Time…,

Hours minutes seconds , yes time . Time that means nothing to a child . No cares. Freedom is in abundance. Endless days spent enjoying the warm soft grass under your toes. Endless nights chasing fireflies in our hands. Laughing over nothing at all but meant everything to the one you were laughing with. The day was ours.Then life grows busier, for some it’s families . We have responsibilities . And our time is not just ours time matters more . Freedom is not just ours. Kids come and grow years fly by in a blink of an eyeThen here we stand once again we find ourselves back to where we started hours minutes seconds mean nothing once again. Freedom is back in abundance . The days are ours again.

New read and some downtime …

Hi everyone it’s been almost a week of not posting. I’ve been enjoying a new book .Thanks Diane! loving it so much. As well as some downtime .. I think the ac’s running so much this summer has done my sinus’s in.. soon I believe I will need to go to the Dr.’s and get some medication if there is no relieve soon. the past weekend we celebrated my daughters 24th birthday she had a great weekend it started with a Saturday night concert to see the Comeback of the Jonas Brothers. And ended with a beautiful cake on Sunday . And now all the birthdays are done and summer is widening down . Soon my son will be headed to college in about two weeks which I believe it’s time … he needs sone structure and routine and I need some time to myself once again.. Thankfully I have this beautiful book to relax with and focus on. I just hope I can stretch it out till my son leaves .. yes the air in my house is thick… 🙄 and well not feeling well does add to some anxiety .. so I am reading and reading ( hahaha) and did I say reading? To keep my sanity intact … so please bare with me . As I may not not be posting everyday . Until I feel better.

Memorial Day ..not the Same…

Outside my door the winds have calmed the storms have passed ..for now. Settled in last night with my new book . After about 45 mins later I put my book down and shut the light off. It wasn’t that the book wasn’t good it was . I just wanted to lay there in the darkness and watch the flash of the lighting and hear the roll of the thunder . Love nighttime storms. As the storm came through flashing shadows on my wall I laid there taking it in thinking about the Memorial Day weekend approaching .. like everything things change. I know a part of life. Even if I wanted time to to stop it would not ..even for a moment . Even laying there watching the storm was different… my daughter at some friends house . My son tired from work in bed as well as my hubby just I watching it .No kids running into the bedroom or sitting in our living room watching counting between the lightening flashes. Just I … As this Memorial Day approaches this will not be the same as well. Yes they’ll be a cookout ,bonfire on one of the days but less around the fire. but our hearts with them . No friends sleeping over , no sleeping out in a tent and being waken by kids running in as fast as they can to sleep on the living room floor because they heard something in the woods. No movie nights with buckets of popcorn and wide eyed kids as they watched .No just my hubby and I watching a movie , or sitting and watching the stars , taking a ride . As our door swings open and close as my kids come and go from work. I will embrace this change and then the next one and the next one. But for now I will embrace this moment . with a smile on my face and also a tear in my eye.

Peaceful…

One night ago I was thinking about how my daughter and I would take a ride to get a coffee and then sit at a cemetery … yes a cemetery . Odd hmm ..not to us ,especially if we have love ones their. She has been busy with work and friends ,boyfriend , so I would take any moment with her and be happy with that . Thinking maybe that sitting in a cemetery was not something she was comfortable with anymore had crossed my mind as well. Then today she said let’s go grab a coffee I said okay and off we went chatting away as she drove. We grabbed our ice coffees and she said I think I will drive up to the cemetery it’s been so busy haven’t been up there yet this season ( my father in-law is at the one we went to. My mind was blown .. I couldn’t believe how I just thought about this. Sometimes we are so in tune with one another it scares the both of us … So as we drove in a couple pushing a baby carriage were walking around . The sun was out and it was warm . Two beautiful bushes in full bloom of pink flowers greeted us that sat around a sign of the name of the cemetery .The grass was luscious and green the birds were all around you could hear them . We parked and sat There in the car talking , laughing enjoying our coffee . Letting the sun warm down into the car warming us . All respectful this was . There is something about a cemetery whether you drive through , walk through, or just sit and talk ,and reflect and you will find no judgement , no argument , no rush, just stillness peacefulness , a serene feeling. A moment to shut out the world hear nothing but the birds the sound of feet of people passing by with a smile on their face . Feel a slight breeze on your neck or the warmth of the sun . As you sit and talked just as my daughter and I did . I really can’t say how long we sat their , we didn’t look at the time . It didn’t matter. 🙂

Dr. Seuss’s Birthday !

