Tuesday randomness..

It’s only Tuesday but feels like Friday .. this week is moving so slow. The next two days is dealing with vehicles going into the garage I am not looking forward to. My daughter wants me to go with her to our local garage for her car … I told her it’s easy enough she replies your so social they love you there you talk away with them . So I will be basically going to remind them what they need to check meanwhile will sit at the convenient store next to it and enjoy a coffee. Then Thurs other half’s truck that goes in ,that’s a drop off but then need to go back to get it. The errand I do not like to do. Well enough of that … anyways it’s been pretty quiet around here nature wise. I think the wildlife is hiding in the shade to stay cool. Over the weekend we did have a coyote in the yard . At first when we looked out we thought it was a dog. Okay I thought it was . My daughter looks at me and said that is no dog . Credits to her for trying to get a picture of him. Any move we made he looked towards us. So she just kept snapping pictures . The pics will give you an idea of this guy . Defiantly pretty and the biggest one we have seen in awhile . Im wondering if this is why we are not seeing our fox that comes around every evening. I hope that is the only reason.

Rain coming in Wed and Thurs cannot wait we really need it. The grass is burning and the rivers are looking a bit to low. The rain will be welcoming. Along with it warmer temps looking like the weekend will be over a 100 and humid. The Weathermen are warning the dew point will be at dangerous levels… a good time to read my book. Every-time I pick up my book I’m interrupted by my other half turning on a movie and asking me to watch with him or it’s look ..oh did you see that . Or my daughter wanting to talk and once we get talking we could talk all night . My son is fine he just sits quietly as he goes through his phone . Sometimes quiet . I can see him out of the corner of my eye making funny faces and laughing… the world of Snapchat. For the life of me I can not figure that out and I guess I really do not need to. Well it’s 8:00 at night and I’m noticing it’s getting a bit darker out earlier each night. Where did this summer go? I quess its time to read some blogs and then get some sleep. Night everyone.

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End of a long week..

This week of endless humidity has finally came to an end for now at least , until Wed when their forecasting an even warmer and humid rest of next week. Happy as well to see last week end … was in a bit of a funk… it is time to face the new paths that life is throwing at me from every direction. Time to do what is right for me . I quote a few special friends on here that have told me this. It’s heard but time. Need to be happy finding my way in this next chapter of life. I guess it’s not so bad to just be…. have I excepted the age I’m turning…. hmm NO! (Hahaha) for now I’ll work on those new paths .With that said and done . I’ve had a quiet nice start of a weekend. Let’s see On Friday night hubby and I enjoyed watching the movie Bohemian Rhapsody . I was hesitant but watched it because my hubby loves the band and I remember when we first started dating he had a phase where he played their cassettes , yes I said cassettes , 🙂constantly.. I do like some of their songs . It was interesting I must say … a good interesting. That filled our night. Once settling I received a text that my son would be out with friends after his late shift at work , my daughter out as well. So we decided to get some sleep . A light sleep at that … our front door swung open and shut several times as each came home and I heard them , then my daughter texting me from her place are you awake hmm ..!of course I was this was about 1 in the morning she loves night time chats as I do . They are the best. We talked for a bit then we decided to get some sleep.

I woke to the sound of my hubby and son banging around in the kitchen figuring it was time to get up myself grab a quick shower and coffee. My hubby and son where heading out the door to drop off my sons motorcycle for some work on it. Yes he has a motorcycle . Had me a bit frazzled for a couple of weeks I’m not frazzled now but it still makes me say a little prayer when he drives out of the driveway and second one at that within two months first one he decided wasn’t big enough🙄 Ive come to except this one as well . I really have no choice not to ..he is an adult.

Enjoying this mornings coffee with my daughter and a good conversation was a nice start to this day. She laughed as she saw me and hearing me sing as I added some songs from Queen in my playlist on my Chromebook that had stuck in my head after the movie. She made me laugh when she said I looked so happy as I was singing when she came up from her place. 🤷🏻‍♀️ after that the guys arrived home and I left with my hubby to do some Saturday errands and of course a coffee …. love my coffee. No errands or ride is complete with out a coffee stop . Once home hubby went for a run and I caught up with a friend Ive known since Elementary School. She is a nurse and works at night so we try to catchup as often as we can . Even though she’s busy she makes a point to always check in and see how things are going as I do with her. That pretty much filled the rest of my afternoon so now supper is done and cleaned up. Both kids out son working daughter with a friend. I’m going to start a new book . I had posted one recently but just could not get into it. My sister is a huge Stephen King fan and has all of them plus waiting for his newest one she preordered . I have read several and enjoyed them . They have spooked me at times but a good spook this one is called Lisey’s Story 509 pages ..this may take me till Fall to finish. I can’t remember if I posted this but here it is anyways…. so far it’s really good . I’ll keep you posted how it is . It’s 8:30 hubby is watching the Baseball game and I think I will get some reading done. Have a great night everyone.

One day at a time, one thing at a time..

