What is it about thinkers ? Our minds are either calm or racing with thoughts so deep you feel them through your body right into your soul. The thoughts run endlessly through our minds . Words spoken from someone whether there meant to to teach us a lesson or just said we can take them to the extreme and feel it in so many ways . We can replay them over and over in our minds trying to explain to ourselves what it means. Breaking the words into tiny little pieces and then like a puzzle putting them back together again to understand. Oh the mind of a thinker is so exhausting. When someone hurts we think about it and tend to feel hurt with them . Along with thinkers I believe we tend to feel more emotions then others and at times it’s draining . Sadly I love very deeply and once I love there is no end to it. so these qualities are hard to handle at times ..Sometimes it feels like so much weight on your shoulders but honestly it’s in your head. This weight we carry. I try and I try but my thoughts are endless as the ocean and no stopping the endless waves that come crashing in.
I am an insomniac by nature.. never needed a great amount of sleep.growing up I loved the night time. When my kids were younger I slept better . Running after kids all day long can do that to you. And now with my kids becoming adults I am on a whole new routine no more early nights early mornings.now replaced with late nights to late mornings
Last night was a sleepless night . Tossing and turning , I guess having a headache when I went to bed didn’t help. I kept telling myself I can sleep in the morning. Let’s say that didn’t happen . My phone that was on my bedside table kept buzzing the charger for it needs to be replaced and soon . So at 5 this morning I hear it making a louder buzzing noise I take look at it and notice that my phone says no service . I looked twice to make sure I was seeing it clearly …yep no service . The problem is it’s 5 in the morning hubby left for work early . I thought please let it be my phone that is the only one not working. Nope my sons phone wasn’t working as well. I thought it was strange knowing my hubby went to work with a dead phone so I tried calling it just to see and he answered let me State he has no WiFi so his phone is fine…okay cut a long story short the cell towers were both down in our area. Now it’s 5 in the morning after really no sleep and I try to lay back down to get a couple of hours … wasn’t happening. Just couldn’t settle. It’s been a long day walking around with a foggy head. . I did this evening as I was rocking in my chair love to rock it relaxes me . I rocked myself to sleep , (hahaha) I can’t say how long I was out I’m guessing only a half an hour. so much for a bit more sleep Oh I handled sleepless night so much better when I was younger. I hope it’s not going to be another long night tonight . The evening getting darker earlier hopefully will help me settle earlier. Will see. I find this a bit funny reading this post back to myself that I wrote so much on not sleeping.. I must be exhausted.🙄
Sitting under my tree , happy place today deck needing more work then we expected… the sun is out and there is a beautiful breeze . A quiet day . My daughter is headed to work. My son coming home this evening after an over night orientation at the college he will be attending this Fall. That said I am taking in a moment and doing nothing … as I sit here my mind keeps reflecting back to a mystery this past week .. as You know if your a regular follower or just reading my post . I live in a peaceful quiet wooded area in the country where our driveway is more of a country road . So trees surrounding our home , during the day all you hear is the wind , the birds, and the comings and goings of my kids and their friends. So this was a surprise when I open my kitchen door this past week and found this beautiful item
Outside the door laying on the railing. I asked my son who was just arriving home from his morning run if he had placed it there ?he replied no asking if maybe dad had found it and put it there before work . Puzzled I sent my husband a picture and asked . He replied several minutes later no he didn’t and that he had never seen it before. And thought maybe our daughter. When my daughter woke I asked her and the same reply no not me. Okay now I was really in dismay …. relatives never just show up out here so I didn’t think it was any of them but I called around anyways and same reply no I did not. It’s been a week and this butterfly sits in my planter within my flowers . And there is no answers to where or how his came upon our door step . Do I find it beautiful ? Yes . .. does it make me wonder where this came from ? Yes.. does it bother me this un known mystery yes.. what do you think a message perhaps a sign ? I would love to know .
After a day spent with my daughter in Town getting things she needed , I needed , so in and out of the car wandering stores . Passing by people , rushing to get out of peoples way🙄 we got back to the car and headed home . We talked about how busy it was in the store and how rushed we felt when really we were not rushing .. we were taking our time looking at items , grabbing things . BUT it was the people around us . With the looks , the rude your in my way tone in their voice when they said excuse me and we were not even in their way just near them. Or I’m sorry if I wasn’t fast pace walking with the carriage because I can’t . But keeping aware of people around to move out of their way when I needed to. Then I hear a sigh of frustration whoops one minute I didn’t realize a person behind me I moved out of the way even though the isle was big enough for the both of us . I said oh I’m sorry and the person just looked at me and walked by . Yes I do not know what kind of day this person may or maybe having . But it’s just becoming more and more like this. Right then I knew I was done. Once in the car I told my daughter . She said yes she had noticed and knows how people are .she works in retail and sees it everyday . Well this wasn’t the main topic of this post but it’s just all part of what things have become . Here is the part that I thought was appalling.