It’s Dr. Seuss’s Birthday ! He wrote so many amazing books a lot of kids enjoyed and still enjoy . My daughter and son had two favorite Dr.Seuss stories .Green eggs and ham and Are you my Mother? Now are you my Mother was written by P.D. Eastman but in with the series of Dr. Seuss my kids love reading them before bed several times over until I had to finally say ok no more lights out. My daughter would be great about it and we would say our goodnight saying ,I posted this In past posts ..something cute she came up with and a bit time consuming but I think that was her point 🙂.My son would just keep saying one more time with reading and I having to get a bit stern and tell him no and tuck him back in after he was standing up in his bed protesting . 🙄 yes my kids so totally different from one another

. I love at their Elementary school they had someone dressed up in a Dr.Seuss costume .I must say why they had a women do it I’ll never know ..hahaha leave it to my daughter to wonder why Dr. Seuss had a chest haha ..yeah she pointed that out … then yes later as my son was older he would say to one of his friends it gives it away for the little kids knowing that it isn’t really Dr.Suess with a chest I would just roll my eyes as I listen to him and his friend talk about it . But I do agree hahaha …anyways it was nice they would read Green eggs and ham as the kids all sat in the lunch room and then there was a big birthday cake and the kids would sing happy birthday .It was cute. I don’t know if they still do it ,it would be a shame if they didn’t but like everything ,.things change ,kids have changed. .well my kids are adults now but they do remember those books and that time which is nice and comforting to know because at that time things seem so much simpler and kids were kids . And it just seems like kids do not read as much as they use to . Now being replaced by cellphones and texting a bit more.Only my opinion …

Changes..

Credits to Pexels photo :Since my son graduated from high school in June , it’s been a crazy time . Summer spent with him doing his thing ,running with friends .. working .. but there was more bonfires and family parties since he would be heading off to Basic training in the fall. The memories of high school already fading . And the new changes starting with now both kids adults and living their life. I started to settle in with the quietness , less of my sons friends being around less of him being around as well as my daughter. More time spent with my hubby , more weekends spent taking a drive getting coffee , watching movies with takeouts with him or quiet moments while he slept on the couch and I actually enjoying a book. . Redoing certain parts of our home repainting .. changing the decor . It was time. So all good with this change . Then yesterday as I drove through town getting my errands done I noticed no one at the school .I need to go by to get to the Post Office, some kids walking through town , then it dawned on me …February vacation even though I have read blog post with the talk of vacation it just didn’t phase me .

First February vacation childless! and just another week for me. Loved Feb Vacation ..kids having sleepovers making sure there was a ton of food (snacks ) in the house, movies the kids would have piled up to watch ,blankets and pillows all laid out on our living room floor in front of the Tv , the Xbox out ready to hookup to the tv , board games , ready, yeah for us it pretty much was staying home and doing things here late nights. oh there was days sledding and even nighttime sledding with the yard lit up ..till they were cold and soaked so hot chocolate for everyone. Then settling in the living room and as my hubby and I laid in bed the sounds of giggling from the girls jumping and laughing from the boys till silents took over ..with them finally falling asleep .It’s a bittersweet thought as I was laying in bed thinking about it ..especially with the house being so quiet and I in bed earlier then midnight if kids were here. This is the moments when life slaps you in the face and you realize how far you come and how much time as gone by… kind of a awakening how fast life really fly’s by.. I miss them but life has to move on keep moving forward.and I guess that’s why the memories we make are so important. So make a lot of them . Enjoy the time …even if there are times the kids have you wanting to scream 🙂 oh I remember those days and can actually laugh because even now with my son being 18 and listening to what his plans are when he gets home in a couple of weeks makes me feel that the screaming , rolling of my eyes time are not over just yet.. the good thing I can walk away if need be and let him figure it out .. hopefully 🙄lol!