Thinking…

I’m laying here in the darkness while my husband sleeps I could go into another room but I want to feel the warmth of my bed and hearing him sleep is comforting. .My thoughts are keeping me awake the  tradegedy  in London and just all the injustice in this world is heavy on the mind and ‘heart.  Everyone is suffering from something  whether is attacks drug addiction it’s just so unfair .life as become more scary every time my kids walk out the door I pray they will  be safe. Yes I guess that is normal but it’s just the worries have gotten so much  bigger and how do we stop it ? It’s definitely not going to change any time  soon. I just wish for peace and love and a simple safe happy life. Is that possible?  Oh my mind is so unsettled tonight even the sound of a distant train is giving me a chill down my spine , when other night’s it would be soothing…comforting. I pray tonight for health and safety and happiness   as I try to sleep..

 

 

 

 

 

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A New Day!!

I woke to a new day  sun shining big  blue sky and saw this simple beautiful rose out side my front door and  I just looked at it so bright and peaceful soaking in the sun not bad for  a November cold morning ..it was  just being and I sighed thinking now if this world could be as content as this rose taking in each day as it comes blossoming with not a care in the world just being …sometimes just being is such a beautiful feeling.. so I stood there admiring it as long as possible as  the world around me was  in total chaos over our new elected President , rioting in the streets in the cities and on the media  and people in my town voicing their opinions again and not being very nice I just turned off the sites and started on with my day with a thank you to this rose for showing me  that life is still beautiful and life still goes on and we have the choice to watch or not , to shut everything off and make it into a beautiful positive day . Positive was the direction I went, okay I will warn you  nothing exciting but I enjoyed a peaceful quiet cup of coffee and then did things around my house with my pups by my side happily carrying his toy in his mouth  once things were in there right place I  settled down to watch  my favorite soap opera with a cup of hot chocolate and watched the drama unroll through my show, now this drama I can handle.  Soon the quietness will be replaced with  dinner plates clanging my family chatting about their day and for me I will sit and listen laugh and smile as contentment sets in and that my friends is a good day.

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The world as we know it..

The world we live in is becoming  a  sad hateful place violence is escalating  , people are becoming more miserable then nice . I love when I go food shopping and I smile at a passerby  or her in someone’s way unintentionally and I say oh sorry and I get glared at .okay yes we all do not like to food shop but it’s not just there,   it’s many places actually more and more are people are getting this way.When did it become harmful if we stated our opinion and its not what everyone else believes?  How do  we raise our kids in such a world where you cannot be proud of your children for what they believe in and stand up for   but worry  more what price they will pay, have we lost our way?, I’m afraid so ..Will things change for the better I only can hope and pray yes pray I believe there is a god and he looking down upon us and shaking his head .it’s a scary thought if that is the case .

Happy Moments!!!

Good Morning!!!  a quiet morning my husband and daughter and son off to work and school so enjoying my cup off coffee and watching  my pup and daughters cat running around the house playing together so maybe it’s not a quiet morning:) such happy little things.so my daughter was talking with me before she left this morning telling me how the winds yesterday had  brought down a tree into the road by our driveway big enough to be a nuisance for drivers so she went on telling me how two trucks pulled over to the side of the road with their flashers on and two men proceeded  to pull the tree out of the way , what amazed me what she said next …”It was so nice seeing two people work together  I worried  bit with  passersby I hope they see them  it’s  nice to see there are still some nice people in this world” I was so astonished  by her statement… its so nice seeing people work together ….its nice to see there is still nice people in this world. It’s sad  when something that should be such a normal gesture is a shocker to our young generation it just shows us how bad is over doing the good …we see more bad behavior then good and our kids see this as well I am happy mine still see the good.. I had worried that they didn’t . My 15 yr old shocked me as well because it has not been a good month at school … and a student/friend of his will be changing schools because of an incident that should of never been possible but the student/friend has not had it easy there as been judgement and just wrong behavior but my Son told me how they talked and he felt bad and told this person he understood of the school transfer I was so happy to hear how kind he was ,now once again I shouldn’t be surprised but peer pressure is at a very high level right now . I wish we could take notes on how some of this generation still believes in being a good human beings ….naturally, shouldn’t it not be a a second thought to have good judgement??? I guess not… I am not trying to preach just stating my happiness that yes there are still good people and I hope for more and I am happy my kid’s have that.

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An off day…..

I woke from a restless nights sleep…I new something didn’t seem right my Son like I had wrote in my last post running out with friends right when he got home from school but asking me as his friends are driving in the driveway ..he tells me they are just going to another friends house for a bit….well that was at 6:00 at 9 :00 I started to think okay  where are you so I started to text him and a text comes through it’s my son I will be home soon so okay that was fine with me but then 10:00 came and my husband and I started to get angry I texted him telling him to get home he said I will we are just talking  about things..I”m sorry don’t worry….hmmm okay so now not only am I angry worried but now confused wouldn’t you be? so my son comes home he sits he knows I am upset my husband had to go to bed early morning..so he sits with me and my daughter and tells us  how things are  going on at school and  its not good…I can’t go into detail but it does not involve him or his group of friends….thank god..but I  feel for the ones involved let me just say I would not want to be a teenager in this day in age thank god my son and his friends have a good head on their shoulders . This world is just getting scarier by the minute the things I just heard , things you hear on the news. the newspaper it just never ending  I am tired of why people make the choice they do and and do the things they do it’s just so sad and sickening …It feels like some people have just lost their way more and more everyday . No morals nothing why I ask?? so today my mind just keeps going back to the conversation from last night… I wish I could just stop time for 2 minutes and take a breather and have everything just be happy. and see people be nicer and make better choices .but I know this has been going on for years but little bit  more now a days. just frustrated ……..