It 10:30 at night and my hubby needs to sleep The last couple of nights Ive had the light on reading and I feel bad to do this to him again. I could go in our living room but I’m nice and cozy in bed and so should I go to bed as well but this moon is not helping it’s almost full . I’ve decided I would play Bubble POP till my eyes get heavy enough to go to sleep …will see how this goes. Wish me luck 🙂
it’s Monday a fresh new week to get back into a routine ,a full week of school, sports meet warmer temps no big storms insight sadly my daughter is still out of work due to illness but hoping she feels some improvement when she wakes up. Laundry is going beds are made kitchen is cleaned up after breakfast . I am now sitting down catching up on the morning news and enjoying a cup of coffee ahhh so nice. I’ve started the book I posted and started a new coloring page over the weekend which kept me busy and warm
. I am going to pat myself on the back , if you read my last post I wrote how my son was out with his girlfriend and I was NOT going to text him to have him check in. or worry and I didn’t well I didn’t text. I wouldn’t say I worried but hoped he drove slow and careful on his way home. I got into the Golden Globes with my hubby and didn’t realize my son had texted me ….it wasn’t that long until I noticed but it hopefully showed him was waiting with my phone in hand . He texted “on my way home. ” I do not know who was more surprised 🙂him for checking his phone and seeing no text from me or I seeing his text .. before I knew it he was walking in the door he talked a little bit and I tried not to do the twenty questions just how was Mary ? Did you have a good time? And after that he said goodnight and was off to bed. Now to keep this going oh am I trying….so hard when I’ve been by their side from day one through their first cut to their first everything to their first letting goesI can’t tell you what is the hardest part their first cut or letting go ….maybe letting go because it’s i that is now hurting not with them but just I because this is what I’ve known for so long .. my daughter is so different we have always been close and we are friends as well . With my son it just feels so different. I know boys let go differently then girls but this is ……different 😥 no hand book in the world could of warned me how this would feel. I’m am trying and I will keep doing this. Everyone tells me go out with friends do things with your husband I am but we are not big go to the movies we like watching them when they come out and we can cozy up at home and watch them . We have always been homebodies .. before kids we out dinking and dancing on the weekends but now that doesn’t hold an interest . We have spent nights out at relatives and enjoyed some drinks food laughs more that has been nice just need more idea s but for now it’s Home Movies going out for coffee dinner I guess we are heading in the right direction .. but it just feels different .
weekends why do they have to go by so fast. It was nice not having any set plans just whatever came up or didn’t was nice most of the weekend was pretty much spent inside keeping warm and for the most part we all where at home,my daughter is sick and has a notice to stay out of work for several days so she laid around and read and watched movies with me and slept my poor daughter winter is not her friend she gets sick so much during this time ,we both believe she should of had her tonsils out but everyone she saw said no there fine and now she gets the worst sore throats .I think this time around we may have to push it more but now she is older and risk factor is not good . We will have to talk to the doctors about this more. My son was in and out when he was out he came home earlier and then spent it in his room .life of a teenager. No work for him on saturday was scheduled for night skiing instructor but they closed due of the wind chill then today he was not schedule , now he is at his girlfriends and I’m trying to not worry and check in with him there is school tomorrow so he will be home at a decent time. It’s just where his girlfriend lives is not an easy drive . But can’t think about it. Nope ….not coloring watching The Golden Globe Awards with my hubby and my daughter . All in black tonight the actresses and actors for sexual harassment awareness . A topic I won’t get started with but yes applauding them wearing their black. Im hoping he is home soon… Okay I know don’t think about it 😞 One track mind sorry…. .
I’m trying I really am but the mother in me and my mouth opens and once again I’ve failed…. on New Years I didn’t make a resolution but a try to do better kind of thing, I was going to try to worry less try to not be the overprotective mother and well I failed that more then once this weekend and it’s only Saturday night. Uggg … Friday he went to the gym and it was getting past the time they close I texted him ….(my son) I should know by now that when he is warming his car up he is checking his messages if I waited just a bit longer he would of been home and that would of been that . Instead I got why are you texting me it’s not late … and attitude it was. Then just now because he is actually home tonight I drilled him where all his friends where and what they where doing and he looked at me like I had three eyes🙄 he said you question when I go out and now you question when I’m home ? I know I was that roll eye pout face teenager so why can’t I learn. I need to shut my mouth 😫
Oh where did the summers go when the things we worried about was too much sun ,not enough water , over tired kids . how to get them inside for the night and a sad child because their popsicle melted faster then they could eat it. Replaced with worrying where your kids are ,not home by curfew .. or their not where they said they would be , insecurities if not trusting a friend , your teenager sad and playing sad depressing songs over and over after a breakup. Trying to find an answer to their why’s and it’s unfair .. then we get even more complicated with teenagers hosting parties and you find out your teenager is there because you get a 1 in the morning phone call saying you need to pick me up because there not at a sleepover…. and the party just got busted and the police are asking you to come pick your child up and their car as well . And you want to be angry at them but at the same time you just want to get them home safe and the lecturing will have to wait till morning but you cant sleep because there is so much you need to say and if your lucky they will listen . Then if you have a soon to be 22 yr old daughter who does not know what to do with her boyfriend she is unhappy with and is easy for you to say then end the relationship. But they have 10 reasons why thier unsure of , yes is your head spinning mine is . and then she is trying to save and work more which we know work and making the money to move out is a challenge in it’s self this day in age and she has a good head on her shoulder and is frustrated because she is trying but it is taking more time then she thought. Yes the challenges just as the teenage parties are .. yes some did some didn’t but this generation is parting even more and more young adults are still living at home and how did your teenager get ahold of half the alcohol is beyond me . My Son is a great kid has good friends they all have jobs and athletics and good grades but pressures yes a lot of pressures peer pressure which is at an all time high as well in this age. but do not get me started that is a subject for another day but I believe it is part of the problem and they just can’t get it that this is not a good thing of what thier doing and let me just say my husband and I’ are holding our breaths for school to start 3 more weeks and school will be here and it’s going to be the longest 3 weeks of our lives . So like my title to this post says the challenges …this has been an eye opening summer wish I could find a solution to all if these challenges yes I know learning experience but these days it’s just not a safe answer .
Another evening settling in bed where the air conditioner feels the best yes another extremely hot day and night so TV it is and after I believe I will read my book and wait for my son to arrive home from work hmm this will be interesting will he be in a good mood or bad ..you never know with teenagers. I am proud of myself , last night my son went out with friends and gf for a bite to eat, about an hr or so later he texted me now at the movies so I held my breath and typed okay have fun remember curfew . Ok this was hard because I held back the 20 questions he calls being drilled well I didn’t and let me tell you I fell asleep for once before he arrived home of course my ringer volume was on the highest incase he called or texted , I do not think my hubby was thrilled when my twitter or Facebook notifications went off throughout the night ….whoops 🙂 of course guess who it didn’t wake up ? ME! I did wake up randomly at 3 and saw that the outdoor light was off so at least he was home hahaha
Morning came and I was enjoying my morning cup of coffee my son woke looked at me with wonder I had to laugh inside a bit because I think he was in shock oh I patted myself on the back so to speak for holding back . Oh I’m trying and trying hard to trust and let give a bit of this chain called over protected mother . I will keep you posted how well I can keep this up .