What a day…

lets see after a night of laying awake because the house kept making random banging popping noises because of the cold . Then awakened by my husband”s sudden movement at 5:30 this morning to find out it was my son leaving for the gym ….hmmm can you say why… I finally fell back to sleep when the front door opened at 8:00 to him getting home and I was up  yawning my way to the coffee pot and inhaling the incredible scent of hot steaming coffee . About an hour later everyone was out the door my hubby off to get an oil change on his truck my daughter and son off to work and some moments to myself as Miss Abigail followed me around the house collecting laundry and cleaning up then there was errands to run and then back home to prepare supper and catch my favorite daytime soapy, The sun is settling and I was happy to catch the beautiful sunset .Now I’m sitting ready to color until everyone gets home, I have the tv on and the movie not the animated version but the one with Jonny Depp”s Alice  In Wonderland is on ..ummm let me just say of all the kid moviess, fairytales this was not one of them I do not even own the animated one. This movie just never set well with me it always just seemed  like such a strange movie it was not one I ever introduced my kids to when they where younger it’s funny though because over the yrs my kids did see it and my daughter shares the same feeling of it as I🙂. I laugh with what she says it represents to her now as an adult I hope no one gets offended but I have to agree it’s like some one is on a bad trip if you know what I mean and they need to come out of it …..hahahaha sadly I agree. Thankfully my hubby just arrived home and news will now take its place . coloring will wait till later must go and check on my supper..  My son just arrived home looking tired and cold and it looks like he is ready to settle in …good night to .Soon the house will be making its noises again the house is starting to feel cold another cold night is once again upon us.image

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Mornings….

Good Morning ! Woke to an empty bed my hubby up early and out hunting , my daughter still sleeping, late night out ughhh hate them makes for a late night for me wondering , need to let go a bit more ….. how? my sons up and I’m trying to catch some time with him before he leaves for work and then whatever he will be doing after that.. in the mean time trying to eat my breakfast and talk and grab things for him because he is running late ..ughh my fork fell into the syrup I swear this poor plate of pancakes has been in 3 different places sense I made them oh don’t you hate when your fork ends up in the syrup and you pick it up and now your fingers are all sticky .. ick nasty feeling , so that’s my morning . The rest of the day will be food shopping , thankfully Christmas shopping is about done . This yr my hubby asked me what do you want he said do not say nothing hahahaha I said actually I do want something he was like really okay tell me I said it’s nothing money can by he looks at me and says I know what it is 🙂 I said I want peace in my head from worrying about things I cannot control . I want a good nights sleep. I want to know I raised my kids right that they have a good happy life after all the over protecting I feel I’ve been as a mother. Yes that’s my list can I have that ? Time will tell .

And it’s Friday..

So it’s Friday night and  I believe I am  so sick of the sound of the air conditioner and my sinuses are as well … been a long week and my head feels a mess  allergies are at an all time high so not helping . My hubby and Miss Abigail  and I watched many reruns of our favorite old show and now settling in bed my hubby is slowly drifting off to sleep after along day in the sun and the kids are off with their friends my son thankfully is staying over his friends house for the night so I won’t have to worry where he is and my daughter will be home when she gets home / I don’t worry as much with her she usually is responsible . So I think I will play my game untill I get tired enough that I can fall asleep with this stuffiness in my head. Yes my addicting game bubble pop 🙂 and yes I’m still stuck on level 36 cannot get passed it day 3 of still trying too. I’m shocked I haven’t given up on the  this because usually I do and find something else to play…..yes inpatient , but this time I am determined to get past this level .i will keep you informed. 

Talking away…

 

So tonight I’m sitting in the recliner my husband  laying on the couch watching an oldie but goodie Tx show MASH. ..and he was talking  I  started gabbing away on and on in detail about something funny that happened while he was at work. I get done and I’m laughing and i ask him you didn’t find that funny …nothing he is out cold I’m like what wait noo  he can’t be well okay he can be  he has been al day at work out in the hot sun paving  but he was just taking and wide awake …so I feel stupid hahaha for going on like I did  and Miss Abigail was even sleeping. So I turn my attention back to the t.v. show and out of the corner of my eye he is swaying his foot back and forth and I look he is watching tv again …I’m like did you hear what I was t elling you a bit ago ? He is Like what ? No what did you say ?I’m like omg for another night I don’t feel like explaining  again he was like wow I guess I fell asleep I’m like hmmm yeah .from  now on no big conversations while he is laying on the  couch hahaha. Anyone have this issue with their Better half ? ☺

Awake…

Laying here  in bed darkness surrounds  me ..except for the shadows on the wall from the moon . A train whistle  echos  as it passes through the night. Why is the sound  seem like such a lonely cry? My eyes feel heavy of sleep but my mind is filled with thoughts ..sleep I tell myself tomorrow is another day. Sleep and  dream of pleasant things another train whistle blows and this time gently  persuades  me to sleep.

Weekend..

Hello everyone hope everyone is having a pleasant Sunday after noon. today the temps have dipped down to 38 from 60’s on Saturday that’s  when my daughter I spent the day taking a ride getting Starbucks a cold one and having silly conversations oh yes silly.. people would not understand 🙂 So the Starbucks drink we enjoyed  was a salted caramel brule  latte really good especially if your a caramel lover. Today I am enjoying a dark chocolate hot chocolate as my Husband and I wait for the football game to come on the TV and  enjoy a quiet day except for the sound of the wind blowing which bothers my pups so much it makes him shake and pace around  ,thank goodness he is finally settled down and is sleeping … as well as my husband and Son ..tired guys.

My Son made it to States in X Country for his team with one other teammate on the boys side  the whole girls team made it . So they where thrilled my son didn’t make it past States to go to Nationals but he was okay with that because its his first State in X Country so he gave it his all and now is tired and ready for a break . I am a proud Mom … no matter if he wins or looses he always gives it his all so now he has a  week off  then indoor track starts were he does hurdles. I am already tired for him just thinking about it. It was  a busy weekend so today is a lazy refuel Sunday  well my family is needing me a mothers job never ends  Okay everyone enjoy your Sunday as I will.

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Change….could only wish..

Good Morning I do not like to start my day with negativity but this negativity has followed me for years and on Wed  was brought back to light once again so I should say this is a Thursday throwback  issue. it’s been 19 years that I have been married ..and yes like every marriage we have had are ups and downs and have always gotten through it. Most of the problem is my in-laws not only did I marry my husband I married them ……my parents have been gone for 20 yrs and let me say the ache of missing them is always there but right now the ache is more .So there is no way to put it nicely my Mother and Father in-law are judgemental , rude, selfish and so unfairly stubborn and most part hurtful. They can be nice BUT only if you go along with their way of thinking then things go smooth or smoother and to tell them you cannot talk to them and tell them  how they are being they will not talk to you or should say me for months..yes I cannot do anything right I do not live up to the mother wife THEY believe I should be and sadly they can treat my kids the same way if they don’t have a title so they can brag about them instead of brag about how good of a person they have become . My kid’s know their 20 and 15 and understand .It’s sad how they never had the chance to meet my parents who where the total opposite of my in-laws it’s so sad and unfair how that happens. I have wished for so long that things would change but after an incident on Wed I now know it never will change this is when I wish I could talk to my parents and I know they would have mine and my kid’s back. My Father didn’t care for them and he was right…I would marry them to when I married my husband.My husband knows what his parents are like but their his parents and I know they intimidate him. Such a complicated situation..any ideas anyone ???