So it’s a quiet night no friends just the Fam and we are all settled in the only sound I hear is the humming of the air conditioner and for the moment my husband snoring softly…hmm this may get a bit noiser . My son is still recovering from Saturday’s Spartan race thought he could try practice after school because he told us it felt better to keep moving then sitting is legs tighten up sitting . Well he came home and was walking like a mummy once again so I believe he over did it…. always never does anything half way all or nothing. So he ate and showered and at 7:30 was in bed for the night. My daughter has just arrived home from work so just before her coming home we heard this noise yes always noises with us…but it was like a rumble or rolling something around kind of noise so my husband said oh I believe he’s up im telling him no when our son goes to bed that’s exactly what he does. So my poor husband starts walking through the house , went down to my daughters downstairs back into check our son …nothing but still noise so he went outside comes in whips open the bedroom window says listen we waited and I heard it in the distance, it sounded like a grand finale of fireworks but where and why ? It’s a Tuesday night .. so strange my husband was just happy I heard it and he figured it out instead of thinking he was loosing his mind hahaha but anyways so strange why? … always something .
Good Morning soon I hope we can get back in to a some what routine with having Monday off and a short week and now the talk of the country fair coming this weekend it’s just one more thing to keep my son running and not getting serious about this school yr. I know Senior yr need to have fun but hmm need some seriousness as well in the mix. I must say my daughters kitty Miss Abigail is so wise if the back outside light is on she will sit in front of the door like okay when are they coming home she know if that light is on not everyone is home so she will not settle . When it’s off you will find her sleeping happy on the couch if my daughter has not gone downstairs to her place for the night. See animals like routine too🙂
So last night we all settled in early for bed early morning now that school is starting . I was laying there trying to get comfortable my allergies have been horrible so was sneezing a lot and my husband was snoring hahaha well all of a sudden he looks up and from our bed you can open the door to our hallway it’s a ranch style . Any how he is just staring down the hall and we have a night light plugged into the hall wall so you can see pretty good , I ask him what’s wrong he says I thought I heard someone come through the kitchen door and shut it …I’m like no I’m awake saw nothing and I have the fan in my ear but I would think I could hear that .I told him maybe you dreamed it. He was like yeah it was just so real the sound. So we settle back down and about 5mins later yes I’m still awake .. I thought I heard someone walking down the hall and in the kitchen now at this point he kept the bedroom door open and I can see straight down and no one… my sons door was still close no one in the bathroom door open light off yes some what of a small house🙂 and basement door is closed so my daughter didn’t come up . So now I’m spooked ..so I get under my blankets a bit more thinking my husband started this and now I’m imagining this. So now it’s about 11.30 at night and I m laying there and when anyone walks by the night light it sends like a pause of light into my room well what do you know….yes this happened and no one walked by… well after all that I talked myself into it being that our minds playing are playing tricks on us .(.it has been a long sad couple of weeks ), I finally fell asleep . This morning my daughter wakes up and comes up and says who was walking around so much at I don’t know around 11 or 12 okay my face just dropped she was like no one was right? I’m like no ..hmmm … she was like okay I got a chill up my spine . Yes a crazy night of events and I believe in some things like spirites and so on but my husband not as easy well he comes home from work and looks at me and says last night was weird so he was still thinking about it. please can some one explain this …. what do you think ? So spooked right now .
So in this past month these two words have been brought to my attention .. I have heard don’t over think this….your over thinking ..hmm okay so I looked up what over thinking meant and okay I am an over thinker …okay I guess I have to agree to this and I have found that yes I always have been but in not as excessive as I am now and in the past it worked for me and helped me but now I’m finding it’s making me more anxious and making me feel just plain miserable and I have to agree with what I read about it is I t can give you the since of the worst scenario and well it is which is not good so I think I’m going to try to stop over thinking if possible and let things go to a point. Okay yes easier said and done I am a thinker… but I just don’t know when it got to this point of making me feel horrible. .. any suggestions anyone ?
Once again it’s night time and iI lay here cursing to myself because the tiredness I felt earlier has disappeared ….why? Please I do not want another night of not falling to sleep till 3 . Everyone is home and settled in it’s a damp cool night no moon shining so I’m hoping I will get some decent sleep. This summer has been one for the books to forget about . Ready for the next season to be better .. positive . Well here is to some sleep?
Good Morning ! Sitting here on my couch coffee in hand and imensly enjoying it . I’m watching tv and it’s the Today show and they stated what happen to personal choice oh my yes!!! That’s it what happened … I find myself fighting this more and more everyday now that time is becoming my time. We have raised our daughter our youngest is about to be 17 a senior and I’ think my better half and I have done well or as well as can be . So now I and my hubby can do and go wherever but you know what I honestly don’t want to …. fior myself give me a good book to read a notebook , computer to write , or the stars at night and my comfy deck to enjoy them ,my bed or couch with a warm cozy blanket and a movie or favorite show on a cold winter night and I’m happy why when I’ve done my house cleaning and watched my sons track meets and enjoyedmy daughters chats with a cup of tea or coffee and my hubby and I talk all the time take rides watched tv together be enough? Especially after a long day at work Why do I feel guilty why do I feel like we should be doing more why do I feel I have to justify this why do I compare when I honestly know I am happy with this my hubby is as well but why ? A question I ‘m struggling with a lot this year. As society made us feel we have to constantly be doing , going somewhere. Comparing ourselves with others Or is it me ? Any answers anyone? Would love some help on this.
I am happy to say I’m getting back into reading again so I started reading in bed before I go to sleep to relax my mind .Its been going good the last couple of days and so tonight I read again and my mind just wouldn’t shut off I’m reading but my mind is actually thinking of other things.. night is when I think so no wonder why I am not a good sleeper …I guess old habits die hard . So I will put the book down and I will just try sleeping wish me luck oh by the way the book is good it’s just not winning over my thoughts tonight and sadly things I shouldn’t be wasting a minute on.