will be working and doing The National Guard his music will echo through the house once in awhile when he’s home. My daughter is constantly on the run whether she is at work or with her boyfriend or friends so I do not see her much . Even though she is telling me she is so tired and is ready to just rest …. oh to be young. I know I’m just gibbering but thinking of someone who is flying back to College tonight to Ireland and her plane has been delayed 2 hrs and it’s late as it is when she’s flying out. Poor thing . So I know I’m rambling.. I guess it’s time to get off here and try to sleep. Goodnight everyone.

The Norm…slowly

It’s Wednesday the holidays have come and gone . The tree the decorations are gone and put away . My house feeling a bit less cluttered . Well I shouldn’t say cluttered because we all know it’s beautiful to have the house all decked out . I’ll say we have our space back. My hubby and I settled in bed last night a bit early him watching tv myself adult coloring . In my sons room the sound of laughter and the Xbox echoed through his walls. I absorbed the sound taking it all in because as of Thursday it will be quiet and spotless .

While coloring and chatting with my hubby there was a knock on the door . My son peaking in then coming all the way in shutting the door , asking what we were watching and looking tired which yes being a mom I stated that to him he said yeah … quietly . we asked him if his friends were still here he shook his head yes . Then I noticed his eyes were not tired but puffy and he was wiping them I said are you okay? He told us it must be his friends cat from being at the friends house New yrs night . I told him to grab some allergy medicine not much just a little he shook his head . But I knew really that it wasn’t a reaction but tears he was holding back . I finally said talk and he sat on the bed and said he was already missing home the routine ..basically I notice he settled into pretty quick with running around with his friends it happens friends boost your ego when you Live in a small town . He stated he was ready but not he said it’s just so hard to leave home .plus he’s doing the questing game of what he can expect or not. Which is never a good thing to do.

This morning we woke enjoyed our coffee and think we will get ready to take my son out to eat and then come home help him pack and settle in for a quiet night with a movie . Very early trip to the airport tomorrow. Then the house will be quiet the walls won’t echo with pounding music no laughter well into the night . Oh the cycle of the ups and down we go through .. are we ever happy . πŸ™„ well I better get this day started .

Thinking …

It’s a dreary day .. snowing off and on thankfully not amounting to much. But just the dreariness doesn’t help my mood . I should be jumping for joy yelling to the world my Son will be home in a week.. so why do I feel blah instead ? Oh believe me I am excited . I can’t wait , I miss him so much . I guess it’s the fact I will not be at his graduation with my hubby and also my hubby will be away for 5 days as of tomorrow and the houses is quiet enough . Oh my if they counted on here how many times you uses one word .. I would win for using quiet so much .πŸ™„ I know my daughter will be here it’s just I feel bad depending on her for company . I know that’s not how she is thinking. She wants to help me get his room freshen up for her brother . Plus declutter the house including her place . On her days off from work. . I guess I’m thinking to much which is making me feel anxious and not in control . I need to stop over thinking. I need to stay busy . So hate this feeling. Now if it wasn’t winter . We would have drove . If it wasn’t winter I’d feel better because it wouldn’t be dreary .. omg I know I’m thinking about things that are not able to be. Oh I am my worse enemy…. we’ll need to switch laundry over. And think about supper. Wish me luck to stop thinking so much.

Soon!

Good morning it’s a quiet Tuesday one .. after waking up at 7:00 the aroma of coffee found its way to me . I dragged myself to the shower but not before starting a load of laundry my husband had loaded in the washing machine ..I blasted the hot water since it’s so cold trying to warm up . Finally finding my way to the kitchen grabbing some coffee was so worth every sip.Miss Abigail is already in her chair sleeping away again . Oh this house is quiet but going to be even quieter by Friday when my hubby flys out to my Son for his Basic Training graduation I’ve mentioned this in past posts ,I’m not going can not fly or do the long distance walking so he will video and get a lot of pictures. The graduation isn’t until next Wed with visiting the base the day before so actually he’s flying out Saturday early morning with his mom who got them a room by the airport on Friday night so she wouldn’t have to to do an hr and a half ride to the airport for a 8:00am flight sadly they will be hanging around in a hotel from Sat to Tues because of finding a flight so close to my sons graduation . Then after graduation they will head to the airport and fly home with him . It will be a long day for them they should arrive home around 1or 2 in the morning.. I will stay up to at least give my son a hug and then let him head to bed . And then catchup with him as much as possible until his friends get ahold of him. They have already started texting me asking when he will be home …… so this will be interesting πŸ™‚. It’s only 12 days here then he flys back out again but it’s ok I can at least have him home for Christmas !

I have been slowly decluttering the house .. my daughter will help me when my hubby is away which will keep my mind busy . Yes my mind (hahaha) I think too much . And so decluttering and freshening up his bedding will keep me busy . Yes I have been thinking and what timing as I’m writing this post I’m watching the morning local show while enjoying my coffee their talking about first holidays with your adult kids coming home from college , moving out military etc ..stating how when they come home it will be different for them and the parents as well.. The day they first walked out the door on their own they became adults and started their new life and so they will be different and we will be different as well ..So how we treated them before will change a bit yes their still our kids but their adults, seen a different world so transitioning to coming home will be however we make it but to respect there difference as well as they should respect our difference of how we as parents have adapted to them not being here But being adults doesn’t mean they will not need us they will. But in a more supportive way of letting them tell you how they feel if it’s been hard then guide them with ideas to make it more easier but teaching them , telling them is no longer our job. It’s their life. and we want them to want .. to look forward to coming home.Ok I must say listening to this has helped a lot because that is what I’ve been thinking about so much as the time has come closer to my son coming home and him coming home from Basic Training he will be different. And that could be a good thing . Oh I love him but he needed some help with growing up and hopefully taming his wild ways ..not a bad wild but a young wild .. so I will step back see how he is when he walks though the door and then trend carefully seeing the difference in him. My daughter growing into an adult was so different and easy she didn’t move away but went in a separate part of our house and just transitioned so much better I think she was born an adult ) hahaha) being a teenager was hard for her she always acted older then her peers . Was better around adults so being adult she has flourished and I’m proud of her. . So yes we will see . I’ll keep you posted.

