I am happy to say I’m getting back into reading again so I started reading in bed before I go to sleep to relax my mind .Its been going good the last couple of days and so tonight I read again and my mind just wouldn’t shut off I’m reading but my mind is actually thinking of other things.. night is when I think so no wonder why I am not a good sleeper …I guess old habits die hard . So I will put the book down and I will just try sleeping wish me luck oh by the way the book is good it’s just not winning over my thoughts tonight and sadly things I shouldn’t be wasting a minute on.
Okay so its not a really nothing to do day hahaha isn’t there always something to do? I was just stating that I had no track meet or food shopping so no where to be or errands to run. …but yes laundry and its about done. and supper will be cooking soon enough. I had a nice morning enjoying my morning coffee with my daughter before she had to go to work so now the house is quiet clean and Miss Abigail is happily sleeping. I have not adult colored in awhile I may try doing that later and watch another episode of 13 Reasons Why. it’s another chilly May day so nothing outside. Mother Nature is just not wanting it to feel like Spring our way she is a bit moody so what else can you do but make the best of it right? at least the flowers are blooming and beautiful. well going to do a few things enjoy your day.
Night time upon us and the chill in the air sends shock waves through my already tired cold body. The sky is as dark as can be the star’s are tucked away in the cloudy sky. Even the woods seem quiet tonight, no scurrying of wild life to be heard. Just a sound of a far away car motor or a whistle of train going by to shake the web’s from your tired mind.. Mother Nature why do you seem upset tonight ?sending this chill our way. Please bring your warmth back please be happy again.
The rain comes pouring down making the night darker then its already is. I shelter my chilled body under the comforts of my blankets waiting for the storm to pass.My thoughts are at bay for now letting my mind feel free to occupy the many blessing I have So I close my eyes and dream of all the goodness around me . Thank you lord.
Darkness surrounds me thoughts invade me . Eyes are tired but body is restless. Time to stop thinking time to stop wondering time to let the quietness calm me and let myself drift like the waves in the ocean but gently into a sleep of dreams ….
I am a happy nice and given person but hurt me or my family you will feel my wrath .
I am strong , stubborn person but can have my moments of weakness in most cases you will not see unless I let you. .. do not underestimate me I can put up a good fight for what I believe in.
I am religious I believe.. I pray but I it’s private and personal for me.
I love to socialize I a can talk to anyone and everyone but my circle is small ..In the past I’ve let in to many and learned so small fits me well.
I live for today and blessed for every new day. I have loved many and lost many too.
I love deeply and hurt easily.
I am simple and live simple I do not ask for much . Drama is not in my vocab.
I only ask or want for happiness and good health for myself and family.
I am ME .
Why do I write? I believe it’s like a runner who loves to run it’s a need a drive . It’s something that your body craves when it discovers it just like how someones mind craves to write words down on paper that the mind wants to express,. and likes the feeling of freedom it gives them . Runners run to also relieve stress and clears their mind, same as it does for a writer . Now the question is WHY do I write? well all that I have stated but it’s more then that I have been writing since I was a teenager I can’t count the amount of Journals I have had and then the endless amount of poems I’ve written thoughts that are in my head. When your a teenager my favorite place to take a notebook and pen and write was an old abandon covered bridge, listening to the walls of the old wood creak as the wind would blow through those warn down walls and the beautiful sound of the the stream was a perfect place. I love the satisfaction of it .After I started a family I got busy with them and writing went to the side a bit. Off and on if I had a moment I would write but not as much as I wanted . I have chronic hip issues and I cannot run to relieve my stress so writing helps a lot and now with my kids growing up my daughter an adult now and my son a teenager and another yr to graduate High school I have the time now and do I need this more then ever.
I started this blog about a yr ago and it’s about my life with my family everyday life going on’s the stresses of having kids teenagers writing about my other interests .To some who read this will probably get board and just pass by it and to some may like it for them thank you. believe me I am not writing this blog for a ton of views yes it would be nice it feels good when I see the likes but my simple little issues are not for everyone and I know that, but at times it does hurt when I do not get a like and I doubt myself and I question everything I wrote…yes my grammar is not up to date. the writing structure needs to be worked on but sadly I just get on here and just write what come out of my thoughts and really do not thing about it. but I do know I love all my followers and appreciate them and me and read my post. I try to as well. So once again a big THANK YOU!