Society…what happened?

I am appalled by society …morals.. the path this generation is heading in no respect for life.. authority .Why I ask ? I do not like to write about what happens on T.V  the news but this one incident I have heard over and over because reporters and just people in general can’t understand the verdict on  the the Stanford rape case what happened 6 months that is it we all know there is something clearly wrong with this young man , ok so he is a star athlete oh so that exempts him from bad behavior and justice  bad enough he is going to miss his swimming meets well….lets see what about the poor young girl that he raped and had not a clue what happened yes she was drunk passed out but this had nothing to do with him,,,she had a right to drink yes too much but she didn’t break any  law. it scares me where the justice system is heading.this could be anyone of our daughters and yes our sons and if that was the case  I would be seriously upset but  wouldn’t have condoned it …My son is 15 soon to be 16 and is so against how some of the kids at his school how they party  every chance they get and go through girls like a new pair a shoes he doesn’t understand why these guys in his words can be such slimes.. and the girls just keep going back. I am  proud of my Son and thankful he has respect. My daughter was telling me about  a girl she works with  and the girl would love to hang out with my daughter and other girls after work but her boyfriend does not like or let’s her hang out with anyone she as anxiety and believes that its caused by her boyfriend because she takes medication for and it  doesn’t work she told my daughter her doctor thinks she would feel better if she leaves him sad thing is I do not believe she will she states to my daughter its not physical abuse but verbal .I believe abuse is abuse and she told my daughter she his hanging out with a girl after work by telling him she is working late now tell me she is not scared of him I told my daughter to stay out of it because if she could be in danger the girl whoever she hangs out with could possibly be too if and when he finds out. I feel bad for this young women but need to keep my daughter safe,  its sad that I have doubt that if she tried to break up with him it could get messy…it’s sad when my daughter had told me when he graduated this past month he did not want to walk or be in the ceremony because he just did not want to his school let him just pick up his diploma the next day.Sounds to me this young man doesn’t  like authority .What have we become . life as rules way past the years of parenting what are we to do.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Change….could only wish..

Good Morning I do not like to start my day with negativity but this negativity has followed me for years and on Wed  was brought back to light once again so I should say this is a Thursday throwback  issue. it’s been 19 years that I have been married ..and yes like every marriage we have had are ups and downs and have always gotten through it. Most of the problem is my in-laws not only did I marry my husband I married them ……my parents have been gone for 20 yrs and let me say the ache of missing them is always there but right now the ache is more .So there is no way to put it nicely my Mother and Father in-law are judgemental , rude, selfish and so unfairly stubborn and most part hurtful. They can be nice BUT only if you go along with their way of thinking then things go smooth or smoother and to tell them you cannot talk to them and tell them  how they are being they will not talk to you or should say me for months..yes I cannot do anything right I do not live up to the mother wife THEY believe I should be and sadly they can treat my kids the same way if they don’t have a title so they can brag about them instead of brag about how good of a person they have become . My kid’s know their 20 and 15 and understand .It’s sad how they never had the chance to meet my parents who where the total opposite of my in-laws it’s so sad and unfair how that happens. I have wished for so long that things would change but after an incident on Wed I now know it never will change this is when I wish I could talk to my parents and I know they would have mine and my kid’s back. My Father didn’t care for them and he was right…I would marry them to when I married my husband.My husband knows what his parents are like but their his parents and I know they intimidate him. Such a complicated situation..any ideas anyone ???

Good Morning!!!

It’s Tuesday a quiet morning as I  sit and write and enjoy my cup of coffee.  My husbands back to work   my daughter headed to work and my son still sleeping after is adventurous  weekend in Boston, then off to practice this afternoon for him even though it’s vacation So things are back to a normal routine day, sad how the weekends no matter how long they are , go by so fast. what can we do …it’s  interesting how when my son was gone for those 3 days I slept not good but slept felt so tired like I said in my last post I checked up on him not overly but enough worried a bit but then when he came home yes tired …. and I went to bed knowing everyone was home I could not sleep I was wide awake still  at 1 and tossing and turning. why? it’s so strange how that happens.being a mom is never easy 🙂 well must get things done around my house have great morning everyone and enjoy your coffee.

Flashback Thursday!!!

This  is a flashback personally from my photo’s . It’s a book I made for a school project  back in 6th grade we had to design  the  cover , come up with a story  do the illustrations with just a little help from the teacher . My story was about a lost or stray dog in the big city which I believe was NY and how a little boy found the dog and so on… I am shocked that I saved it all these yrs ,found it in my hope chest….the one I have remarked on in several post that will never get cleaned out. it’s funny what I saved ,if you noticed the years have taken its toll on it . my kids are creeped  out by it 😦  but I do wonder of all the things I saved why this? the illustrations are horrible I could not still cannot  draw whatsoever. when I think back to all the notebooks I had filled with poems thoughts stories  my diaries  that I wrote why not those…..It puzzles me why this crazy book .hmmm what was I thinking?  well the things we do …there must of been a reason God for bid I will ever know 🙂Screenshot_2016-03-18-08-53-25-1.png

WHY??

As I laid in bed last night wide awake at midnight one word echo’s in my mind WHY?? a word that could have so many unexplained  unfair sad answers or maybe no answers at all some asking why can be petty reasons but for ever reason could it be a right answer is there a right answer anymore? hmm truly hope so. I bet there is one would know the answers …God.. or would he?sometimes I feel like we are so out of touch with him and he looks down on us and he see’s all this hatred the dark path that people are are walking down and he is shaking his head. If we do not get off this path can he will he help us ? it’s a bothering question. I know today is Good Friday and Jesus suffered and died on the cross for us for our sins. I do not know about you but what Jesus did for us makes me want to be a better person, a good person and I hope this Good Friday will make this possible for all of of  us since there is so much more hatred in this world. I  know this is a a request that at this point is so unrealistic,but one can only hope.