It’s been a very warm humid week . Air conditioners have been working over time. Went out only if I really needed to otherwise I just enjoyed the air conditioners and got a lot done with the help of music piercing down the hall from my sons bedroom. It wasn’t his music but mine. He has the best speakers to hook my phone to. 😂It was nice to listen to my music as loud as I wanted having the house to myself . I was able to drown out all my thoughts that have been occupying my mind…  and get a break from them. This summer has been another learning experience . They have been for the last couple of years. This one is been a bit more . This month I turn 50… wrapping my mind around this is ..has been really hard . I’ve just started to get use to having adult kids and trying to find myself after all these years .I know I have talked about this in recent posts about not being the person I was before kids and now after having them . Yes we do age ..change ..grow up time doesn’t stop but now I’m trying to find contentment in this next chapter. I find myself questioning what I do what I enjoy ,how I spend this time of no more family routine but just being is okay. I tell myself I have done my job raising my kids being the best mother, wife anyone can be. And doing this with a chronic illness . Which when I was raising my family I did not think about it sure I felt the effect of my  health issues but I was occupied I focused on my family. I exceeded more then Imagined . I wasn’t even suppose to be able to have kids especially two of them.  I should take this as a time to now enjoy my books, writing , socializing and I do not mean with other mother’s but my friends . Friends I grew up with. funny thing is I have lost most of those mother’s now we have all gone other ways. I have lost one that was very close to me and I thought even when our kids grew up I would enjoy this next chapter with her…

IMG_8931Life had other plans. I slowed down a bit more which ugh…age does that. and with a chronic illness makes it a bit more challenging. I guess I just couldn’t run with her like she run’s and I do not mean jogging I mean constantly going here there and every where . Did this realization hurt yes. I never wanted this illness to define me it never has until this summer and it hurts. I let her define me by showing me what I cannot do.  and her walking away from me I  am not her problem she has a right to live her life but I thought she respected me enough to know that I still had thought we where still friend… now I have faced yes I am a bit different in ways your health can effect you. My mind feels so young but my body feel so much older….and now add 50 into the mix . Do I know aging is a blessing yes do I know it’s just a number ? yes but this is still  going to be a hard one. Please I am not having a pity party Or want pity just letting my thoughts out Everyone is fighting their own battles and my heart breaks for them .as much as life is beautiful it can be hard…with us all sticking together I think it will make it a lot easier to get through. . ..Thankfully I have found , become great friends on here with someone that has helped me so much and she know’s who she is. I feel so blessed to have found her as I hope she feels the same way about me. She is such a blessing. I am so happy to add her to my short list of close friends . She has reminded me what matters  many times over… and for that I thank her and hope everyone who is fighting their own battles has a person like her in their life like I do. I promise, well will try to have more of an up beat post next time.💖

Night… noises

It’s a cool Monday night . Outside the sky is speckled in stars and the crescent moon bright enough to cast shadows along the edges of our woods. The frogs you can hear in the distance and firefly’s are out and about making it look magical as they light up the ground and the trees . Inside the house is quiet and dark as everyone including Miss Abigails is tucked away in their rooms for the night. I thought I would take advantage and cozy up on the couch and enjoy my next new book.

My mind changed quickly as I saw the front outside light turn on . It’s probably just an animal running through the yard… but no I couldn’t leave it at that , my imagination got the best of me. Earlier on Facebook there was a post that someone escaped from the jail around 2pm and they still hadn’t found him. To keep a look out. Now it’s about an hour and a half away from where he escaped and honestly I do not think he would come our way it would be too easy to get caught. But sadly my imagination wouldn’t let it go so I shut the light off checked the doors again . And ran down the hall to our bedroom ( hahaha) now I’ve tucked myself in bed . This is the girl who just received a stack of Stephen King books from my sister to read … hmm will see how that goes . Ridiculous … right? It’s been a strange day so why not top it off with a strange night. ..Spooking myself I really good at. 🙄

Fourth of July…

Hi everyone! I’m finally posting after about a week .. Im learning to let go and yes realize I am not in control of anything .. who is right? But we try …. so I needed a break or should say really should say I just couldn’t write. Anyway this Fourth of July went along with exactly how I have been feeling, go figure… it was not a disappointment but a learning one. My daughter had to work but I was able to spend the day before out and about with her. My son had off and he thought we would be going to my hubby’s brother for a day in their pool and family ….. nothing , no phone call no reaching out with an invite so nothing on my hubby side ..and so my hubby and I and son made the best of it . We went for dinner at Chili’s I had never been . The food was delicious my hubby and I both had the chicken enchiladas while my son had one of their big burgers and fries after eating an appetizer of two Hamburg sliders wings and These nachos that I didn’t get a picture of. After the meal we left and went to see the fireworks for a small town they were pretty good . A lot of people and little ones running around with their glow bracelets and necklaces, so cute . My son said he remember those days like they were just yesterday. We laughed when I took a pic of him sitting with us to send to my daughter after telling her it wasn’t the same as when they were little , and wrote under pic this is my baby .. she did the laughing crying face and said it was hysterical … my son did not find it amusing (hahaha) but all in all it was nice . Came home after and chatted with my daughter and then as it became later we all settled in for the night.. Any phone calls from my hubby’s fam ? Nothing …. got to love family. Tonight there will be fireworks in our next town that they all go to we do too ..this year we will not unless my daughter makes it after work in time with here boyfriend . My son works and my hubby and I will be at my sisters for a birthday party for my niece. Today is just a typicalFriday but with my hubby off . Funny how you learn and wonder tho why do things have to be this way. But it all turned out my hubby and I made the best of this holiday and came out of it with a new perspective. ..