Thinking… coloring

it’s a bit late at night but was thinking … not always a good thing so I thought I would relax and do some more adult coloring. This is what I have been working on for several days and loving every minute of it. For now it’s put away for the night so I will get some sleep.🙂

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Feelings…

I honestly believe that love is the hardest part of living , but at the same time best part of living .. yes love can feel so good and make you feel this deep sensation deep down inside to your soul and yet at the same time can be the hardest and saddest most painful feeling you ever experienced . How can one word one feeling be so complicated an the most best or worst thing in your life . Love is such a powerful word .

Mom stuff…

I slept in a bit then I made my way to the kitchen  for a nice hot cup of coffee as I enjoyed it I tuned into  the Today show shocked to hear the news that Matt Lauer made it to the list of mistreating women  …not going to be the same watching this , well  now he pays the price for his actions. I have other opinions but will not state them . ..So I finished my coffee and started my day as usual. laundry , tidy up the house , as I watched my soapy and yelled at the television hahaha my daughter loves when I get in to my show so intensely. I did some Christmas decorating around the house as Miss Abigail looked on as well . Then the phone call came in hospital setting up an appointment for my son for his MRI on his knee luckily for him they had an opening within an hr today if he wanted to go of course we said yes so I dropped what I was doing and went and got  ready to bring him . So now hopefully we can get in sooner with the therapist to tell us what’s going on and what needs to be done . I just hope he keeps his head on straight and knows there is no running this winter but rehab to get this knee ready for spring track. His rushing makes me a bit nervous because I know with his way of thinking he will rush this and as usual his impulsive thinking will get him in trouble. Oh his mind works in such mysteries ways….yes he is a teenager and he his making this mom have more grey hair then she wants. I must say I love how he needs me to get him to places and then we get home and he is so oh I’m independent I’ could of done this on my own ughhh enough to make a mom crazy . Would I want him any other way hmm …haha no I wouldn’t some days he reminds me of myself as a teenager so naive cocky , and I mature hahahaha sadly. Now I’m settled in and going to do some coloring before it gets to late . Can’t believe it’s 10 already.

Stress release ….

Settle in for the night in my cozy bed house is only occupied by my hubby and I and Miss Abigail at the moment kids are out. Been a sad week …on Monday afternoon a boy my sons age and one this community knows all to well and his family ,was in a car accident do not know the details it’s all under investigation but the car is beyound totaled he was alone driving it and he is not in good condition …stable but severe head trauma and it’s going to be a long road for him and his family . This has shaken me up a bit because this generation of kids just want to be constantly on the go and that means on the road . Oh if I could keep my son in a bubble. As I write this he is out with his friends tonight as of last night and I am trying to not to worry so I’m coloring my fears away well at least trying I finished one page and have started this one. I’ve posted, this one has even more detail then the last one which is a good thing to occupy this over thinking mind and heavy heart.😥

Hmm.. waiting …teenagers!

It’s 10:30 at night and your laying in bed and nothing good is on t.v.  Your waiting for your teenager to arrive home because he is out with his friends but for some reason a good reason you can’t help what is going through your mind.. hmm not good things I will admit … so what do you do to distract yourself  and wait patiently … you play Bubble Pop on your phone. Hahahaha is it working yes more then the flipping through t.v. Channels and reading . Now I’m not saying it works for everyone but for me it helps 🙂 luckily he texted me said he was on his way so hopefully soon. This game is very addicting. I’ve found it awhile ago it helps on occasions like this . Do not try it to get you  to sleep it doesn’t work I’ve tried , …it keeps me up. Well back to playing until my son arrives goodnigh  Everyone.

Nights Thinking… 

The evenings are so much shorter these days as I’m not just talking about it getting darker earlier , it just used to be consumed by early suppers then getting the kids doing and finishing their homework then baths and showers and one tv show and reading time and  then off to bed. Now it’s later suppers and whoever is here to eat what I make and when then earlier settling in bed to watch some shows but now replaced with catching up on them on stream lining NBC the next day because hubby has to get up so much earlier for work so earlier to bed because we are older now and mornings are not good without the proper sleep🙄 how things have changed … oh believe me this is not a rant or complaint just a sad statement to life  and how much it changed in the past couple of years . I’m adjusting it’s a lot more simple  and sometimes less stressful but I’m learning or should say my hubby and I are learning how to relate to our older kids now and our life with eachother again … you will be so surprised if your younger and just starting out with marriage, babies and your reading this and going what ? Believe me now that my kids have grown and we are less needed and the focus is not all on them . You  come to realize how much you and your better half have changed and grown it’s such an amazing thing . I find that we are settled in our own routine and that’s okay and we have our routine as a couple as well it’s so different how we relate now ,this whole new chapter . Waiting to be discovered .   

Laying here thinking…

It’s a Sunday night laying in bed thinking yes I know I should be sleeping. Once again the airconditioner is humming  and to believe it’s Fall … sadly not weather wise . So wish for a crisp cool day enjoying a nice hot cup of pumpkin spice coffee.   Soon … well now another change has serviced my son has now traded his cross country shoes for football cleats .. , yes he is now  playing football as mom sits on the bleachers holding her breath till the game has finished .  What to do but support him . He is stubborn should of known he was not happy with CC this yr . So soon I will post some photos he has to to miss two games since he started later so as of now after this Saturday coming he will start playing A very different school year .. it has been from the get go ,  I’m slowly getting use to my new norm …well maybe ,    I guess I will try to get some sleep  or I will regret it in the morning .Goodnight everyone wish me luck .