Cold…

It’s the coldest night in a while . As I write this I’m under my covers . Earlier the wind was blowing so bad it was making a roaring sound ,all we could hear as we watched the nightly news .. which why we watch it I do not know , nothing good the world is not in a good place . The chaos in the politic world is crazy.. but that is all I’m saying , I do not like to talk politics.

Today was a quiet day I’m going to adopt this word quiet I say quiet a lot . 🙄 but quiet is my world for the most part … and yes tonight it’s quiet as well . It’s okay though because soon my son will be home well two months but soon . So even though for the most part his friends will be still at college and he will be working and doing The National Guard his music will echo through the house once in awhile when he’s home. My daughter is constantly on the run whether she is at work or with her boyfriend or friends so I do not see her much . Even though she is telling me she is so tired and is ready to just rest …. oh to be young. I know I’m just gibbering but thinking of someone who is flying back to College tonight to Ireland and her plane has been delayed 2 hrs and it’s late as it is when she’s flying out. Poor thing . So I know I’m rambling.. I guess it’s time to get off here and try to sleep. Goodnight everyone.

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Silence…

As your laying in bed and the silence of the house around you is deafening .. as your finishing your prayers . You hear the distant sound of a trains whistle echo through the darkness of the night . It’s a lonely but comforting sound as you pull the covers up settling under them a bit more you drift slowly off to sleep.

Finally!

I’ve realized I skipped a day of posting . Yesterday was a amazing happy day. Well all days are pretty good but this one was exceptionally happy. Finally heard from our Son since arriving in Missouri on base last week . He called to let me know his address and was finally heading to the Basic Training unit… yes took a bit I guess quite a process. He said he sent me several letters in the mail and if I received them ? As of yesterday I hadn’t but at least I heard his voice he sounded good but was persistent on my checking the mail .We got off the phone adding he wouldn’t be able to call for two weeks but send him letters .

Today I woke drank my cup of coffee did a bit of things around the house but was anxious to get to the post office to check for mail. The results were 4 letters all from my Son .. the thoughts, questions went through my mind as I drove home wondering why so many and what I would find in them . I arrived home settled in cozied up in my chair and started reading he went by 1st letter then 2nd letter so on.. I read and my heart felt every word I won’t say what he wrote .. somethings are personal . Let’s say a lot of adapting .. adjusting going on for him but as I got to the last letter #4 he was doing better. Things looked brighter . Then my wandering mind thought what would I right ? I know be uplifting encouraging words . But what for excitement he knows it’s not that exciting . But then again he was missing home .. so home it was ..now I can’t remember the last time I actually wrote a handwritten letter but once I got going the words flowed as did my fingers and within seconds I had filled a page . Writing felt so good . So refreshing then typing on a keyboard or tapping on a phone. Words just filled the page. There was seriousness and humor . It was just unbelievable I ended up with a two page letter for him was it exciting .? Couldn’t say but honest and straight from the heart it was . I folded it up and placed it in an envelope and drove back to the post office with in 15mins of it closing to get a stamp for it and mail it . I wanted him to have a letter on its to him to look forward to.

I’m thinking it has me wanting to start a journal again like back in the day when I had so many journals filled with thoughts ..dreams life . For now though I ll just keep the letter flowing he wants them needs them . I am so proud of him . And proud of myself for not over thinking and just letting go and just did what I needed he needed . Now I’m going to get off read my book and then say my prayers before bed . Good night everyone.

Feelings…

I honestly believe that love is the hardest part of living , but at the same time best part of living .. yes love can feel so good and make you feel this deep sensation deep down inside to your soul and yet at the same time can be the hardest and saddest most painful feeling you ever experienced . How can one word one feeling be so complicated an the most best or worst thing in your life . Love is such a powerful word .

This place we call life…

Oh if life came with a manual …. how to treat others how to treat ourself  how to learn that growing means change and change is so important but can be so hard sometimes cruel but at the same time sometimes good a blessing if we only knew the answers to this thing called life but then what ? Would it help us would it only disappoint us when we fund out that this life we have to work for what we want . and who and to find that path on our owner we could fail.  . I know life is hard but once you get through the bad it’s beautiful but you have to take the chance and just do it if not how will you ever know. 

This place we call life…

Oh if life came with a manual …. how to treat others how to treat ourself  how to learn that growing means change and change is so important but can be so hard sometimes cruel but at the same time sometimes good a blessing if we only knew the answers to this thing called life but then what ? Would it help us would it only disappoint us when we fund out that this life we have to work for what we want . and who and to find that path on our owner we could fail.  . I know life is hard but once you get through the bad it’s beautiful but you have to take the chance and just do it if not how will you ever know. 

Thoughts ….

Life is so unpredictable .. first your on top of the the world then the next minute your at the bottom , now you can decide to stay at the bottom or you can choose to climb back up stop letting life …people get in your way . You where born for a reason so climb back up show the world who you are and never let your  weaknesses if others  stop you but let it make you stronger ,be who you where meant to be live believe in yourself for there is no other like you  . So climb and keep climbing but remember do it for yourself not for someone else . For they don’t deserve the strength you have endured to get back up.