Sigh …day 2

So it’s the day after I wrote my post of a not so good day with my new/used car purchase . So like I wrote in my post on Wed The car was told to come back because things had not been serviced on it and probably should of never left their lot.

It’s Thursday and at 9:30 in the morning after a very long restless night and wake up call from a roaring wind that sounded as angry as I felt at that moment. So I grabbed some coffee and started  getting somethings done that consist of using electricity because I worried we could loose it . the phone rang and it was the car dealer , the service guy sounded up beat well of course he did .. and told me that my car was all set and yes it had some issues that  where fixed  now minor as of yesterday(read Tues post) Today not…. and everything he stated now proves to me if I had known at least one of those issues I would of walked out the door. okay of course they do not tell you but rules where broken and lies where said and they wanted this car gone and I am now even more  mad because my son drove that car in the past two days while his  car was getting some things done and I felt his car wasn’t safe …oh my… my new car was the one that really wasn’t safe. so they where not happy that I was not happy about the work they did and I told them I’m sorry but how can I possibly be happy. so with this  this wind I told them I was not driving in it  with their  car they loan to me and and I feel uncomfortable driving it, he understood hesitantly  and  told me  tomorrow would be fine. I am hoping when I do get  there do  I  can get a moment to speak to their manager and ask him or her if she knew about this and that  I hope this is not how they do all their business  because if my son , daughter myself  who drove that car with the unsafe issues  had had an accident they would not be happy for what they would be in for. I just hope some other family isn’t driving one of their  unserviced  vehicles..

Sigh….what day

Well what a day I had…. lets put it this way when your daughters cat is happily sitting by the window watching the leaves scatter around by the wind and you envy her for such a simple life …I am either crazy or heading that way…. sigh… So last week I bought a new/used car and for some reason I just didn’t feel right about it but the price was right with our budget and lucky they even financed it because I’m /we already have a truck loan and mortgage etc ….plus my son needed a car so I gave him my very old one ..which sadly is on it’s last leg . One the color I dislike it it’s white and I have a long dirt driveway.Then it started  to sound funny a loud humming noise from the back..so I said it’s me just stop well this morning the car dealer calls and tells me that I need to bring the car back because well they just do not know how it happened but it didn’t fully get serviced like there suppose to and they told me it did the day I bought it and that there was some minor issues on it to be fixed and they never got to it does not make sense to me. and  hmm minor yeah how about the loud noise ? He was like oh I don’t know about that.I lost it the short 4’11 nice women I was and look like that day of the sale turned into a let’s say when a mother bear thinks her cubs are in danger and she needs to defends them you do not want to stick around hahahaha so I said well I know. It sounds like my car is a jet coming into a landing when your doing 60 on the highway and then at 30 mph a jet taking off . So my car was never suppose to have left the lot or actually probably not to  be sold yet and I am  locked into a 4 yr loan which actually trying to research my rights if any which I hope I do. …and at the moment a rent a car at their expense is sitting in my driveway and sadly like that a whole lot better .So it has not been a good day I should of went with my instinct I want to kick myself for not doing so  . this is not me to go against it but I was trying to throw caution to the wind because I am known to over think but my instinct that I should of never ignored. their  going to go through it but will see I am going to demand another car . or some kind of proof that they went through it in which case they had said they did  before.will see that I will have to get back to you on.

Why I ask why..and no I am not feeling sorry for myself just upset. why does these things happen to me I try to be a nice person I do not ask for much just only what I need . I put my guard down for one second  and this happens I told the guy you saw sucker written across my for head . .he kept apologizing and and saying he couldn’t believe this happened ..but I do some people just do not care… well let me just say I think they where shocked of the person they saw today. One think I am not is weak or a sucker I am a nice person trying my hardest to be the person my kid s can look up to.  and I try to believe that not everyone is dishonest but this thought is fading fast.So Happy National Women’s Day to  me ….not okay maybe that was uncalled for  but it was just a very frustrating day and I am a women and I just feel sense I didn’t have my husband holding my hand buying this I was taken advantage of just a bad day for this to fall on. Well that felt good to let out  hahaha.

Me…. MOM Crazy Not!!

 

So today we had one of our 1st biggest snow storms of this season. I was so happy my daughter already had the day off from work so no worries for her or me. My teenage Son has been constantly been in and out our door since  Christmas Vacation started which that  has been 7 days now so I figured okay here is  a big storm coming he will stay home,  well lets see that did not happened ….he is snowboarding with his friends at our local ski resort. Oh believe me I told him no or will see, well he named every kid that would be there and their parents where fine with it .So now I will look like the bad parent well usually that does not bother me …..but his big plus was I have a ride to and home so you don’t have to go out. Yes a nice thing but will I worry  yes will I be checking social media that there are no accidents yes..will I be jumping every time my phone rings yes . I’m telling you when I signed up for this parenting thing worry seemed like the last thing on my mind…hmm how did that happen? I was to busy thinking of the cute outfits the fun things to do play dates but worry NO ..sadly here it is worry I think he loves seeing my hair turn grey  everyday. My daughter didn’t  put me through half of this worry and being 21 and living at home in the furnished basement she calls me texts me if she is going to be late or not coming straight home. I tell her I appreciate this but she doesn’t have to always check in but she says but “Mom I don’t want you to worry. now if my son would or could do that ahhh I would be so happy.  Now I sit it’s 7:30 and I told him you have them bring you straight home when this ends at 9 we will see I know at 9 my panic will kick in . the life of parenting .

