There is nothing better then the feeling you get when writing a letter . Somethings shouldn’t .. must not become the thing of the past. It’s such a beautiful , peaceful feeling when the words flow from the pen in your hands . Your fingers writing out the words you hope makes someone’s day ..brings a smile to their face or a laugh to their ears .It can be a random topic of silliness or a encouraging message . And yes it can at times be sad so a comforting word or two to get them through..but I only hope it’s always good. It can be a long turning of pages or just one page it does not matter how long or short it’s the words that matter and touch their heart and soul. Write a letter sometime , give it a try and see how it makes you and that special person who is receiving it makes them feel. ❤️
The weekend was beautiful despite the rain. This week though even with the sun finally showing itself I just feel this dread or something .. I cannot place this feeling it’s nothing to do with a lack of energy ..oh that I have a lot of .I do know I put myself back in that mom take care mode .. okay you are probably thinking what is so wrong with that ? Well a lot is wrong with that. I’m back in my mode and I promised myself when my son came home after Basic and being away for 6 months I would get on my own routine . And when my son got on that plane that first day . I was good had to be this is what he wanted ..my hubby and I hugged him and let him go and then hubby and I headed home with a coffee stop . And a phone call from him asking if we were home since he had a 2hour wait till his flight I knew he was missing us already being his first time away all to be expected. When we arrived home I cleaned up the house . Room by room not my sons he had cleaned his before he had left. So I just paused at his bedroom door . Then made myself move along. Supper came and my daughter at work then boyfriends … hubby and I ate just it just being the two of us . Well over the 6 months with a 10 day Holiday pass for Christmas he was home . It felt great but so strange I was in a whole new routine . And so him and I clashed a bit … sadly . I was told this was normal. Then the time came and he had to go back. By March I was ready to have him home. And this time it was better we were at an adult son and his mother relationship We talked on a new level . My time ..my routine was still there and he had his routine. Then here we are in May and I’m finding myself out of my routine .. well more then I want to be . I’m worrying if he’s ate what he’s doing . He has been very good about it when before he did not like it. All the mothering believe me I can get over bearing🙄Yes he has had his moments and has told me in a nice way to stop but then sadly apologizes when honestly I do not want him to. I know this summer is going to be a long one. Right now he is working two jobs and he is gone a lot . So I’m trying to get back into the routine of just my hubby and I . In the Fall along with National Guard drills and going away to college it will be my hubby and I and my daughter again when she is here. and I think it will be hard to let go of him this time. He will not be far away it’s for a matter of convenience for him to dorm with our bad winters . And now with all the things happening in this world and him In the Army National Guards has added this worry more then when he signed up . And I can’t say much about this but I do not know if I’m coming off a vibe he is giving out since I’m so good at both my kids vibes of something there worrying about or doing tends to bounce off of them on to me . Always been this way. So could this be it? I’m feeling his worry. Yes he knows what he as signed up for but being 18 there is concern I’m sure with him. He is such a thinker like me . And his humbleness is been a bit more apparent. Which makes me feel anxious…Even though I feel this way I would never change it for the world . Being a mother is just so hard sometimes because the love you feel and there is nothing you will not want to do for your kids . This Fb quiz actually says it. well except for the cowering in your presence well unless you hurt my kids🙂
I made a book list and ordered a book that is on its way that I’m very excited about and I’m looking forward to it . Which it’s been a bit since I was excited about a book since not been able to find a good one and I’m going to keep ordering hoping for more good book to occupy my mind at night , especially when I’m thinking or when he is out late both my kids with that. So my mind doesn’t wander. When I get my book I’ll post it . For now yes finishing the Road. Yes it’s dragging .. but according to my daughter she is shocked that I’m in the last two chapters of it, being that it’s not usually something I would read or even think of finishing. 🙂 well it’s getting late need to try to get some sleep so off I am to bed. Hoping to hear that train and its whistle in a distance I’m so comforted to while saying my nightly prayers falling asleep .
Today my new toy was delivered . And I am very excited but have a lot to learn since I have been doing most of my blogging on my phone .i bought a Chromebook it’s simple fits me perfect . It’s just learning to navigate. Yesterday I went to post a photo and it stated I didn’t have enough storage so thinking it was my phone I I deleted about 20 pics . Well just realized doing so most of those photos were photos on 20 post on my blog so if you read my posts you may come across no picture ughhh . Come to find out I think it a sign that I need to upgrade . Pay for blogging. So that will be the case soon since I love to post so many pics and videos. I just hope when I upgrade I do not loose all my posts I hope it stays the same . So if you notice no pics this is why 🙄
Anyways so I bought a Chromebook I am loving it like I said a lot to get use to typing on a keyboard. Have to figure how to post a pic on here then delete it on the book so I don’t fill up that space. Also my son gave me a mouse which is nice to use when I’m home with it inside . I love how mini it is. Just enough for me. Thank you to Jinger her blog The intrepid Arkansa she has is helping me so much to figure this out. So thank you Jinger!🙂 so here is my new toy. This blog is being done on my phone until I figure this out a bit more.
It was a rainy soggy humid day. Even though the sun came out for a bit it didn’t do much to dry everything up before the rain came back in in many strains.. My hubby suffering from a cold as well as my daughter and now I feel I am but desperately hoping it’s allergies . I took advantage of the rainy day to finish reading my book as my hubby napped on the couch and my daughter napped down in her place until she had to go to work later in the day as well as my son. So both of my kids at work still . It’s 8:30 at night and I have finished looking for Alaska . Such a good book. John Green has such a way with his words . His writing is so different from other authors . His books are just unique . It’s the only word I can come up with to describe them. If only he wrote more. Now on to my next read The Road by Cormac McCarthy hoping I will enjoy it . I’ll keep you posted how I’m doing with it and if I’m enjoying it.