Roaming..

Just like my title says …roaming.. I just feel like I’m running in place. I do not have much Christmas shopping for my kids to do ..I ordered online for something’s and then its gift cards and money towards things they need help with. What can you do when their adults. Oh the days of toy shopping was so much easier and more fun! As I write this I’m seeing a toy commercial come on the tv. (hahaha) then having older nieces and nephews it’s a money gift card for them as well . So as I look at everyone on line or talking with people their all wound up about buying things . I just want to have my family all together … my son will be coming home for twelve days and when he just starts to relax it will be time to fly back out is what I’m thinking so the whole present thing is probably not his main focus , my daughter feels like she hasn’t done enough and I told her I’m sure it’s fine . All long as I feel like I’m just roaming walking in place feeling like I should be doing more. .. but honestly it’s no different from any other yr since they have become older . Their fine. So that being said I will just get this house ready with the help of my daughter with food in the house since it’s been just feeding my hubby and I . My daughter doesn’t eat too much at home and when she does she buys what she wants. So stock up on food that my son likes but then again I don’t know if he is eating the same way he did before he left for Basic .. he may want junk food (and eating out. hahaha) And ….,that being said it’s waiting for my son to come home .

I have books to read, spend a bit more on here with my blog and now my new thing my friend and I started that I posted about a week or so ago . Now that my Son is about done with Basic there isn’t any more letter writing with him so we have decided to write back and fourth and I am feeling guilty because she has already wrote me and I am dragging my butt . I have started a letter just need time to do it and to focus . And sadly I have the time I honestly can’t say why my day goes by so fast .. It’s just so relaxed I get up catch up on news with my coffee then clean up around the house and then run into town , post office garage, etc then come back home and get supper started . And then get off my feet for a bit enjoying my soap then finish supper and then hubby cleans up and then he , we settle in to watch our tv shows and try to do my thing .. books ..writing, but then my day is gone night time settles in.. and that’s why I feel this running in place feeling . Ughh maybe I’m thinking too much … I just don’t know . πŸ™„ like now its 6:00 in the evening been dark since 5 supper is done and cleaned up . And now my hubby is relaxing on the couch and I’m cozied in my chair with a blanket it’s so cold … they say the coldest night it will be so far . It’s strange with it being a clear starry cold evening we keep hearing the whistle of the trains going by , while we are watching the news.. yes time to time we hear them at night while we are laying in bed and it’s quiet but the last two night the whistle and the sound of the train on the tracks is crystal clear. It’s even mor creepier … well I guess I should finish my letter to my friend and then read one of my books . I’d say my hubby and I could watch a movie but he’s going to settle in early yeah it’s Friday but Saturday is the last day of hunting so my hubby and his friend are hunting for the day . Plus it’s a good night for settling earlier to keep warm( hahaha)

Rainy Sunday..

It’s a cold rainy Sunday. Not complaining better then the ice and snow they first predicted. So just having a very lazy day , slept in then dragged myself to the shower and finally made it to the kitchen for my morning coffee.. at this point I think I need several to get me out of this blah feeling . My joints hurt which is always the case when it rains ..so it’s not a myth. Maybe do some things around here or not.. πŸ™„ need to order some gifts online then I may just Adult color or read. Hoping my son calls today . He did state on Thanksgiving he may have one more phone call left before Basic Training Graduation . I hope so .. I wrote a letter the weekend after Thanksgiving I’m thinking he may have just received it . No letters from him because he will be so busy but he did state keep the letters coming . Sadly with how it takes so long for him to get them I keep holding back to send one more out . It will be graduation by the time he gets it , if he even gets it I did send my congrats in the last letter since I will not be able to fly out to see him graduate my hubby will be there . He understands . I will stay back and with the help of my daughter in between her work schedule she will help me wash his bedding again to freshen it up . Dust his room . And help me stock up for food that he likes plus Christmas Eve and Christmas Day food. That will keep my mind busy well maybe…. I know I ll be thinking of him constantly that day with a tear in my eye one for not being there with him and second because I am so proud of him. I do miss writing to him . Love writing it felt good. Hopefully when he goes back for his next training it’s letters only instead of cellphones even though being only a text away would be nicer .I’m afraid he will get wrapped up with his friends and use his texting time on his friends….. he is only 18 . Friends are so important at that age , even though his letters he’s been so humble . Will see. Hubby’s snoozing on the couch while waiting for his team to play .. Sunday Football . My daughters with her boyfriend then work this afternoon. Late but short shift. Miss Abigail is sleeping away in our bean bag chair oh to be a cat ,she makes sleeping look so nice. Well time to do a few things so I can sit back down and color or read .