Silence…

As your laying in bed and the silence of the house around you is deafening .. as your finishing your prayers . You hear the distant sound of a trains whistle echo through the darkness of the night . It’s a lonely but comforting sound as you pull the covers up settling under them a bit more you drift slowly off to sleep.

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Thinking , ideas …

I started thinking tonight … yes not a good thing. πŸ™„ so I wasn’t going to go all materialistic this Christmas ..BUT! The more I thought about it my mind got me thinking more then I already was..my son wasn’t really going to have any items to open on Christmas for the most part his gifts will be In the form of paying for his Christmas leave flight from an Aunt ,money from his Grandmother since he didn’t give her a list and his focus is on Basic Training at the moment. I was going to do food gift cards and some money ..yes doesn’t sound too bad oh I know. but the more my mind started thinking .. it’s fun to have somethings to open so now for an hour I have been scrolling through site after site trying to come up with some things and well much harder then I thought .. ughh ! But I think I got it .. an electric razor since he took my husbands that he liked so much and I found the same one online . A throw pillow with a hiking mountain scene for his room . Loves decor for it. A single air mattress when he goes camping don’t ask (hahaha ) or a gaming chair ( still deciding ) he’s mention one . Then some gifts cards for gaming to relax his mind and body till he leaves again. And I can wrap the gift cards in a little box . I think that works perfectly . Now to order online this week. Oh then I found a cute cat pillow and a coffee mug for my daughter that I think she will love . She had a list so has presents to unwrap from people. But couldn’t resist the cat pillow. My husband and I will do somethings after Christmas for us a nice date night out at our favorite Pub which will be pleasant . I use to love Christmas when the kids were younger and toys were fun to buy and way cheaper . Then as they got older it began to get harder and more expensive. That it seem more like a chore then fun . So I think this year is more practical mixed in with some fun. Well I at least hope so…. oh now to stop my mind from thinking and tell it to stop.πŸ™‚ I’m am thinking but it’s about thinking of getting some sleep. So I guess since I’ve been online half the night it’s time to get off here so that’s what I’m going to do. Good night everyone!

Writing…

It’s been a simple day . The temperature outside was just bitterly cold ,what sun we had didn’t do to much to warm it up any. I took advantage of it and decided to stay in no running into town needed to be done and thankfully was able to renew my library books online. I did some dusting and a small load of towels easy enough . Spent the day chatting with my daughter as we went about things around the house until she had to leave for work. Yesterday I received two letters in the mail from my Son. I read them once again after my daughter had left for work and the house was quiet . In all the letters he has written he has stated several times how the simple things are what matters the most and family… it’s a funny thing what happens when your phone is taken away and you have a lot of time to think and realize what matters.. Basic training is defiantly an adjustment . I wonder if back in the day before cell phones were created if thinking or thoughts were as deep ? When people went into the service and had time on their hands before it got busy ..now we are all constantly looking at our phones it’s a wonder if we really think of anything of importance as much . It’s going on midnight and I just finish writing a letter back to my son. I must say with each letter I write my handwriting is improving ( hahaha) I’ve been noticing that. Loving this just wish the mail was a bit faster . I guess somethings do not change. Needing to start that journal still deciding on a regular journal for my thoughts or a prayer journal I keep reading about. Another thing to do … well I’m looking at the time and it midnight should call it a day and say my prayers and get some sleep . Started writing late tonight . So now another late night.which is fine .

Another rainy Saturday…

It was long cold day of nothing… well if you want to call it that. I did go food shopping. So that got done but after that it was just Miss Abigail and I . Watching endless movies on HBO as the rain and wind echoed from the outside hitting against the living room window having Miss Abigail And I to look outside. time and time again.And for some reason on this gloomy day HBO seemed to play a lot of heartfelt movies well the ones that I happened to come upon. My husband went to an old childhood friends 50th birthday . I didn’t want to go let’s say the crowd his friend and wife connect with are not ones I want or would connect with .. easily stab you in the back figure of speech , and just can spend the whole day drinking .. okay my day day wasn’t anything special but I didn’t feel like sitting there for 7 hours and just drinking.. My husband came home fine said there was a lot of drinking and he just couldn’t had a few but that was about it.