The air is still warm and sticky and the peepers are so loud echoing through the house. My kids won’t arrive home until 9 and 10 . I think I will start on this next book and see how far I get until they get home or my eyes get to heavy to read . In between sneezing … oh so much tissue used today.. have a good night everyone.
Drifting off to sleep slowly… thankfully the night is quieter the winds no more . Replaced with the moonlight shining in through the sides of my window shades. No trains tonight echoing in the distance , oh the eery but comforting sound it is. The house is quiet , everyone is home and settled in. Even Miss Abigail is down in her place . Happily she went down the stairs as my daughter called to her and as I told her good night her little face looked up at me from the bottom of the stairs … I swear if she could talk she would of said goodnight. 🙂 her eyes said it all tho. Off and on through the quiet darkness I can hear my son laughing quietly , he must be on his phone . The sound makes me smile. Oh how I will miss this as time goes by and they all spread their wings .. but for now I will absorb every moment every sound every quietness of us all settled in together. And now I will drift of to sleep as I say my prayers ….
Well sitting down at noon drinking my first cup of coffee and listening to all the ridiculous news .. yes ridiculous . What is wrong with society ? Anyways not what I really want to talk about.. what would we gain if we did… the house is quiet as I enjoy my coffee but the signs of a full house is everywhere. My sons hats two to be exact hanging off the kitchen chairs a sure sign of my son being back. My daughters coat hanging on the other chair that’s a new one. The kitchen sink full with dishes ..when I know that it was empty when I went to bed. Oh a big one an empty roll of toilet paper still in place on toilet holder.. yes one of my pet peeves 🙄 BUT would I change this for the world? No! Okay maybe a bit (hahaha) I cleaned the kitchen .. now until round two.. soon very soon my son will be back from the gym and ready for lunch and that he will clean up . Dishes will find their way into the dishwasher with his own hands. it will be supper prep soon as well . oh where did this day go! Oh I know … I guess laying in bed all morning and then enjoying a warm shower may have cause this.. after thinking I would get to bed earlier . I read until after midnight again and still haven’t finished the book. Then trying to sleep after was a bit hard . I kept trying to figure the ending of it. It’s a crazy cycle I’m on . This time change has thrown me for a loop. Plus the bit of Spring fever does not help. Oh the days of summer vacation when for just a season the world felt like it stopped because the kids were on vacation and we had the days of summer to get off the routine of busy morning school schedules, sport practices, just lazy days and no place to be unless we wanted to be. Now it feels as I’m the only one who is staying in place and I’m on a vacation if you want to call it that . Since being on disability. I’m home more then anyone. yes I do the bare minimum of things in the house some days are better then others ,if I do too much or in repetition you see what happens when I wrote about my sciatic pain . It’s a juggling act of what I can put my energy towards and to keep my muscles active. I think that’s why I am so happy I was able to do all the things with my kids when they were growing up and my body was able. And now their adults and do not need me to do anything for them it’s funny now they do for me which at times is hard to bare … I guess call it pride. I have learned what is important. It’s the time spent the laughter . Even if it’s in moments .. minutes, seconds . It’s just hard at times when everyone is busy with work , friends , life and I just sit here and watch. I’m always watching . (It’s hard especially when I can see my family running themselves ragged and my kids making choices that are not good but know I can’t tell them what to do .)but some days it’s not . See that’s what I do . I go back and forth and at times when everything is done and fine and I spend time.. hour hours reading , blogging which has been the best thing I’ve discovered . 🙂 or I stay up late reading and sleep in because I do not need to do the 6:00 wake up time .I feel this guilt. It’s probably silly .. my daughter told me it was wrong to feel this way . I’ve told her how I feel . She said I’ve done my job . To relax and enjoy what I’m doing. I guess I’m opening up on here because I feel when I write it’s the same ol … but that’s just how it is especially in the winters everything I see from my house my front deck . 🙄 so I thank all of you who follow my blog and read my posts especially my faithful readers I call friends. You make this new chapter in my life feel like something when you read my posts.🙂
It’s A cold Thursday afternoon just enjoyed the best smoothie that my daughter made. Trying to get more fruit in me and this works, now to get more veggies in . Done pretty good with cutting my carbs down. Now to keep up with it. Before I go on I want to thank Amber Diaries I wish I knew how to link .. need to learn . Anyway i thank her for the beautiful mention on her blog look her blog up . You will love her posts for reminding her the joy of adult coloring. Thank you !! I’ll be coloring again soon and will be posting it🙂 And If you didn’t see the update on my last post . My son passed his last test . Graduates tomorrow from the AIT his job training for Army National Guard . I feel bad no family will be their but he is fine since my husband and Mother-in-law made it to Missouri for his graduation from Basic Training in Dec and I was able to have him home for a week. He just wants to graduate which he said is about an hour and at 4 in the afternoon so it will be simple ..and he is so focused on flying home. He’s tired ready to be back in his own bed. Have a bit of some down time been a long 6months And then he start a new job , College his National Guard Reserves job and of course back to the gym he misses so much. . But he will be home ! In the same State since he may stay in a dorm at College. But first he needs to come home. After hearing he passed and is now graduating I relaxed with my book last nigh .I got a lot read had to stop myself or I could of read all night. It was so good . Its 3:00 in the afternoon . Unbelievable where this day went. My soaps are over clothes are in the dryer . House is clean my sons bedroom is all ready for him. And now for supper tonight …just my hubby and I ,my daughter will be with her boyfriend when she gets out of work. I’m thinking Manwhich (sloppy Joes) and potato tots which I will eat a little bit of but skip the roll just some cheese melted on the sloppy mixture. … yum😥 well time to do a few things before hubby gets home. Have a good day everyone.