Night time upon us and the chill in the air sends shock waves through my already tired cold body. The sky is as dark as can be the star’s are tucked away in the cloudy sky. Even the woods seem quiet tonight, no scurrying of wild life to be heard. Just a sound of a far away car motor or a whistle of train going by to shake the web’s from your tired mind.. Mother Nature why do you seem upset tonight ?sending this chill our way. Please bring your warmth back please be happy again.
Night …stillness ,quietness alone in my thoughts. Content. Everyone one settled in for the night happy, slowly drifting off to sleep time to say good night and say my prayers ..
It’s a rainy Spring day and it was easy to get things done around the house that really needed to be done then rushing around so I could sit out on the deck in the sun or take a drive and get a coffee …believe not a bad thing but so hard to do house work then. Supper is cooking in the crock pot the delicious smell of chicken cooking fills the house.and dusting is done laundry is going now relaxing and thinking about what a friend going to call her that she is one of my followers on my blog and she has one herself and she gave great advice on my last post. on changes and so I am sitting here and thinking about what she said and making my list. I hope she reads this and knows how i am taking her advice. It’s hard though because the person I was before my kids is a bit different or maybe I just lost who i was and its covered under the surface of being the person i am now and I just have to bring that person back to the surface…does that make since ? if you read my last post you will hopefully understand . So I know one thing hahaha I did get a little bit more serious over the years and uptight more which I think I could let go a bit… and I need to let go of feeling guilty for wanting to have more time for what I enjoy when the only one holding me back is me. I think my kids want that because yes the string needs to be cut a bit . and there the ones cutting it and I am trying to hold on to . So hard this will take sometime maybe baby steps? ….yes that could work. I will get back to you on this.
Darkness surrounds me thoughts invade me . Eyes are tired but body is restless. Time to stop thinking time to stop wondering time to let the quietness calm me and let myself drift like the waves in the ocean but gently into a sleep of dreams ….
I am a happy nice and given person but hurt me or my family you will feel my wrath .
I am strong , stubborn person but can have my moments of weakness in most cases you will not see unless I let you. .. do not underestimate me I can put up a good fight for what I believe in.
I am religious I believe.. I pray but I it’s private and personal for me.
I love to socialize I a can talk to anyone and everyone but my circle is small ..In the past I’ve let in to many and learned so small fits me well.
I live for today and blessed for every new day. I have loved many and lost many too.
I love deeply and hurt easily.
I am simple and live simple I do not ask for much . Drama is not in my vocab.
I only ask or want for happiness and good health for myself and family.
I am ME .
life is a journey on a lonely dirt back road with nothing in front of you or behind you but endless space and the only thing is to follow it and see where it takes you , the possibilities are endless and the road carries you wherever you want it to with the occasional bumps in the road that cannot be helped only handled and that as well is how you handle that too .No one says life is easy but it’s worth all that it sends our way changes are endless but we just keep walking looking down that endless road and just moving forward. Life can be hard at times but life can be beautiful too.
Laying here in bed darkness surrounds me ..except for the shadows on the wall from the moon . A train whistle echos as it passes through the night. Why is the sound seem like such a lonely cry? My eyes feel heavy of sleep but my mind is filled with thoughts ..sleep I tell myself tomorrow is another day. Sleep and dream of pleasant things another train whistle blows and this time gently persuades me to sleep.