Now he’s fast asleep and I’m laying here in the dark once again alone with my thoughts…. I wonder if I’m doing something wrong ? I question it. Because there were so many people there drinking having a good time . And I stayed home and yes after awhile I was bored and angry that my husband was having a good time or thinking he was .. but when he came home he said their was just so much drinking and people he couldn’t believe were actually his friends friends because his friend mostly stuck by my husband and two others the whole time. While his wife entertained them basically so I don’t know. I just do not like a crowed especially if I do not connect with them. My friend I talked to while my husband was gone for so long wasn’t thrilled that he was gone the amount of time . Said he should stay home all day and evening and see how it feels. See this is type ofmy friend group people who think that way .. so I don’t know. Maybe I’ve changed now that I’m older and drinking a hole day away is not in me. Hmm I just can’t figure out all this new way of being. Now tomorrow I’ll be home because my son should be able to finally call us from Basic . That I will not want to miss. . If I say he is given that chance . You never know with the Army. Or my son… I guess since it’s going on midnight I should try to get some sleep . Good night everyone.

Quiet house…

It’s Saturday and having this house so quiet is just not right. I am missing the chaos of a active strong will son razzing me , the sound of the back door opening and closing .. even the sound of the blender waking me in the early morning while he made his healthy smoothies. Sadly it’s been only 3 days and it feels like he left weeks ago. Yes can you tell I’m not embracing this new change well? I’m hoping when he can start to call home once a week and we get his address and we can send letters I’ll adjust better. It’s just so hard when I’ve been a stay at home mom and this is what I’ve done for so long take care of my family. The funny thing , well not funny a bit frustrating I think our dryer is gave in and decided to retire ughh … now the funny thing is this would have been a catastrophe on any other day or time but tonight when I realized it and I had to hang the clothes that were not fully dry and know that it could take until Friday to get a new one by the time their open on Monday and then deliver and take away the old one it could be Friday and going to the laundry mat I may then loose it….I think my husband was shocked that I did not loose it when I realize it wasn’t working. I guess there so much more to worry about then this bit of a inconvenience but what can you do . I guess another funny thing I’m yawning .. yes a good thing I will get some sleep then letting everything keep me up worrying .. thinking . I guess it would be a good thing to get off here and get some sleep. Good night everyone.

Running from my thoughts…

It’s been about 17 hours since hearing from my son. At 8 pm when he landed in Missouri he waited for his ride to the base . At 10:30 his time 11:30 ours we texted he thought he would be staying at the Army quarters there for the night being that the Base was 2hrs away. At 11 pm I received a message that he was shipping out to the base so we said somethings to him and then Goodnight thinking it would probably be the last we heard from him until he could do once a week calls.. after my hubby and I having a rough emotional day ,sleep was not easy to come but eventually we manage to fall a asleep . At 3:00 in the morning my phone lit up and the ring was so loud I had had it up . My sons face appeared on it . It was a quick serious voice I’m here and stating he was safe and when he could call he would .. well that made us happy he was safe .. there ..but it triggered my mothering strings .. did he eat , drink enough , why isn’t he sleeping oh yes I could keep going.πŸ™„ my hubby and I eventually settled down to get some sleep I do not believe much we both have been in a fog all day and expecting him to walk through the door at any minute. So much to get use to , it’s quiet , less busy, less razzing one another , I miss his big smile . Supper time and and now evening is the hardest because this is when I’m waiting wondering when he will be home to eat or not . Not wondering .. worrying when he will be home when we go to bed. Okay you got the idea . Just so hard. Miss him. This afternoon I did do some adult coloring that helped .it stopped my thoughts from wondering. For awhile ..

It’s coming along pretty good . I think it will look good after it’s done. I’m happy I was able to get into it today. and now that supper is done and cleaned up a plate saved for my daughter when she gets him from work , chocolate cookie bars just made. I think while chatting with my hubby and watching news I’ll color a bit more . I think it may be a early night for all of us ,my daughter who stated she didn’t sleep well and hoping thinking it will be for my son as well . Will all get the sleep we need . I hope you enjoy my photo of my coloring page . I guess it’s time to finish some more.

Feels like Fall again πŸ™„

Today it felt like Fall the air was fresh crisp and cool .. the sun was out but it was just perfect after finishing things around the house and pulling myself away from the news or I would get more disgusted then I already was .. what’s going on lately in politics is a bit too much . I do not talk politics on social media sites I follow or to anyone but my family my husband , kids , the rest of the family no. So not here on my blog as well …with that said it was a beautiful day my kids off doing their own thing so it was a quiet afternoon I took advantage of the nice weather and enjoyed sometime outside. . Tonight enjoying a hot cup of hot chocolate since it’s a cool night and I’m feeling cold . I enjoyed some adult coloring also while chatting with my husband since the night was as quiet as the afternoon was. Just Miss Abigail roaming around the house making noice. Now hubby is watching some football and I think iI will watch with him and my son who just happened to walk through the door and sat now .. I will take the moment when I can .good night everyone.