 

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Thoughts….

I wake up to a sunny but cold day. My thoughts feel all over the place is it the full moon? I just want to feel  like Myself again.. but I feel like that person is is gone when you went away and I found who was by my side to help me through sad when you find how low  the number is of people you thought you had . Bitter sad anger all comes to mind but then am I to blame for this for believing I could trust any of you. . so I’m going to guard my heart do what I need to do for me and yes I am going to be selfish isn’t that what all of you are?

Good Morning!

Good Morning siting enjoying my cup of coffee and the sound of the birds outside my living room window the sun is shining and it’s a beautiful morning… sadly my heart is heavy, our little town as witness  so much grieve in this past year is just so unbelievable and we all ask why? but there are just no answers. life can be so harsh its  just unfair a young family in our town as suffered a horrible loss their daughter of the age of 9yrs old was killed while getting off her school bus this past Friday …do not have all the details but something on her got caught in the bus door and the bus driver did not realize she was caught and drove off her poor dad I believe witnessed it and tried to stop the bus but that did not happen…..the rest is too much to explain. I cant imagine . Why I ask once again …Being a parent Is I believe one of the hardest thing to be and it doesn’t get any easy easier as they get older there are new worries and you just want to keep them in a bubble sadly that is not possible . We need to remember  that life is a gift and we cannot take anything for granted and do are best to make each day count so pleases everyone count your blessings everyday.

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Heartbreaking…..

This past weekend is not been a happy one . i just want to say my heart breaks for two sad things that happened one Christina Grimmie  her life taken so young, unexpectedly and unfair by one man for only god knows why took her away and once again with a gun ….this is just so unbelievable . So my thoughts and prayers go out to her family.

My heartbreaks also for all the victims survivors and their families of the Orlando shooting this is unbelievable how many lives were taken away and innocent loving people just out at a night club dancing happy just loving one another and life and in one minute is taken away so unfair let us  NEVER forget them forever they will be in our hearts. I know mine they will be . We need to spread love and not hate life is such a gift but when taken away unfairly because one person has so much hate in them it’s hard not to be angry but that just keeps hate fueling we need to put this flame out and take steps to watch our surrounding and report if we see something not right but love, love everyone and live and spread happiness this is what we can do for the ones that have been taken away to keep their memory alive. Everyone lets try to make this life better again and banish as much hate as we can and stay safe.

Society…what happened?

I am appalled by society …morals.. the path this generation is heading in no respect for life.. authority .Why I ask ? I do not like to write about what happens on T.V  the news but this one incident I have heard over and over because reporters and just people in general can’t understand the verdict on  the the Stanford rape case what happened 6 months that is it we all know there is something clearly wrong with this young man , ok so he is a star athlete oh so that exempts him from bad behavior and justice  bad enough he is going to miss his swimming meets well….lets see what about the poor young girl that he raped and had not a clue what happened yes she was drunk passed out but this had nothing to do with him,,,she had a right to drink yes too much but she didn’t break any  law. it scares me where the justice system is heading.this could be anyone of our daughters and yes our sons and if that was the case  I would be seriously upset but  wouldn’t have condoned it …My son is 15 soon to be 16 and is so against how some of the kids at his school how they party  every chance they get and go through girls like a new pair a shoes he doesn’t understand why these guys in his words can be such slimes.. and the girls just keep going back. I am  proud of my Son and thankful he has respect. My daughter was telling me about  a girl she works with  and the girl would love to hang out with my daughter and other girls after work but her boyfriend does not like or let’s her hang out with anyone she as anxiety and believes that its caused by her boyfriend because she takes medication for and it  doesn’t work she told my daughter her doctor thinks she would feel better if she leaves him sad thing is I do not believe she will she states to my daughter its not physical abuse but verbal .I believe abuse is abuse and she told my daughter she his hanging out with a girl after work by telling him she is working late now tell me she is not scared of him I told my daughter to stay out of it because if she could be in danger the girl whoever she hangs out with could possibly be too if and when he finds out. I feel bad for this young women but need to keep my daughter safe,  its sad that I have doubt that if she tried to break up with him it could get messy…it’s sad when my daughter had told me when he graduated this past month he did not want to walk or be in the ceremony because he just did not want to his school let him just pick up his diploma the next day.Sounds to me this young man doesn’t  like authority .What have we become . life as rules way past the years of parenting what are we to do.