Some long Days…

  1. Hi friends it’s been some long days this week and the hardest last couple of days where the hardest .no matter how many times you been through it …. passings …it just doesn’t get easier I almost think it gets harder. Sadly it changes your life it just gives to just one more moment,  thought , day holiday just a bit different  a new mindset and shows us  that things will never be the same .  Yes another change … We move forword in a new  way we keep going  because that’s what we need to do and we do it We remember what they taught us brought to our life, the good times and we hold them close to our heart we laugh we cry but we we never loose sight of the good times   so that’s what my family I will do the rest of this long day . So friends hug your love ones and alway let them know how much you love them. 

Life….

Just a quick note …haven’t posted for a bit . My husbands father passed away and the last couple of days have left us in a bit of a fog and this week will be emotionally exhausting so I may not be posting this week …will see maybe I will. find comfort in it if I do write. But before I try to get some sleep which has been a challenge.  I just like to remind everyone that life is so short and family is sacred so hug them and tell them you love them everyday and never take any one or anything in this life for granted.❤️

Sleepless nights..

Crazy past weekend lets see this beautiful full moon has ket me up as had me in reved motion along with my teenage son … this photo was taken at 1in the morning on Saturday has my husband and I were driving to pick our son up after a ..umm …. party he went to with his friend got busted …just to note we did not allow him to go because we did not know .he did you the trick you and your friend say your each going to sleep at each others house but they really are out doing this , Thankfully the police who busted it where very nice because the kids where under age and past curfew of driving they had to get a ride home by thier parents and leave the car or one of us drove it . So we walked up as they where escorted to us by the cop and she asked if we where my sons parents and said if we where taking his friend home too we said yes and she said okay they’re not in trouble we just want them all to get home safe and I do not know if they had a drink they wouldn’t say so we said thank you and my husband drove my sons car home and I drove the boys thankfully they hadn’t drank but still got a lecture from me ,they told me they just wanted to go to be with this girl who invited them and they new they shouldn’t have hmmm a bit to late oh , I will be so happy when school starts in less then 3 weeks, he will and I mean WILL be home and he has been on a strict watch sadly but it’s just not safe to do . Yes we have done this but when it’s your child it’s like a slap in the face of reality your mother saying see how it feels  .. yes karma  funny thing is I had a feeling and I was wide  awake so yes it was a crazy past weekend and a week of trying to get into a normal routine and a little more rules . Let’s say a challenging summer this has been and such learning experience for all of us . 

Nights… 

Once again it’s night time and iI lay here cursing to myself because the tiredness I felt earlier has disappeared ….why? Please I do not want another night of not falling to sleep till 3 . Everyone is home and settled in it’s a damp cool night no moon shining so I’m hoping I will get some decent sleep. This summer has been one for the books to forget about . Ready for the next season to be better .. positive . Well here is to some sleep? 

A summer of change and challenge….

Oh where did the summers  go when the things we worried about was too much sun ,not enough water , over tired kids . how to get them inside for the night and a sad child because their popsicle melted faster then they could eat it. Replaced with worrying where your kids are  ,not home by curfew .. or their not where they said they would be , insecurities if not trusting a friend , your teenager sad and playing sad depressing songs over and over after a breakup. Trying to find an answer to their why’s and it’s unfair .. then we get even more complicated with teenagers hosting parties and you find out your teenager is there because you get a 1 in  the morning phone call saying you need to pick me up because there not at a sleepover…. and the party just got busted and the police are asking you to come pick you child up and their car as well . And you want to be angry at them but at the same time you just want to get them home safe and the lecturing will have to wait till morning but you cant sleep because there is so much you need to say and if your lucky they will listen . Then if you have a soon to be 22 yr old daughter who  does not know what to do with her boyfriend she is unhappy with and is easy for you to say then end the relationship. But they have 10 reasons why thier unsure of , yes is your head spinning mine is . and then she is trying to save and work more which we know work and making the money to move out is a challenge in it’s self this day in age  and she has a good head on her shoulder and is frustrated because she is trying but it is taking more time then she thought. Yes the challenges just as the teenage parties  are .. yes some did some didn’t but this generation is parting even more and  more young adults are still living at home and how did your teenager get ahold of half the  alcohol   is beyond me .  My Son is a great kid has good friends  they all have jobs and athletics and  good grades but pressures  yes a lot of pressures  peer pressure which is at an all time high as well in this age. but do not get me started that is a subject for another day  but I believe it is part of the problem and they just can’t get it that this is not a good thing of what thier doing and let me just say my husband  and I’ are holding our breaths for school to start 3 more weeks and school will be here and it’s going to be the longest 3 weeks of our lives . So like my title to this post says the challenges …this has been an eye opening summer  wish I  could find a solution to all  if these challenges yes I know learning experience  but these days it’s just not a safe answer .  

Ahhh a cool night!

Ahhh so nice out nice and cool and it’s a full moon ! ….no sleeping for me to night , I wondered why I was so restless last night this explains .it . I love how the moons light cast shadows into the woods it’s kind of an eerie but serene feeling .  It’s exceptionally calm and quiet out as well which brings out the calmness  so I think I’m going to sit out for s bit and enjoy this moment .Good night everyone!.

Just is…

  1. It’s a  Dunkin kinda day …. storms are moving in slowly hopefully with cooler air begging them …will see it would be so refreshing , The Mocha iced coffee helped as I sat ion my swing watching the dark clouds move in .No sound of birds or squirrels rustling around I think they know what’s coming . Been a crazy week with these ..was like a monsoon the other night and the lightening was actually amazingly beautiful. I guess I will get dupper gong before it gets to bsd never 

know if we will lose power .