It’s a Sunday night laying in bed thinking yes I know I should be sleeping. Once again the airconditioner is humming and to believe it’s Fall … sadly not weather wise . So wish for a crisp cool day enjoying a nice hot cup of pumpkin spice coffee. Soon … well now another change has serviced my son has now traded his cross country shoes for football cleats .. , yes he is now playing football as mom sits on the bleachers holding her breath till the game has finished . What to do but support him . He is stubborn should of known he was not happy with CC this yr . So soon I will post some photos he has to to miss two games since he started later so as of now after this Saturday coming he will start playing A very different school year .. it has been from the get go , I’m slowly getting use to my new norm …well maybe , I guess I will try to get some sleep or I will regret it in the morning .Goodnight everyone wish me luck .
Woke up to a hot humid morning not very enjoyable after enjoying the past crisp cool mornings where a hot cup of a coffee tasted so good. I’m not one for the heat . At least it will be a night of settling in a bit earlier when everyone gets home my hubby has a bad cold so to bed he will go and my son has a big Saturday ahead of himself that he needs to rest for . Him and my husband will be staying over two hrs away tomorrow night in Vermont so my son can be ready for his Spartan race at 6 that Saturday morning . 30 mile race of obstacles ….that’s my son. So after practice tonight he will be home to eat and settle it will be a long day for both of them . I will stay back and be with my daughter and her friend for a girls night. So that will be fun. Saturday my son and hubby should be back around midnight and Sunday will be my son resting and recovering , Now do you see why I worry 🙂 he just has such a drive he amazes me but worries me this guy is always thinking of what next he can do … so wish him luck .
The night darker then usual the moon is covered in clouds ,no shadow upon my walls instead a very darken room filled with nothing but quietness ..and my thoughts that seem to occupy my mind. Endless thoughts with no place to escape . What to do if only I knew the answers….
I have been trying to bring in the good energy be more positive instead it’s seeming to go the opposite ..things are breaking and going wrong all around me and it’s making me unhappy. , what am I doing wrong ? Am I not trying enough to bring the good energy in? I’ve never been a high believer in this but I thought I would try it. Should I just be who I am think the way I always have because honestly I think I was less exhauste when I just letting things go the way they will I seemed more happier with thinking and living one day at a time and taking things has they come then looking through roes color glasses . I’ve always have believed that somethings you just cant change no matter how positive you are . In some case yes but but not all the time I’ have always lived I guess in the middle . So I guess I need to stay that person. Especially this yr with all the changes I need to just focus on getting use to the changes is that a bad thing. It’s been a rough day and Im sick of being who I’m not . I’m sorry my sister in law said I should try this good energy positive thing I don’t know how it’s working for her it seems more like she avoids things and people and shelters herself in her home with her family and that’s it and doesn’t want to hear or read about anything bad … is that such a good idea ? I’m so confused. Any advice any one I guess what’s good for som isn’t for others.
Good Morning sitting here on this rainy morning enjoying my cofffee and watching the news . Not liking what I’m hearing …here we go again another hurricane , everyone who is in the path of this storm get out if they tell you … thinking of all of you . This is not good so listen when they say to to evacuate . Let’s pray Irma weakens . Stay safe everyone.
Just a quick note …haven’t posted for a bit . My husbands father passed away and the last couple of days have left us in a bit of a fog and this week will be emotionally exhausting so I may not be posting this week …will see maybe I will. find comfort in it if I do write. But before I try to get some sleep which has been a challenge. I just like to remind everyone that life is so short and family is sacred so hug them and tell them you love them everyday and never take any one or anything in this life for granted.❤️
Well another night of listening to the air conditioner do its thing while trying to sleep …so sick of it having to run. I actually am welcoming the Fall. weather …..yes I’m aware its still July . I don’t know I guess I’m feeling irritable I’m thinking it could be my birthday next week and I would gladly be happy if it would just get here and be done… never liked birthdays after I hit 40 . Now it’s just a feeling of dread … I am looking forward to my sons though that is next week as well a day after mine …ahh to be 17 again the best well back in my day it was now I think it’s a lot different 17 now is like turning 20 kids grow up so much faster and have so much more pressures put on them . Life has become so complicated and there is so much more kids worry about and feel they have to live up to. I just hope he enjoys it because there is a lot of good times to be had with this time he just has to stop thinking of all the have too’s for just a bit All I want his time to slow down a bit so I can catch my breath and my son can be a teenager . A carefree one hahaha I know not happening is a nice thought though , well everyone’s home tonight and settled in 2 nights in a row that’s a record in my house .and I’m wide awake good thing I bought more coffee today will definitely need it in the morning. 🙂