Talking away…

 

So tonight I’m sitting in the recliner my husband  laying on the couch watching an oldie but goodie Tx show MASH. ..and he was talking  I  started gabbing away on and on in detail about something funny that happened while he was at work. I get done and I’m laughing and i ask him you didn’t find that funny …nothing he is out cold I’m like what wait noo  he can’t be well okay he can be  he has been al day at work out in the hot sun paving  but he was just taking and wide awake …so I feel stupid hahaha for going on like I did  and Miss Abigail was even sleeping. So I turn my attention back to the t.v. show and out of the corner of my eye he is swaying his foot back and forth and I look he is watching tv again …I’m like did you hear what I was t elling you a bit ago ? He is Like what ? No what did you say ?I’m like omg for another night I don’t feel like explaining  again he was like wow I guess I fell asleep I’m like hmmm yeah .from  now on no big conversations while he is laying on the  couch hahaha. Anyone have this issue with their Better half ? ☺

Awake…

Laying here  in bed darkness surrounds  me ..except for the shadows on the wall from the moon . A train whistle  echos  as it passes through the night. Why is the sound  seem like such a lonely cry? My eyes feel heavy of sleep but my mind is filled with thoughts ..sleep I tell myself tomorrow is another day. Sleep and  dream of pleasant things another train whistle blows and this time gently  persuades  me to sleep.

Weekend..

Hello everyone hope everyone is having a pleasant Sunday after noon. today the temps have dipped down to 38 from 60’s on Saturday that’s  when my daughter I spent the day taking a ride getting Starbucks a cold one and having silly conversations oh yes silly.. people would not understand 🙂 So the Starbucks drink we enjoyed  was a salted caramel brule  latte really good especially if your a caramel lover. Today I am enjoying a dark chocolate hot chocolate as my Husband and I wait for the football game to come on the TV and  enjoy a quiet day except for the sound of the wind blowing which bothers my pups so much it makes him shake and pace around  ,thank goodness he is finally settled down and is sleeping … as well as my husband and Son ..tired guys.

My Son made it to States in X Country for his team with one other teammate on the boys side  the whole girls team made it . So they where thrilled my son didn’t make it past States to go to Nationals but he was okay with that because its his first State in X Country so he gave it his all and now is tired and ready for a break . I am a proud Mom … no matter if he wins or looses he always gives it his all so now he has a  week off  then indoor track starts were he does hurdles. I am already tired for him just thinking about it. It was  a busy weekend so today is a lazy refuel Sunday  well my family is needing me a mothers job never ends  Okay everyone enjoy your Sunday as I will.

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Change….could only wish..

Good Morning I do not like to start my day with negativity but this negativity has followed me for years and on Wed  was brought back to light once again so I should say this is a Thursday throwback  issue. it’s been 19 years that I have been married ..and yes like every marriage we have had are ups and downs and have always gotten through it. Most of the problem is my in-laws not only did I marry my husband I married them ……my parents have been gone for 20 yrs and let me say the ache of missing them is always there but right now the ache is more .So there is no way to put it nicely my Mother and Father in-law are judgemental , rude, selfish and so unfairly stubborn and most part hurtful. They can be nice BUT only if you go along with their way of thinking then things go smooth or smoother and to tell them you cannot talk to them and tell them  how they are being they will not talk to you or should say me for months..yes I cannot do anything right I do not live up to the mother wife THEY believe I should be and sadly they can treat my kids the same way if they don’t have a title so they can brag about them instead of brag about how good of a person they have become . My kid’s know their 20 and 15 and understand .It’s sad how they never had the chance to meet my parents who where the total opposite of my in-laws it’s so sad and unfair how that happens. I have wished for so long that things would change but after an incident on Wed I now know it never will change this is when I wish I could talk to my parents and I know they would have mine and my kid’s back. My Father didn’t care for them and he was right…I would marry them to when I married my husband.My husband knows what his parents are like but their his parents and I know they intimidate him. Such a complicated situation..any ideas anyone ???

Good Morning!!!

It’s Tuesday a quiet morning as I  sit and write and enjoy my cup of coffee.  My husbands back to work   my daughter headed to work and my son still sleeping after is adventurous  weekend in Boston, then off to practice this afternoon for him even though it’s vacation So things are back to a normal routine day, sad how the weekends no matter how long they are , go by so fast. what can we do …it’s  interesting how when my son was gone for those 3 days I slept not good but slept felt so tired like I said in my last post I checked up on him not overly but enough worried a bit but then when he came home yes tired …. and I went to bed knowing everyone was home I could not sleep I was wide awake still  at 1 and tossing and turning. why? it’s so strange how that happens.being a mom is never easy 🙂 well must get things done around my house have great morning everyone and enjoy your coffee.

Sad…sick ughh…

So every virus that is going around that past month has seemed like its living at our house .why?? I have done so well of not getting it but I knew it was only a matter of time . My daughter on medication and having to work .. my son back to school as of today but now in bed at 7:30 exhausted .My husband laying in bed watching TV feeling tired and then I the body aches hot and cold and tired but sadly cannot rest my mind to settle … I am not an easy person when I am sick , I want to keep doing and when I can’t I am not happy. it’s funny though because as I sit hear or lay here on my couch with the laptop I feel my eyes getting heavy and I feel like I could fall asleep..which I tried before I got on here ughhh …..going to be a n endless night. I love how my son when he is sick can just sleep all day ..oh my to be able to do that. my daughter though is like me cant sleep. Its sad because its April and this should be done with we did so well over the winter . I just want to cry.. So if you see me on in the middle of the night rambling on you will know why . Okay time for some tea and see if that works wish me luck.

Just a Mom….

A Mom’s job is 24 ours… never alone in her thoughts ,always thinking of their kid’s well being. I would do anything and everything for my two kid’s and I think I do. If you were to ask my Son that would be a no. … well in his opinion, my Daughter would say other wise she seems to have my back . even when us Mother’s are not feeling well…having an off day etc. we do we always do we get up we pull ourselves  together and we get things done. yes its crazy but we are moms right??? hmmm tonight I am thinking okay have I done to much am I  to easy do I say yes more then  the word no? YES!! I think I do and tonight I am finding this out. My teenager can make me want to pull my hair out. but then he says one thing and My paternal instincts kicks back in and  I am taking care of every need which I know he is capable of ughhhh I am trying to get tougher this is  going to take some time to learn yes and this is with my youngest child. my two kids are like night and day literally My daughter first born was born  at night my Son born at day time. Oldest has dark hair youngest blond  shall I go on they think the total opposite some people wouldn’t believe their siblings. lol….my Son is so good at testing me. then he breaks me when he does this side smile and tries  to make amends and I just want to hug him lol..crazy right?  No…just part of being a mom. Has I read back of what I wrote I wonder 1095c2f31360a8653d70c70116f7f18d om qoutes 1where I am going with this I guess I just needed to vent. right???  Yes because I am a Mom.c1279d3ec458a1321a182fe8000d3743 momqoute2