I’m home now and my hubby and I are watching the nightly news and one of the headlines was handshaking . I guess handshaking could become the thing of the past before we know it. I believe amount of people are now wanting to ban this gesture. It’s not sanitary .. okay I get this to a point but to have a ban on it .. human touch is something that makes this world seem bearable . A shake of a hand can show respect . Acknowledgment , or I’m sorry , it’s the emotion in the strength of it. Yes if you can’t shake then politely refrain from it but to ban this or even the thought to question banning this is so sad. Sometimes it’s saddens me what and how we have become . Well for the most part , not all.. I’m saying just in general. It’s a scary thought what new life being brought into this world will be brought up with . It’s a thought I find myself thinking about more often. And knowing I will not be that person .
It’s 10:00 at night and just posting for the day. Laying in bed with my electric blanket on low .. yes you read right….. my electric blanket. Woke to 61 out all the windows open and at 1 in the afternoon the winds picked up and some rain then sunshine the rest of the day but temps dropping to the 40’s by 3 in the late afternoon. Walked around shutting windows and cursing to myself why .. I was already in a mood so the cold temps hitting my body was another shock to my system …not helping my body feel any better.
Anyways this was my Monday. Waking up at 7:30 jumping into the shower. After already being woken up at 5 in the morning to a sound of a bang like something crashing down onto the floor. But not realizing it until I woke back up at 7:30 finding that it was a photo in a frame that fell off the window sill and I really do not know why there was no wind at the time unless Miss Abigail found her way in to my bedroom. After my shower my son had woke too as my daughter was getting ready for work . Hubby already out the door . My son and I had coffee and waited for the starting of the Boston Marathon. We chatted as we watched . Then towards the end of the race he headed to the gym and I put a ham in to cook for supper. Well the clouds came in and it got dark the wind started to roar I looked at Miss Abigail who was laying on the floor in front of me as I prepared the ham to cook . She kept meowing at me when I told her we were not in Kansas anymore .. being silly with her since the looks of the outside scared me a bit 🙄I think it unsettled her a bit too because she kept randomly meowing. . After my daytime show came on I grabbed another cup of coffee to warm my hands… I think tea would have been a better choice but there was still some coffee left so why not. Half way through my show breaking news cut in . The Notre Dame Cathedral was on fire . I watched in horror . How ? Why? Oh my it’s Holy Week … yes my mind works in mysterious ways. My son came home from the gym and saw I was watching it and said he had heard and sat watching it with me . Such a beautiful place .. gone . It was sad watching. So my heart breaks for France tonight. So many people watching it and their reactions were so sad. The news ended my son napped on the couch and I did a few things to keep my body from stiffening up from the change in temps. My son will start a job on Thurs at a local restaurant delivering takeouts and waiting on tables this will be Thurs through Sunday .mid afternoon till 10 at night until he finds something else . Unless he likes it and it’s worth the pay . Will see. My ham turned out good everyone was home to enjoy it. And now my son is out for a bit and my daughter relaxing down in her place. It was a strange kind of day the frame randomly falling, the sad news in France . everyone home to eat my supper yes strange and then this cold weather .. ahh what a Monday it was .. well time to get some sleep , hopefully my son isn’t too late. Good night.
Good Morning! If you read my last post …. you will understand ,for those who have , well omg ! Still getting notifications on my Facebook and I just realized my son is tagged in it and I did not tag him, so now it’s most likely on his wall as well and when he turns on his phone in which case he already did this morning because I received a message from him saying “Have a good day”! So 1. He didn’t get the notifications so he didn’t see my stupidity or 2. He was okay with it… I’m thinking he’s okay with it or I wouldn’t have received such a message (hahaha) and him not noticing is not likely …then If you notice on my photo I put up the handle of the coffee mug is facing left .. oh my OCD it needs to be facing the right 🙄 I know such a little thing … but it will bother me …I think I should enjoy the rest of my coffee and finish my breakfast then get somethings done around here. The wind is picking up and making a roaring sound , not liking it and it’s only 2 here so I’m thinking charge phone and get supper prepped just Incase we loose power .. I know I should not have said that… okay have a great day!