Old habits die hard…

 

I am happy to say I’m getting  back into reading again so I started reading  in bed before I  go to sleep to relax my mind .Its been going good the last couple of days and so tonight I read again and my mind just wouldn’t shut off I’m reading but my mind is actually thinking of other things.. night is when I think so no  wonder why I am not a good  sleeper …I guess old habits die hard . So I will put the book down and I will just try sleeping  wish me luck oh by the way the book is good it’s just not winning over my thoughts tonight and sadly things I shouldn’t be wasting a minute on.

Thinking…

I’m laying here in the darkness while my husband sleeps I could go into another room but I want to feel the warmth of my bed and hearing him sleep is comforting. .My thoughts are keeping me awake the  tradegedy  in London and just all the injustice in this world is heavy on the mind and ‘heart.  Everyone is suffering from something  whether is attacks drug addiction it’s just so unfair .life as become more scary every time my kids walk out the door I pray they will  be safe. Yes I guess that is normal but it’s just the worries have gotten so much  bigger and how do we stop it ? It’s definitely not going to change any time  soon. I just wish for peace and love and a simple safe happy life. Is that possible?  Oh my mind is so unsettled tonight even the sound of a distant train is giving me a chill down my spine , when other night’s it would be soothing…comforting. I pray tonight for health and safety and happiness   as I try to sleep..

 

 

 

 

 

Nothing to do kind of day…

Okay so its not a really nothing to do day hahaha isn’t there always something to do? I was just stating that I had no track meet or food shopping so no where to be or errands to run. …but yes laundry and its about done. and supper will be cooking soon enough. I had a nice morning enjoying my morning coffee with my daughter before she had to go to work so now the house is quiet clean and Miss Abigail is happily sleeping.  I have not adult colored in awhile I may try doing that later and watch another episode of 13 Reasons Why.  it’s another chilly May day so nothing outside.  Mother Nature is just not wanting it to feel like Spring our way she is a bit moody so what else can you do but make the best of it right? at least the flowers  are blooming and beautiful.  well going to do a few things enjoy your day.

Different View

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I love this window… usually I sit to the side of it in my comfy chair and I write , read , do adult coloring because its so bright and sunny and warm  So lately Miss Abigail as decided she likes my chair so she is taking a nice afternoon nap in it and I am sitting on the couch and I am head on now with the window and I guess I should thank her hahaha the view is even more beautiful and the sun is bright and I still can feel the warmth of the sun. I guess sometimes looking at things in a different angle is a good thing .We sometimes get so custom to looking at things in the same way that we loose sight of what we could be missing . nice to shake things up a bit . even if its just looking out my window in a different view can make you think.

Thoughts …

Night time upon us and the chill in the air sends shock waves through  my already tired cold body. The sky is as dark as can be the star’s are tucked away in the cloudy sky. Even the woods seem quiet tonight, no scurrying of wild life to be heard. Just a sound of a far away car motor or a whistle  of train going by to shake the web’s from your tired  mind.. Mother Nature why do you seem upset tonight ?sending this chill our way. Please bring your warmth back please be happy again.

Rainy day … Thinking

It’s a rainy Spring day and it was easy to get things done around the house that really needed to be done then rushing around so I could sit out on the deck in the sun or take a drive and get a coffee …believe not a bad thing but so hard to do house work then. Supper is cooking in the crock pot the delicious smell of chicken cooking fills the house.and dusting is done laundry is going now relaxing and thinking about what a friend going to call her that she is one of my followers on my blog and she has one herself and she gave great advice on my last post. on changes and so I am sitting here and thinking about what she said and making my list. I hope she reads this and knows how i am taking her advice. It’s hard though because the person I was before my kids is a bit different or maybe I just lost who i was and its covered under the surface of being the person i am now and I just have to bring that person back to the surface…does that make since ? if you read my last post you will hopefully understand . So I know one thing hahaha I did get a little bit more serious over the years and uptight more which I think I could let go a bit… and I need to let go of feeling guilty for wanting to have more time for what I enjoy when the only one holding me back is me. I think my  kids want that because yes the string needs to be cut a bit . and there the ones cutting it and I am trying to hold on to . So hard this will take sometime maybe baby steps?  ….yes that could work. I  will get back to you on this.